48 - Joana

I woke up even more tired after sneaking out of Dennis' house.

I wanted to avoid unnecessary conversations, more than I would like to avoid the shame that the act was not even completed. Because I've never had trouble feeling horny with a man. And, okay, no one was forced to want anything, but... Get to the point of starting, then give up in the middle of the way. That, yes, was a novelty. And I didn't want Dennis to feel less than wonderfully perfect for any woman other than me.

On the way home, in the car with my two security guards, my cell phone vibrated with a message from Dennis. I opened the conversation immediately, because I already wanted to explain myself, and prolonging that would only keep screwing with everything. Dennis apologized, said he had acted like an idiot in his past, and that he would always resent it. He also said that he had no right to impose a decision on me in that relationship, and that it was unfair to make me remember our past and keep touching the woun