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Chapter 66: Two Years of Emotional Unavailability Pt. 2
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Alastair:
Per usual, he was right. Aziz was right about how I’d been treating Harlyn. It was as if I was exploring new ways to be an even worse father than the day before.
I had completely discarded Harlyn’s life in an attempt to avoid positive emotions. Birthdays meant nothing to me anymore; holidays meant even less. Everything that I did after Valene’s death just provoked a feeling of going through the motions.
Toran had taken the helm for the greater part of a year and a half. He was understanding as he, himself, realized that he didn’t know what shape he’d be in had he lost Talon. He could hardly stand losing Tobias as he did.
“I’m sorry, Az,” I finally said. “I…I have been selfish, and I apologize. Ha
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