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CHAPTER FORTY SIX - BACKING OUT, BACKING IN
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Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FORTY SEVEN - FINDING ANSWERS
JaylaMy back collides with the front of someone I am very familiar with. It is Tyler.I know without any doubt that he is the one. I can never miss his presence. It is as if when he is around, every fiber of my being is aware of his presence. I can't help but react to it. And I hate it. I hate how aware l am when it comes to him. I hate how familiar, effortless and easy it feels like to be close to him. And I hate how my body reacts to him.I hate how l can't reject him too. If I do, I would fall into a terminal illness or worse, I would die. That is how the Moon Goddess made us. If a lower rank rejects a higher rank, their heart stops and most of the time, they die. It is unjust and unfair but this is how it works and nothing will change just because of me.Maybe that is why I am doing this. Because everything seems so unjust that for once I want to be completely selfish and use others to get answers for myself. Even when I feel as if I am being used."Are you sure about it, Tyler?"
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FORTY EIGHT - SOMETHING WORSE THAN HEARTBREAK
JaylaAs he says that, my head snaps up to glance in his direction with surprise clearly reflected on my face.I didn't even expect him to speak up, let alone speak about his late mother. Someone I know he is super sensitive about. I wait for him to say something after that, but he does not and he keeps staring into the distance as if he is lost in thought.I know better than to disturb him in this moment. I know that he is mustering and arranging his thoughts to bring them to words. It is something I do a lot too. I am patient, yet a bit happy. I am getting my answers. My closure. As selfish as it might seem, I am really concerned about it.Though at the same time, a little part of me feels for him and I have an urge to go over to his side and comfort him, but that part has been locked up and burnt down by now. It is not welcomed in me anymore. So many expressions pass through his face from sadness to agony to pain, to hostility and then finally, determination. I am so close to call
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FORTY NINE - TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO MOVE ON
JaylaI am woken up by the shrill sound of the departure bell, and I open my eyes to find myself in the same classroom I passed out in. I hold my head in my hand I try to ease the throbbing pain that has spread through my skull, and I massage my temples.I feel exhausted and out of energy. My wolf is missing and it feels like l am no longer complete. Grumbling in annoyance, I stand up and I stagger a bit.I close my eyes, leaning against the wall as I remind myself that I am stronger than this. After some seconds, I get my balance back and walk out of the classroom only to see a sea of students exiting their classes because the school has closed for the day I sneak into the busy crowd and make myself a part of it. It is easier this way. It kind of surprises me how I was knocked out for the better part of the day and no one noticed that I wasn't around. And I am sure none of the teachers that taught in the classes I had today even bothered to find out why I wasn't in attendance.Not a
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FIFTY - EMERGING FROM THE OBLIVION
JaylaDarkness engulfs me. It is the same kind of darkness one would have witnessed during a long sleep, or even death. But surpringly, we never feel that darkness. Maybe because there are dreams and colourful motivations that keeps us from observing this darkness. That keeps us from falling into the trap of its calmness.It feels good being like that. In oblivion, in emptiness, without any worry, without any fear. It is just me here. There is no one to bother me, no one to hurt me. I can even float in this abyss of nothingness forever and ever.But what would I achieve? Nothing. What is a life without any accomplishments? What is a life without fears and failures? What is a life without an enemy and a weakness? What is a life without friends and strengths?We wake up everyday to fight this world for a place in it, and we wake up everyday in anticipation of happiness. Sometimes we find happiness, and sometimes we don't, but nonetheless, we still wake up. So I have to wake up. I can't
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FIFTY ONE - REGRETS
JaylaHis words echo in my brain several times before I can finally make some sense out of the complete and utter lie."No! I am not the Luna!" I say, trying to defend myself but he just scoffs."For how long do you think this veil of innocence will work? We know the truth. Everyone does. Everyone saw that day in school how you entered with Alpha Jasper, looking all loved up. You two were walking like couples, like mates, and your ex-boyfriend even got jealous. What is his name again? Ah! Beta Tyler."Tyler's name sends shivers down my spine but the kidnapper thinks that it is a sign of me getting scared so he smirks."You think that Jasper is my mate because we walked into school together?" I asked exasperatedly. How could they be so shallow?"And your ex-boyfriend got jealous. Also, you are calling Alpha Jasper by his name, and an Alpha only allows his mate to do that," he concludes."No! No! No!" I whisper in frustration. "You are getting it all wrong! Jasper is not my mate! He is j
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FIFTY TWO - AN EMERGENCE
When I was a kid, I used to have nightmares about being stabbed in the stomach repeatedly. At one point, I used to get them every night and I used to wake up screaming. At the age of nine, they became more detailed and frequent than ever. Soon, I started puking in fear and then I developed a habit of hurting myself in my sleep in order to minimize the effect of those nightmares. It was unnatural and unexplainable as to why I got those nightmares as a kid. As a small nine year old kid, I wasn't supposed to dream about crime and violence being inflicted upon me. And again especially such detailed and graphically accurate ones. They were repetitive. Every night I got the same dream. Then I started to hate sleeping. I was afraid that l would witness the same horror again. Mom and dad talked about the problem to each other and another doctor in the pack, and soon I was given sedatives that were mixed with chemicals which had an inhibitory effect on my pons. And pons is a part of the hind
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FIFTY THREE - AFTER HIS DECISIONS
TylerSometimes I wonder if people even care. Walking through the school hallways, I notice how people look at me, observing and evaluating each step I take, criticizing me behind my back, and when l am looking they make way for me. Sometimes you feel like everyone is supporting you, but actually they are waiting for your downfall. They will be with you when you are at the top but once you fall, they go away too.I keep my gaze straight. I don't let it stray because of whispers and chuckles. Because now I know that they certainly don't care. And I shouldn't either. People around you are like the nature, the environment around a plant. They sure do influence you, and you might never flower if they aren't kind to you, but in the end, Spring has to come and sooner or later, you will bloom. Survive the Fall, that is all you have to do.***"No, I don't want to understand anything. You have to bring us the birth certificate, that is it," I say, shaking my head and massaging my temple, tr
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER FIFTY FOUR - REALIZATION
Tyler -What happened?- I ask Chase, standing immediately in alarm. My body goes on full defense mode. I ball my fists up and my eyes become alert. It could be anything. My pack, my mate, anything.He is silent for a minute, scaring the crap out of me before he speaks in a low voice.-I am not sure if I am right, Tyler. But I think ... I think I can feel Jayla's wolf calling for us. It is the craziest thing ever. I can somehow feel her desperation, panic and fear. It is like she is waiting for us to come, to do something. But I can't! Dammit! I can't connect to her. Everything feels blurry and hazy... I don't even know what to do. I am scared, Tyler. Where is she?-Chase sounds almost breathless in fear, anticipation and agony and I am even petrified by now. First of all, she has left. And secondly, we can't even find her. Had she been close, in this territory, we would have felt her. But we don't. Does that mean she has left the pack altogether?Oh Goddess. My head starts throbbing
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Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY SIX - EPILOGUE
JaylaTHREE MONTHS LATERI smile brightly just as Jessica and Anna enter into the dressing room. Today is the coronation of the new Alpha, and by the new Alpha, I mean Jasper. And me, Anna and Jessica are all dressing up in preparation for the ceremony. After Jasper apologized to us that fateful day three months ago, we observed him and noticed that he had truly changed just as he said. So we forgave him, welcoming him back into our fold permanently, and he has soon proved himself. He has been nothing but supportive to all of us in our friend group and he was the one that got Jessica's mate, Hunter settled in when he finally moved here. Jess was given the title of Head of the pack warriors after her father so her mate decided to move here because of her importance in the pack. I was actually surprised that he did something like that but it only goes to show how devoted he is to Jess. After the new head warrior was crowned, the Beta and the Beta Female were also crowned which is Tyl
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY FIVE - A VERY SINCERE APOLOGY
JaylaJasper closes the door of the car and steps out completely, walking towards where we are. He stops in front of us, looking from one person to the other while he still doesn't say a word.No one among us sitting on the blankets even open our mouths to speak. We just stare at him as he stares at us and the tension in the air begins to rise, blanketing all of us with its thickness. Then Shane — ever the do-gooder — chooses to speak. "Good day, Alpha," he says with a slight bow of the head. Shane feels that even though he is older than Jasper, Jasper still remains his Alpha and he has to be submissive to him, which is why he bows almost every time he greets Jasper. Then Anna, following Shane's lead greets too and very soon, all the others start to greet Jasper. Before I know what is happening, Jessica and Hunter greet Jasper and even Tyler grunts out a greeting to his former best friend.I am the only one left to greet Jasper, the Alpha but I don't budge despite the looks I get f
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY FOUR - DELIBRATIONS ON REVENGE
TylerIt is weekend already and I am glad. The whole school week has been so hectic so I am happy that is finally weekend. That way everyone can get to rest and that is exactly what we are doing now. Me, Jayla, Jessica and her mate, Hunter, Shane and Anna are all here together and I can say that we are already having a good time despite the fact that we just got here. Jessica's mate has been here for about three days and we haven't really hung out. He has just been going out with Jess whenever she has time. So we all decided to come out today and blow a bit of steam from the past week especially since Jessica and Jayla were planning a big hangout for all of us on the day that Jessica's mate arrived at this pack. Everyone here is all smiles and since we just got here, we haven't really had the chance to order food yet. But we have ordered drinks so we sip on that as everyone engage in conversations. I can see that everyone is happy. This is how it is supposed to be. We are suppose
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY THREE - A SURPRISE VISIT
JaylaI am standing under a leafy oak tree in the school compound. But the shade the tree provides is the last thing on my mind right now. Other important things are occupying my mind at the moment. It's been about thirty minutes since Jessica was called to the principal's office and she hasn't come out yet. Frankly, I am getting worried more and more with each minute that passes. I just hope she is okay. I hope she hasn't gotten into any trouble. But why would she even get into trouble? She hasn't done anything wrong according to school standards. I just hope she comes out very soon. I am lost in my thoughts so much that I am startled by the sound of someone calling my name."Jayla!" the person calls out and I shake before turning around to see who it is. I see Jessica walking towards me and beside her is a handsome young guy with blond hair. The guy doesn't look familiar and I can immediately tell that he is not from around this place. Also, his skin is slightly darker than even
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY TWO - A LOVELY PIECE OF NEWS
JaylaIt is Tuesday and the day I resume school after my three day suspension. The time away from school did me well, and I can say that I am energetic and more relaxed now. Our final exams are around the corner and I feel confident that I will do well in them and come out in flying colors.I don't even want to come out in flying colors alone; I want to graduate at the top of my class. And I will. I will make sure of that. The first three classes of the day is over so me and Jess are walking down the hallway while we talk about what we want to do after school today. "I think all of us should go out to a diner and hangout," Jess says. "It's been long we have all gone out and done something like that. What do you think, Jay?""It sounds great. We should do it. But I am not sure it would work today, though. It will be at such a short notice and the others might not be up for it," I say."Okay. So we will have it either tomorrow or the day after. We will have to inform everyone today so
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY ONE - FORMER FRIENDS
TylerShane and I have been sitting here for about half an hour just playing games. Jessica left not long after Jayla left for her house. She said her father needed her to do something for him so she really had to go. Anna had said she had to go home so Shane had to see her off. I noticed that he spent a very long time before he came back so I know they talked for a while. I have been observing Shane and Anna these past few days and I can tell that there is something between them. I can see it in their eyes that they have feelings for each other even though they are not mates. But both of them have been denying having feelings for each other. All the times that I have asked Shane about it, he has always denied it. But I won't relent. I will keep asking and pestering him till he admits that he has feelings for her. She is the type of girl he needs and they complement each other. In fact, they are perfect for each other. One would wonder why I am so interested in Shane's affairs si
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY - A NIGHT OUT WITH MOM AND DAD
JaylaAfter I shift abruptly without warning, Jessica stares at my pure white wolf in amazement. She has never seen my wolf before so I understand why she is as surprised as this. I would be surprised too if I was in her position and seeing a beautiful white wolf for the first time.She takes her time to "ohh" and "ahh" over my wolf, circling it multiple times and gasping in amazement before she is satisfied. Then she pulls her clothes off, folding them into a neat pile which she keeps in a secret hideout deeper into the woods.I begin to wonder about which clothes I will put on when we finish running since all my clothes have been shredded to rags as a result of the way I shifted without any warning whatsoever. But I push the thought out of my mind before it lingers too long. I am exhilarated because Mia has finally come back to me and I want to enjoy every moment in her skin for as long as I can. And thinking about which clothes I will wear after the run won't help matters at all
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY NINE - ANOTHER EMERGENCE
JaylaAs soon as I ask my question, everywhere and everyone becomes silent, so much that if a pin is dropped on the floor, the sound would be heard clearly. The air around all of us becomes thick with tension and I look at the faces of everyone around the table, moving from one to the another. As my eyes meet theirs, they all look away. Well, all of them except for Anna who looks at me with a confused and probing expression on her face. That is when I realize that I have done something wrong. I shouldn't have talked about the revenge we are supposed to be planning for Jasper because Anna is here and she is not supposed to know about it.Well, I have committed a mistake but there is no going back. Anna has already heard the beginning of it so I might as well tell her all about it. I feel like she deserves to know since she is more or less a part of our friend group now. We have gotten really closer these past few days and I can tell that she is someone I can trust. I fix my gaze on
Unwanted By The Beta CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY EIGHT - AN INTERESTING MORNING
Jayla The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is to open my eyes because of the light pressure I feel on my waist. Wait, I think. Why am I feeling like someone's arms are wrapped around my waist? Am I not supposed to be at home? Even the room doesn't look like mine.I look to the side and there is Tyler, and he is looking at me with a cheeky grin on his face. He is the one whose arms are wrapped around me. As I come to that realization, I start to remember the events from yesterday from the beginning to the end. I remember Anna and Jessica being at my house and how we all came to the pack house with me driving. I also remember all the games we played and how we all got really drunk. Which makes me to realize that the drinking is the cause of this throbbing headache which I currently have. I groan as I rub my hands over my temple, wondering how I allowed myself to get as drunk as this. Then another thought flits through my mind and I sit up immediately, my eyebrows shoo
