" Why aren't you sleeping? "I asked.Joana opened a smart smile, shrugging her shoulders."You need me, so I'm here.”"I could wait.”"I couldn't, no," said the doctor, pulling that clip off my finger. "I need an electrocardiogram and some complementary exams. Apparently, it's not just a mild pneumonia that worries me.”"Do everything necessary," said Joana, without any hesitation. "I have enough free time to follow all the processes.”"Slep a little," I asked softly, fearing that she would notice my concern and get angry about it. "You look tired.”Joana just watched me."I'm almost always tired.”"Why?”She didn't answer. Joana turned to the doctor and asked for tests in addition to those he had mentioned, specifying blood tests to make sure that there were no major immunological diseases disturbing my body. There was a time when the doctor had to leave the room, so I was alone with Joana. I lowered my eyes when she turned towards me."You don't have to worry about me, Pablo. You ar
The next day, I didn’t pay any visits to Pablo.That appointment had taken at least four hours from my early hours, so I had to postpone some appointments and sleep in the morning until early afternoon. My luck is that my sisters were too busy to stay at home, because the uproar they provoked when they were together was the real apocalypse.Twice I was woken up while trying to rest the lost hours, but the screams of the twins and my older sister screaming back always left me in a state of alert.Finally, when they finally disappeared to fulfill their routine tasks, I was able to rest. But the sleep didn't last long. I had trouble sleeping that not even the strongest tranquilizer could handle. For some time I kept consulting a psychiatrist and using the natural remedies he prescribed me, but they didn't do much good.When I slept, my dreams were the worst possible. I remembered that damn day twelve years ago, when I went down the stairs following in Jessy's footsteps and we found our f
My sisters stopped eating and gossiping, and kept their eyes on our conversation. I didn't know very well how I could tell Hazz that his brother was afraid of the fact that he didn't even visit him, and that this was causing the imprisoned man that need to let himself be carried away by death.I was not a therapist, I had not studied about the human mind and its functioning, but I could understand a person very well. And Hazz's brother seemed to me someone very tired of fighting with himself. Tired of living a life where he had no free will for anything."I went to visit your brother the day before, I noticed that he was a little feverish, so I called a doctor "I explained how to say any trivial subject during a dinner. "After that we went to the hospital. I just found out that he has pneumonia and that it was not the first of his life, but that the virus resists and that the conditions of the prison only worsen the situation that was already triggered at the time he lived on your far
I waited for Joana’s visit in the morning, but she didn’t come.On the one hand, I was happy about it. It meant that she would at least have that part of the day free to sleep, if she didn't have something important to do in her office. On the other hand, I got depressed. I was getting addicted in the presence of that woman. I barely knew her, and I had the feeling that we had been trying to free myself for years, and that it was only a matter of time before she could.During those first hours of dawn, I had a headache and a huge amount of tiredness, but I still did the whole inhalation process with the grumpy nurse in the prison and took my medicines for vitamin control. I didn't feel much difference in my body, but at least my lungs seemed cleaner. Breathing like a normal person has never looked so good. Joana was already making all the difference in my life."What about that stupid little smile? "Questioned Afonso, poking me with a spoon. I laughed. "Damn, PS, after two years of me
Not to mention that, with those blue eyes as deep as mine, it was easy to notice the difference between a happy man and one falling apart. Hazz seemed accomplished. The kind of man who would have made a lot of money in the lottery. That I would have had a night like that with good company. Or that it was a long time to achieve your biggest dreams. He looked like someone alive. Someone vibrant and out of line with the darkness of those bars. He looked like Joana.Speaking of my lawyer, her hair was loose that day. The strands rolled minimally at the ends, giving the appearance that she just wet her hair and let it dry in the wind. I wasn't wearing makeup or jewelry, which also told me that I might as well have left in a hurry to arrive in time for visiting hours. Of course, Joana didn't need to respect the time, but Hazz did.Silently, as the three of us faced each other, I wondered what the hell that lawyer was doing in my life. In a few days she had already managed to bring me a doct
I was so angry about what happened in prison that I ended up passing by the house after my lunch break just to take a shower, and immediately went to Dennis' house.It wasn't as if a judge didn't have more to do with his life besides receiving his ex-girlfriend for an uncommitment sex session, but that was his day off, so I didn't waste time with warning messages.I arrived at his house and he answered the door calmly, wearing ordinary clothes and with slightly disheveled hair. We ended up having lunch together, because I interrupted him in the middle of the meal, and I could even think Dennis was an incomparable man, but his taste for food was questionable. I hated the fried zucchini, but I ended up eating everything, because I wanted to be with him anyway.Dennis didn't want to ask me why he was there. In general, I think he always understood that my unexpected arrivals only occurred when I was at a point of stress that not all the pretense in the world made me less sour. He so litt
Dennis noticed that I was looking out and positioned himself next to me in the window. I watched him in profile. He had a lost expression, but something like a resolution in his eyes. As if I were very ready to say something, and just seek courage. Did you also want that to be the last night? I didn't doubt it. Considering our connection, the man could very well know what was going on in my head without any difficulty. So it was nothing new when he finally took courage and said:"I think we're getting to another level with all this.”I let out a low sigh, focusing on the distant light of the city so as not to face those beautiful eyes of his. I knew he was staring at me, from the way he moved sideways against the window, I knew he was looking for something in my own features. But I was a coward to talk about my own feelings, and I was afraid of having to reveal that I just didn't want to continue with the escapades because I was more attached than I could want."I think we're just exp
I didn't let her pass, and slowly raised my hands to Dennis' chest. His heart was racing, but his skin was very hot when I was able to take off his shirt. He didn't have so many muscles, but he was a big man with natural strength. I always liked to feel his skin against mine. That stiffness of the muscles obtained with some gym workouts and good genetics.Contemplating that body without any clothing was enough to shake any neuron. There was nothing out of place. Not even an excess weight. His whole body had looked drawn by angels, carved into an indestructible rock. His belly was not totally flat, but it did not display doubles like some of the men in our work environment. Dennis was the judge who would melt the panties of any jury.Dennis removed my shirt, pulling it over my head. My hair shook when he did the same with my bra without much softness. He bent down and pushed my pants to the floor, momentarily kneeling before me to remove my shoes. I almost lost my balance, but he kept