Who knew you could feel this type of emotions when a girl tells you to fucking stay away from her. Shit , it hurts a lot.
The painful part is that I like her. She's all too scaredy to notice that I was willing to do anything within my powers to protect her. I bite the inside of my cheek and stare at space. My hands are in my pocket as I watch my compound through the glass walls. How can someone be so perfect and also has a huge effect on me. I wanna stop thinking about her but it's impossible.
Her words that night still sings in my head. She called me bad luck and said she doesn't want me. It fuckin hurts. I can't even remember a girl telling me they don't want me. It's never heard of. Just walking inside a club and a lot of bitches are already throwing their selves at me. Fuck !
"Gray." Reid calls behind me.
"I'm not in the mood."
"You've been skipping work man. What's up with you ?" I s
God what's happening to me? Where did I even go wrong? Just when i want to be free from guys drama , Gray walked into my life with his dark world filled with mysteries. And then i try to walk out, Freddie's back asking me to go on a date with him. A date. Holy christ.I shake my head sideways and get off the stool.Freddie grab my arm and I was forced to look at him."It hurts to watch you walk out of my life. I'm stupid i know but , I want you to think about us." What's left to think about ?"See ya around Freddie." I snatch my hand from his grip and walk back to our table with my bottle water .Piper is squealing loudly. Clearly she's drunk. Brandon wasn't there as I take my seat. Alexa dance to the song playing as she whip her hair. I'm stuck with two drunk friends and I'm responsible for driving them home."Piper you need to stop drinking. Just drink water." I sigh and push my bottle water to her.
My eyes are heavy and I didn't notice I'm about to cry and it's about to rain. Why are men so difficult ? Yeah, I know I wanted him to leave it's not like I want him to abandon me. How could he stop calling me because of a short blonde haired girl. "Ariel.." Someone calls out my name honking their car horn. I turn to look at this visitor and it's Freddie. Yeah he's like my shadow , always everywhere. "I'm fine Freddie. Thanks." I wipe my eyes and begin walking. "Ariel please stop and get in. It's about to rain." He says and continue driving in my pace to keep up with me. I ignore him and shove my hands in my back pocket. Why am I sobbing in the first place ? We never dated or even fell in love with each other but it hurts to see him walk out of his penthouse with a girl. She was far better than me but who cares ? My hair might be longer , but her short blonde hair is awesome compared to mine. Her blue dress and high thi
~GRAY~One month without seeing her was really hard. She's like a narcotic and it's suffocating I can't get enough of her. Yeah I got laid , few times but it didn't really work. Her words are stuck In my head. Telling me to let her go and calling me a fuckin' bad luck. It fuckin' hurts.Sarai is one hell of a worker. She's different from Meghan but the same in the aspect that both are hitting on me. Why can't they understand I can't fuck an employee. Dumbass bitches.Reid booked a date for her with a new target/client and then she returned to the penthouse to tell me she handled the date just as I expected. Yeah I watched everything."Why don't you want me boss?" Was her first question after she told me the news.She took a step closer and pulled out the blunt from my mouth and slipped it into her mouth taking a long drag. I watched her carefully and she took out the blunt and puff the smoke directly to
I lay on my belly as I write my school work on my laptop. Gray rests his head on my ass and go through his phone. After Leslie fainted , Gray helped me carry her to her room and she's still passed out till now."Why did your sister fainted ?" Gray asks and drops his phone to trail his finger on my thighs to my butt."Maybe she's surprised to see us together. Buddy never thought we would be a thing." I sigh and continue typing."And why's that ?" He playfully spanks my butt and i let out a chuckle. He rubs circles on my butt and gently caress it.I breathe in and shut my eyes. My hormonal system is already active." I don't know. She despises me and maybe ...""She's jealous of you." He states and continues trailing his finger on my thighs to my butt."I really wanna talk to your parents. Why are they always hard on you ?"I don't know what to say. I just can't tell him I got raped by my own best friend. A frie
No no no. This isn't happening. Want the girl ? What girl ?"Please don't.." i begin sobbing loudly again. I need to run to church. It's obvious it's because I've missed mass this past two weeks that's why I barely see luck shine in my favour."And what i don't give you the girl ?""The last time i checked , you don't love Gray. Why do you fuckin care about her ? Got a soft spot now ?"Gray chuckles and the next thing he did made me scream in fear. He shot at the chandelier that's hanging on the ceiling and everything go dark red.I whimper silently and crawl to anything safe. I heard gun shots and cries from everyone present and countless 'Fucks' from the gun men."Tinkerbell.." Gray whispers close to me. I feel his warm self reach to carry me off the ground.He toss me on his shoulders as he begin walking outside. The cold breeze blanket my skin as he quickly drop me inside his car. His guards
~GRAY~." I want you to make love to me.."Have you ever be in a position where you're scared to get laid with someone whom you really like ? What if she's a vir... I don't really care if she's not but she's always naive. Meaning she actually haven't met a man before me.My eyes rake down her ever gorgeous self and smile. She's pretty , in fact she's beautiful. How could Vladimir thought I would just push her to her because he had a fuckin gun point to my head." Gray.." she whisper , eyes not leaving mine.I carry her off the bed and sit her on my lap to straddle me. Fuck ! How can someone be so soft and beautiful ? I wrap my arms around her waist and take her lips into mine. She taste so good. My fingers dig into her ass as we kiss. She run her fingers through my hair while the other caress my nape. I cup her ass and pull her closer to me. She's making me more harder than normal.With my fingers grac
I groan and slowly open my eyes. I think it's evening because I can see the moonlight through the glass walls that are being covered with white curtains. I turn on my side and Gray is nowhere to be found. I look down at the duvet and I'm still naked. Yeah , we had sex and I liked it. Then I remembered Freddie. I told him about Freddie and right now I don't care about anything except Freddie's fine. I want him to be fine even if he was an ass.I get off the bed and wince to a slight pain down my entrance. How can I feel a slight pain even when I'm not a virgin. Gray's kinda big though and he was gentle with me. I go to the bathroom and brush my teeth before taking a shower. I wrap a white towel around my chest and walk back to the bedroom. Gray's shirtless body lay on the bed as he turn to look at me. He smirks and eyes my nude body covered in a towel. I ignore his stares and reach to collect the hoodie and sweatpants." Are you okay ?"" Yeah. Thanks
Guilt. Regret . I so hate itI regretted fighting Leslie and smashing her head against the TV. What if something terrible happens to her ? I might not be at fault but I won't forgive myself. I mean I should have ignored her in the first place and she won't be stuck in a hospital with bandages wrapped around her head." You don't have to kill yourself Ariel. It wasn't your fault."" People won't even care. I should have ignored her." I sigh and palm my forehead. I shouldn't have stopped by in the apartment if i knew." She got what she deserved." Alexa hisses." Really? Alex you advised Ariel to fuckin' smash her head on a TV. A fuckin TV. That shit hurts you know." Hazel butt in." Says the bitch who fucks every random boy in college." Alexa retorts." The last time I checked , you also fucked random boys. Bitch you don't even stay longer in a relationship." Hazel talks back. They ain't helping.Alexa chuckles." I
SIX YEARS LATER I drop my car key on the kitchen counter and run my hands down my hair. Being a mom is so difficult and hard. Haven is always getting into one trouble or another. Last week, his teacher reported him for getting into a fight with an older kid. Gray is barely bothered. ” Look mom , I’m sorry.” Haven whines as he follows me. ” Go to your room.” I turn around and glare at him. Today , he got into another fight because the eight years old kid called him names. He’s got a terrible temper. One I’ve never seen before. Gray wasn’t like this or maybe Gray was worse when growing up. I remembered he said he got kicked out of several highschool because of his fighting and I can’t withstand seeing Haven being kicked out. I squat to his height and run my hand down his black hair. He looks like Gray. Same grey colored orbs. Hair and even his father’s facials. ” Haven , you don’t fight at school, it's wrong
Chapter 110 " What's up with you Ariel?" Piper beams as I slide into the booth next to Brandon. Piper and Alexa sit across from us at our usual restaurant ' sands and winches'. It's been a long time since we hung out together in this restaurant. All thanks to life. " I've been good." I say with a big smile as I arrange my yellow sundress. " What's up with you guys? I swear I miss college so much." I sigh and bite my bottom lip. " Fuck college. It's just been the same boring shit. How are you holding up with online classes?" Brandon asks. " It's been great." I say.
CHAPTER 109 |•GRAY•| I still can't believe what I'm seeing. I battled death for over six months and when I finally won , I decided to check on the one girl who makes me happy and she's pregnant. Like fully pregnant. How can she do that? " You're pregnant?" I ask her. She stares at me like I'm a ghost and I can't fight back the anger that I had to come check on her the moment I was okay and she's pregnant. Who the fuck got her pregnant? Cage? Or maybe some dimwit. " Who the fuck got you pregnant?" " You're serious?" She asks me. It hurts me that she's barely concerned about my reaction to finding her pregnant after waking up from a six months coma. " Ariel, who got you pregnant?" I ask her. " I'm sorry." She simply states. " You're sorry? Ariel you're pregnant and you're saying you're sorry. I was in a co
Chapter 108 Six months later… " Dear God, I wanna say that I'm grateful for everything that you've done for me. I wanna appreciate the fact that you looked after me and Gray junior, I totally appreciate that. I've sinned against you and I'm sorry. I just wanna ask the same favor I've been asking for the past six months. Please bring Gray back. I want him back…" I sniffle and look down at my baby bump. " His baby wants him back. Please. I know that he has done a lot of stuff. Bad stuff , yes, but please he's a good man. It's been six months now and I'm still asking you for this little favor. I want Gray back, please, God." I weep silently and bite my lip. I look up at Jesus on the cross and look down at my belly. Dad walks beside me and wraps his arms around my shoulder to comfort me. He woke up from a coma five months ago and Gray's still missing. The first month , I always hoped. Stand opposite my
CHAPTER 107 ” Oh my God…” I groan and rush into my bathroom to throw up. I rest both hands on the edge of the sink and puke out whatever thing I ate. What is this called, baby sickness? I breathe in and out and look up at my reflection. ” You’re okay in there?” Alexa calls out. ” Yeah. I’m just having baby sickness I think.” ” Baby sickness? What the fuck is that?” Alexa asks and walks into the bathroom. I turn on the faucet to let it rinse out my vomit as I wash my hands. ” I think it’s because of Alejandro. We killed someone.”” Seriously? You regret that now?” She asks. I turn off the tap and turn to look at her. ” I didn’t mean that. Maybe it upset the baby.” I shrug as she chuckles. I laugh and walk to her as we walk out of the bathroom to my room. I remove my peacoat and toss it on the couch. Alexa pushes the drapes aside to reveal the city below. ” Damn. That was crazy. At fir
CHAPTER 106 I sit opposite Alexa on the kitchen stool as she goes about her plan on Alejandro. My phone rings and I pick it up from the countertop. My heartbeat stops at the caller ID. Oh God, what am I supposed to tell her? " What? Who's that?" " Mia." " Holy fuck." She sighs and runs her fingers through her hair. " What am I supposed to tell her? I'm just gonna break it once I hear her voice. She's obviously gonna ask me where Gray is and I'll start crying again." I say. I haven't talked to her and I'm about to sob. " Just calm down and act normal." I nod and take several deep breaths as I answer the call. " Oh my God Ariel. How are you?" She asks on the phone. I inhale and sigh. I wipe a tear that slip out of my eyes at once. " I'm good, Mia. How are you?" " I'm fine. How's the baby? Hope you're eating well? Pregnancy is worse than a heavy toll.
CHAPTER 105 " Emergency! Someone's getting a panic attack!" The voice is muffled and I barely can hear anything. I lay on a stretcher as I'm pushed down the hospital's hallway. I watch the ceilings pass by as I try to breathe. I can't breathe. Everything is blurry as the stretcher continues to move. Two paramedics surround me , talking non-stop and giving me promises that I'll be fine. The next minute, I'm in a room with doctors and nurses trying to give me treatments. Gray's been shot. I can't even think of losing Gray without telling him he's gonna be a father soon. " What's happened to Gray?" I choke out as a nurse tries to press me back down to steady my breathing. " Someone get her an oxygen mask!" The doctor yells. " She needs a tranquilizer..." The doctor mutters and snaps at another nurse. I feel my hands tremb
CHAPTER 104 |•GRAY•| This is so fuckin crazy. I can't imagine sitting across from Sinclair to eat dinner in some fancy restaurant. This is so fucked up. I'm pretty sure we're both gonna flip and cause a scene. Why did he have to be her father? I watch her get up from my lap as she smiles triumphantly. I bet she did a victory dance in her head. Oh man. The doorbell rings at once. She smiles and walks to the door. Probably the delivery guy who's here to deliver the food she ordered. My phone rings and I retrieve it. Reid's name displays on my screen as I swipe the answer icon. " Hey dick." He says once I pickup. " Seriously?" I scoff. I hear Ariel converse with the delivery guy and they are taking too long. " What are you doing?" He asks and i roll my eyes. I'm still stressed abo
CHAPTER 103 " Ariel, I'd rethink my decisions if I were you…" Alexa says as I bring out the pills from the drawers. " When did you buy these?" She asks. " Two days after I discovered I was pregnant." She sighs and sits on the bed. " You know when Leslie was pregnant, you hated the fact that she had to terminate the baby. You can't play that same role you talked about." I sigh and turn around on my seat to look at her. " But Gray doesn't want a baby." " Both of you produced Junior. You both had sex like every other partners and boom there comes a baby. You're gonna tell him that you're pregnant. If he freaks out and tells you to get rid of it , then it's fine." " Oh God." " Don't you want the baby?" She asks. " I don't know. Right now, I don't even know what I want." " Okay, forget the fact that Gray doesn't want a baby, do you want to keep the baby?" " Who w