ViaI felt myself getting a lot more into it than I originally planned.He pulls away and rests his head on my shoulder. "You don't know how much I missed you," he says, then leaves a few kisses along my neck."Yeah, you probably didn't really miss me much. Especially since you had Nichole by your side," I think to myself and feel a small part of my heart hurt.The fact that Nathaniel had pictures of it all hurt me even more though. Nathaniel had physical proof and never bothered telling me anything. He just kept pushing me away and kept constantly saying "everything's okay" on repeat."I missed you too," I say, then place my hand on his chest.I promised Kol that I was going to be okay and that I was going to be able to get through this. This is just one of the steps that I have to take in order to be semi-okay. I need to clear everything up with them.I softly begin pushing him back to the couch beside us, and he chuckles. "What are you doing, Firefly?" he says as he looks down at m
ViaAlexander Montgomery: Diary EntriesJune 21stAge: 18I think I'm broken. I still don't feel emotionally or physically attracted to my wife. Our sex is very plain. I'm starting to feel like I'm fucking a lifeless body. I seriously get more pleasure from fucking my hand than fucking her. Maybe it's due to always using protection, but then again, the idea of fucking her raw makes me uncomfortable. Especially since I've never fucked someone raw and don't want her to be the first. Is that how it's supposed to be? If it is, then why do people feel the need to get married? It makes no sense. Anyways, that's all for now. I have no idea when I'll write again. Amanda is very needy and demanding. Hopefully, she changes.July 3rdAge: 18It's been a year since I got married, and I can wholeheartedly say that this shit was a fucking pain in the ass. Yeah, I got money. Yeah, I got a good position in a good company, but fuck, do I feel empty. I don't know if it's guilt. I don't know if it's b
ViaAlexander Montgomery: Diary EntriesSeptember 30thAge: 20The fact that I signed the divorce papers when Amanda handed them to me should've made a clear statement. The fact that she had the audacity to say, "Do you still even care about me?" after I signed them stated that she didn't get the clear statement. The fact that after signing our divorce papers, she still had the audacity to say, "You better be a good step-dad and take good care of Justin," further proved that she didn't understand my clear statement. I didn't understand how she can talk so much shit about me yet ask me for money so often like I was a walking bank. I've felt like I've been a walking bank for two years and I feel like shit.October 11thAge: 20My dad took everything from me. Fuck. It just sounds so fucking stupid even after writing it down.I have no doubt that this was just my dad's doing on his own. I'm not his favorite in any way, shape, or form. I'm just the disappointment in the family that contin
ViaJournal EntryAlexander MontgomeryFebruary 14thAge: 22He's going to be a dad. He's going to be what I never got the chance of being.The world works in everyone's favor except mine.I'm not a jealous man. I hate the idea of being one. Fuck, I guess I may potentially be jealous.Journal EntryAlexander MontgomeryJune 8thAge: 23So, the rumors were in fact true.My old friend Nathaniel Everhart is a dad. The lucky son of a bitch had a son.Lancelot Everhart.Sounds like some royal bullshit from a fairytale.He and his family look so fucking happy in those pictures they post on their socials.I fucking hate social media. People just post about all the happy shit in their lives. Nobody can be that fucking happy. I can guarantee it.Journal EntryAlexander MontgomeryJune 8thAge: 23So I met this one girl today.She's apparently Andre's daughter. The daughter that he talks about twenty-four seven. Well, he's only talked about her to me a thousand times, but who's counting, right?
ViaAlexander Montgomery January 24th Age: 24Her hazel fucking eyes have bore into the cold exterior of my mind and heart like a sneak attack. Her voice is still soft and soothing like a melody and it comforts me in so many ways. Man can she light up any room she's in. It's funny how shit works. I once said that I hated cheerleaders because they were snarky and annoying when I was in high school. Yet she's different. She's kind and deserves to be protected. I wish her the best. I hope nobody ever hurts her.…Alexander Montgomery March 13thAge: 24I stand by the last sentence in my last journal entry last. The world works in funny ways.Sebastian works in Pristine Tech and Hazel eyes us as his teacher's assistant. Sebastian says that she's been a menace in his class since the first day. I honestly doubted it when he told me. That was till I saw it in person. Sebastian came over yesterday. I thought nothing of it. We watched a game and caught up. Then for some reason Via c
ViaI shouldn't have said yes to Nathaniel. I shouldn't have. Why the fuck did I say yes?The reason for my answer still remains unknown to me. Fuck, this shit is going to blow up in my face.…Alexander Montgomery August 16thAge: 25It's literally official. The man upstairs probably laughs at me at this point. The man upstairs literally loves to put my little one right infront of me in arms distance then reminds me why I can't have her. Why must he be so cruel? Can't he just fucking end my misery? I'm losing my mind here.…Alexander Montgomery September Age: 25I should have walked out of the room and out of the house. I should have pretended I never saw anything. I should have driven my ass back to work. *Correction:* I should have never come home in the first place.I shouldn't have touched her. I shouldn't have slipped my fingers in her tight and soaking wet pussy.I shouldn't have wanted her to come all over my fingers.I shouldn't have licked my fingers clean.I sho
Via"I wasn't done," I laughed as I took my checkered ribbon and tied it back around my hair. "You also have to let me post it on all my socials and let me tag you."His face fell for a split second and then recovered. "Okay, deal, pretty girl," he said, and I laughed."Okay then," I nodded. "Lead the way," I said, and he instantly wrapped an arm around me.I felt a bit uncomfortable, but I mentally shrugged it off."You ready, pretty girl?" He led me to a dark blue car, and I looked at him."This is your friend's car?" I asked Thrasher as I glanced over at Aiden and Ethan. "Are you sure this isn't the main race?"Aiden was talking to someone while holding his door open, and Ethan was looking at him while hitting the top of Aiden's car, making some kind of beat. Probably just easing himself up since he was racing after us.Thrasher suddenly cleared his throat, which made me look at him. "Yeah, this is his car, and no, this isn't the main race," Thrasher opened the door. "Have fun, pre
ViaI felt really bad that I couldn't help him, but his anger towards me was really uncalled for. Did not having an account right now really affect him that badly?"Jesus, this is why I don't agree to random, stupid-ass fucking races," he said. When I thought he was going to stop talking, he just continued. "I should've just said fuck the money and stayed home," he mumbled more things under his breath until he finally went quiet."Are you okay?" I asked softly, trying to comfort him."Call Aiden," he demanded."I can't. He'll probably get upset at me and—" He cut me off."Jesus, just do it," he said, then moved the stick in the center of the car. "And make sure to put him on speaker.""Okay," I sighed.I didn't want to piss him off more, and honestly, I just wanted this to be over.I took out my phone and instantly called Ethan since I knew Aiden was driving.Ethan picked up instantly. "Is everything okay?"Ez sped up, making me gasp. "Where are you guys?" I quickly said."Down Redwoo