CHAPTER 4- NAME

Situations really can changed everything in a span of time. How in the world was my then peaceful life turned into something dangerous because of the werewolves? And how did it all went alright just because the vampire came and saved me?

Every situations really do bring us to a certain happening we don't expect. I didn't know why i hated to be with guys in school and never did i ever felt slightly attracted to anyone... yet it was so easy for me to compliment the vampire. 

I dipped myself down the water when he slowly turned to look at me to hide the sudden amazement i felt. How did he became so handsome in my eyes in just a simple turn while slanting his head?

When i straightened myself, i didn't see him anymore. He's probably swimming already. I observed how the water will move to detect where he is but i never got even a slight sight of him. My heart started booming like crazy. Nervousness is arising within me that it made me squeal when something touched the end of my hair while i was frantically wandering me eyes around the place. 

"What's wrong?" For a while, i saw worry passed in his amber eyes but it immediately faded. I wondered if my eyes just played with me. 

I sighed loudly and faced him. "You scared me. Don't do it again. I don't know how to swim," i said, trying to ease myself with the thought that he's really fine and i just overreacted.

His eyes stayed with me longer than usual until his brows furrowed, as if thinking about something deeply. His lips pursed and he swallowed hard until he nodded.

"Do you want to learn? I can teach you... even if i'm not a teacher," he said seriously and i just wanted to part my lips in disbelief. I thought he's joking? Why don't he even lift his lips for a smirk? Why can't i find any humor in his voice and expression? 

To conceal my awkwardness, i nodded immediately. It just occured to me when he touched me by my shoulder and i felt the volts of electricity that seemed to be coming from the tips of his fingers. It traveled from my shoulders to every parts of my body that it made me shook my head a bit. 

"Do you have an electric power?" i asked. 

He tilted his head and i can't help but notice his fair and paper-white skin that is now very visible. "It was my speed. You only see lightning but i don't possess that power."

I pouted my lips and slowly nodded. So, it is true that vampires have unique powers then. But then... "isn't vampires just normally fast?"

He nodded. "But they can't compete to my speed. I am the fastest if i use my ability."

He sighed. "Do you wanna learn how to swim?"

I suddenly remembered how conservative my mother is. If she'd just witness this, she'll probably scold me till my ears bleed. I shouldn't show too much skin because it is only for my husband's eyes. I submerged myself in the water, but then, i thought about it again. She wouldn't know anyway. And this vampire won't do anything bad to me. He saved me. That means that he isn't bad. I slowly nodded at him without a doubt. 

I saw a small smile escaped his lips because it thinned. I smiled, i am sure he did smile earlier.

"Come nearer." I did. I felt his warmth in rhe middle of this cold falls invading my then chilling body. I stiffened when he touched my waist and pulled me closer to him, it feels like he's hugging me. 

"Cling your arms unto my neck, sweet heart. We're gonna go deeper," he whispered near my ear, it sent chils through my veins. 

I slowly lifted my hands and saw it trembling. He held me close with his one hand and the other touched my hand one by one, placing it to his nape.

"There. I won't let you go. You can't learn how to swim immediately so i'll just take you with me so you can enjoy," he said hoarsely.

I stared at him in pure awe as he slowly move towards the deeper part of the falls. The water felt colder and the breezes of wind brushing my skin makes all me tremble. He leaned in, his breathings fanning the side of my lips as he tightened his hug. I felt his chest heaving. We were slightly swaying with his every move as the waves brush our skin. 

"Are you cold?" I shook my head.

Everything that surrounds us are cold bur he is very warm. From his breathings that are fanning my neck and his arms tightly wrapped around me, i felt warm. 

"Yeah. It's hot. I need to cool down," he whispered hoarsely, as if he didn't intend to make me know but his mouth was near my ear so i still did. 

"Do you trust me?" When i nodded, he submerged unto the water, bringing me with him as he guide me somewhere. I blew some air and saw his glowing eyes staring at me. 

For the first time since i meet him, i saw it glowing not with fury or rage but with gentleness and admiration. Before i can open my mouth, we surfaced under a cave. My mouth went agape when i stare at the beautiful cave wondering where it came from but when i heard the sound of the falling water, i realized it was right behind the falls. We are still at the same place. 

"Do you like it?" he asked as he wrapped his arms around my waist from the back. He's hugging me from the back!

Why didn't the movies informed me so well that vampires are undeniably sweet? 

I felt the volts of electricity running down my spine as he rest his lips on my shoulder blades. He rubbed his nose gently on it and i felt the warmth spreading all over my body. I can't believe it! In the midst of the cold temperature surrounding us, just one touch from the vampire makes me feel so hot!

I didn't like it. I have never ever felt this way all my life. But damn it! Its addicting. I wish i could feel this everyday. I wish he'll be here forever. I wish he's a human like me or i am a vampire like him. 

I felt the hollow space in my stomach as i thought about it. I touched his arms and slowly unclasp it, which he let me. I moved away from and move closer to the cave not minding the exposed skin of mine which he will see. All i felt was the cold even if i'm feeling the intense stares of him. His piercing eyes is enough to bother me but my thoughts are filled with our difference. 

How i wish we're the same. I want us to be the same. In everything.

I didn't expect his fast movement as i lifted my chin to check what's above. All i felt was his warm and soft hands catching my waist and pulling me near him as he slowly kiss the side of my temple. 

"Please, submerge down the water. You're torturing me. I might not be able to stop myself. Sweetheart, just admire the beauty from there. Don't expose your skin too much. Don't push me to the edge, please." Then i heard his low curses as he pull me towards the water again. 

My heart raced and all i heard was its beating as i turn around to face him. Suddenly, the rustling sound of the water faded so as everything that surrounds us. All i can see was his gentle eyes staring intently at me. His eyes moved around every corner of my face, memorizing every edge of it. 

"Beautiful," he murmured. "My sweetheart is very beautiful."

I saw how his fangs are noticeable whenever he speaks and my hands, as if it has its own mind lifted to caress his face. His eyes closed to feel my caress as he slowly touch my hand to encourage me to move freely. 

I smiled and traced unto his pointed nose, his eyes and eyebrows to his jawline and finally, his lips. I touched it slowly and parted it a bit. His eyes opened, it was now very tender. I was about to caress it up and down but he caught my wrist and stop it even though it is obvious that he want it so much. 

"Why?" i asked, still looking at it, wanting to see his fangs. 

"I'm at my limit. I might not be able to stop myself. I'll bite you if that happens," he said hoarsely.

My mind went haywire and i didn't know why i felt a hot thinking about him, biting me. I almost cursed myself in disappointment because of what i thought. 

It is so not me! Rose doesn't think of how hot boys are, nor even does he get interested with them. But now, what happened? I just thought of letting this vampire in front of me, bite me and all i felt was that damn sensation strange to me?

"Shit!" i unconciously uttered. 

He brushed his nose on my cheeks repeatedly and i felt his smirk as he deliberately brush it on my cheeks too. 

"Uhuh, so my sweetheart cusses too. What is she thinking, hmm?"

I shook my head. He don't have to know! No, he must not know. "I'm cold."

He hummed and slowly moved. "Hug me tight."

He submerged again and guided me till we pass the falling water. He hugged me tight as we near the ground. His hug tightened before he sighed to let me go. 

"Get dressed. I won't look," he whispered huskily.

I saw him turn around while i slowly went up and pick up my dress. I suddenly want to regret that i wetted my undergarments but i felt my cheeks burning when i thought about the vampire. 

Of course, it is better to wet my clothes than be naked! Damn me and my thoughts!

I rushed myself to wear the dry clothes and compressed my undergarments for the water to flow and immediately wore it again. I pressed my hair repeatedly as i embrace myself with my then ruined dress. 

When i felt satisfied, i looked for the vampire and saw him not moving from where he was earlier. His back is on me and i saw how the water shine as it flow down his wet back. His paper white skin got whiter with the clear water. I didn't know that fair guys can be called hot until him. 

I cleared my throat and hugged myself before sighing loudly, deciding to call him already even thoigh i still want to stare at him without him noticing it. 

I opened my mouth to call him but i feel embarassed. Why does it seem forbidden? 

"H-hey," i stuttered and cleared my throat. "I'm done."

I then walked away, not wanting to see a glimpse of his body. As i get away from him, thoughts about my mother entered my mind. Is she alright? I'm sure she's already frantically searching for me now. I suddenly felt guilty of wanting to stay with thus vampire longer. My mother is also waiting for me. And this vampire is a man. Mother don't like seeing me with a man.

I didn't know when did i ever disobeyed my mother, or have i? I've always obeyed ger every command since i can't remember. No boyfriends. Be a good girl. Study well. Don't get attached or better yet not to make friends. We'll leave. I do as she says. What can i do? All i can do is follow her. She's the only one that i have. It is her that i only love. 

As i lay down on the side of a large tree and gaze above, i felt the hollow pit on my stomach. When did i ever felt happy? I've secretly wanted the opossite of what my Momma wants. I want a friend. I want to feel love. I want to stay in one place till i grow up. I just didn't like someone enough to disobey her. I felt lifeless. The only thing i wanted is to stay with her and nor let her feel alone. 

I felt a gentle hand caressing the side of my cheeks and i blinked repeatedly when i saw the vampire crouching down at me.

"Why is my sweetheart sad, hmm?" My lips tugged up as i saw his serious expression. Why doesn't he show emotions? His words are gentle but there is no gentleness evident in his face.

For the first time, i wanted to wish. I wanted something. And i can't help but voice it out.

"Can you call me by my name?" 

His jaw slacked and his brows furrowed. I felt like he doesn't want to because his amber eyes turned darker. I suddenly felt ashamed. 

"Forget it," i turned my back on him. 

It hurts. Why can't he call me by my name. He has an endearment for me but never did my name came out of his mouth. 

Am i asking too much?