Could I Say Yes?

For the next two weeks, Mikhail Winters kept coming to Philip asking strange questions and acting as if he knew about something else, the younger started to worry about it, what if Winters heard him and Aidan talking about his innocence and inexperience? He knew that if the brunette boy finds out it would be his end, the end of his reputation and the beginning of a never-ending humiliation, a self-hate. 

He was asking himself if he did something wrong.

He was afraid.

He was afraid when Mikhail Winters came with that proposal that day…

|Friday|

End of class and everything that was going through Philip's head was...

'Finally, My dear sleep, wait for me, I'm gonna sleep and then practice for to-'

"Hey little stripper"

'This fucker again' He thought to himself.

"What do you want this time?" He said turning to face Mikhail "Call me a slut like you again? Say that I fucked with some guy? What else?"

"Wow, wait little-" The older was cut off.

"My name's Philip, P.H.I.L.I.P, can you call me that?"

"Geez, okay, Philip, can I talk now?" He arched an eyebrow and the younger sighed nodding.

"So, I have a doubt"

"Go ahead, I have to go home" He said impatiently.

"You're a stripper, right? The goddamn know stripper Philip, the one who works at the most famous nightclub and the boy everyone wants to fuck with... Hm, who's virgin, how ironic" Mikhail Winters said with sarcasm dripping from his mouth "Philip James, the untainted stripper,

right?"

"I'm not"

"I'm pretty sure you are"

"I'm not"

"Yes, you're virgin! And I'm pretty sure that you also are gay and… Even a bottom maybe" The older had a fake thoughtful expression.

"You can't assume things like this, so leave me alone" He was going to walk away.

"Have you ever used a vibrator before?" Mikhail asked with a serious look on his face. He wondered why he had asked something meaningless like that, but he liked the expression on Philip's face.

"N- Yes, I did!" He said going red, he never used it and barely knows what a vibrator is.

"No, you didn't! Don't you try to lie to me, through your reactions I can say you don't know how and mainly where to use it" He said approaching Philip.

"Whatever you say, Winters"

"You know, I can teach you some things, virgin stripper" The brunette approached more making Philip step back.

"I'm not even gay, shithead!" He rolled his eyes.

"I can tell you're, you exhale innocent, gay, and bottom energy, Philip" The older said smirking.

"I fucking told you I'm no- Ah!"

In the next minute, Mikhail Winters was holding Philip's legs, pinning him to the wall, then holding the younger's arms above his head with one hand while the other was on one of his thighs to keep it around his own waist.

The older was approaching the other's lips, almost touching, Philip closed his eyes waiting for the contact but it never came, he felt the boy blowing on his neck. Shivering, he opened his eyes again looking directly at Mikhail's.

"You said you weren't gay, so why do you shiver and look for my kiss so bad, huh?" He said with a cocky smile.

"It doesn't matter, you took me by surprise. Now let me go!"

"I don't believe this" Mikhail said squeezing his thigh and the younger gasped.

"Mr. Winters, let me go!" Philip said trying to free his wrists.

"Give me the answer on Monday" He said making deep eye contact with the other "If your answer is a yes, I'll make you feel so good, prince!" The brunette said in his ears making a shock hit Philip's crotch.

'What was that?' Philip thought.

Then he could see Mikhail smirk while putting him on the floor.

"I'll wait for the answer" He said close to his lips "Bye, prince" Mikhail said turning to the other side and walking to the exit, leaving Philip alone.

That man, is Mikhail Winters, 24 years old, from a rich family of musicians, majoring in Music, know as ‘the school slut'.

And to say that he left Philip there scared but at the same time tempted, it was little.

'How did he know? How did he find out I'm a virgin?'

'I thought he would blackmail me, but this... I can't handle it...'

'I’m curious, I want to know more, but I can't'

This whole situation and his thoughts led Philip into a dilemma.

"I know I'm a virgin and I know that I know nothing about naughty things, now he comes to me saying that I'm gay, but I can't be. Yes, he pinned me to a wall and I almost let out a sound, but it doesn't matter" He mumbled to himself.

He sighed.

"He also said that I'm a bottom, what in the hell is a bot-"

"Philip, who are you murmuring to?" Aidan said with a 'you're weird' look on his face.

"Hm, I was… Just... Talking to... Myself?" Philip smiled awkwardly and the squirrel-looking boy rolled his eyes.

On the way to Aidan's house, Philip decided to clear his doubt.

"Dan, can I ask you something?"

"Sure"

"What's a bottom?"

"How come do you don't know that? Bottoms are pants you dumb"

"I swear I'll slap you" He sighed heavily. "I don't think it’s that, does it have another meaning for Bottom, like someone could be a bottom?"

Aidan choked with air.

"What?" His friend asked.

"So it does have another meaning. Is it bad?" He asked with worry.

"I-I don't know how can I tell it"

"Just go with it, Aidan"

"So, a bottom is the guy who... Who..." Philip sighed and rolled his eyes waiting impatiently "The guy who gives the ass"

This time Philip choked with air.

"What? Like... Like the one who gets the D during the S thing?" He asked.

"Exactly, little Phil" He said like a proud dad "But where the hell did you hear this? I thought you were pure?"

"Someone said that I exhale bottom and gay energy" He said going red as a tomato.

"Who?"

"It doesn't matter"

"Hey Phil, who was it? It’s definitely a stupid person. Did someone find out about-"

"Oh look, we arrived at your house, so I'm going to mine, I have to go to work later today" Philip said smiling nervously.

"We're not finished with it, but it's okay we'll talk about this later" He said patting the younger's shoulders. "Take a good rest before work and don't forget to eat"

"Okay, dad!" He laughed and thanked Aidan, soon starting the way to his house.

Arriving at his home, he goes straight to his room jumping on his bed, soon remembering what Winters said to him.

'I know who I am and I don't like it, I'm lying to myself, just doing things worse when I can't deny it, what should I do?'

Thinking about all the things that could happen, the young man started to cry.

'She won't love me anymore, if I do things wrong I'll make her sad. But I want to, I want to try, I want to make sure if I really like-'

"But what if she'll hate me? I don't know what to do"

Not knowing what to do, he picked up his cell phone.

|Message|

Philip:

Hey Dan, sorry for bothering you so soon, but can you come over?

I want to talk with you.

Philip:

Mom's not here

Danquirrel:

Philie Pixie, since when do you bother me, silly? Don't say things like this

Is everything ok?

Danquirrel:

I'm going, give me 10 minutes.

Me:

Ok, thanks

|Message Closed|

When he put the phone down he heard a knock on the door, wiping his tears to go downstairs.

"Who's it?"

"A pizza and your favorite squirrel boy, can you let us in?" He said sounding like he was smiling.

"You said you'd be here in ten, how you arrived so fast?" Philip said opening the door but not looking directly at Aidan.

"Well, I was already coming here when you texted me" He said entering the house and going to the kitchen.

"Why?"

"Phil, even if you had said you were ok I would've come, when we left school you were looking so sad" Aidan said lifting the boy's face "So, now I'm here with a pizza as our lunch, sorry about this unhealthy choice by the way, wanting to know what happened with you and why were you crying, okay?"

"You do know me, thank you" Philip said hugging the older tightly "About the pizza, just once don't kill anyone"

Both boys sat on the couch to eat the pizza while watching a movie, they laughed a lot and talked about banal things, and then they finished and it was time for Philip to say what was upsetting him.

"I-I don't know from where to start" He said trembling "It's not that big of a deal, maybe I'm making a storm in a glass of water"

"We won't know if you don't tell me, so start from the beginning, what happened first?" He said with a calm look.

"Well, to start with, it has to do with Winters, you know that for the past two weeks he has been pissing me off way more, saying that I'm hiding something and he knows what it is, right?"

Aidan nodded.

"He does know, he found out that I'm still a virgin" The red-haired boy said frustrated.

"Oh shit and now he's trying to blackmail you?" Aidan said with concern in his eyes.

"That's what I thought he would do, but he proposed to teach me good things and I think he means that thing, you know? But I said to him that I'm not gay and he freaking pinned me to a wall to prove me wrong"

He paused and when Mr. Martin would start talking, he continued.

"The problem is no longer that I'm a virgin and he knows it" Philip started to tear up "The problem is that he made a proposal to me and I can't accept, but I want to, if I say yes I'll learn things and finally do something that I want, I won't be the innocent kid you guys call me, but- but if a really say yes, I'll be lying to mom, you know what happened with her and if she finds out that I'm actually gay, she will hate me and she'll kick me ou-"

"Hey Philip, look at me"

Philip was taken out of his mental prison by Aidan's voice. The younger was a crying mess and he should help him.

"I need you to calm down and breathe with me, okay? Inhale, one, two, three, exhale, one, two, three. Close your eyes, and repeat. We don't need an anxiety attack, right?" The older said caressing Philip's cheek. "Better?"

Philip nodded murmuring a thank you.

"You know, Philip, I care about your mom, even if she doesn't like me, I do it because of you" Aidan took Philip's hands in his "And because I really care about you, I want you to do what you want"

Mr. Martin said looking deeply into Philip's eyes.

"This is the first time you've been saying you want something without totally denying it because of your mom and you should know how fucking happy I am right now, you deprived yourself of so many things because of her, so if you want to go for it"

"But Dan, she hates gays and I am gay but if I don't show it she won't hate me too, so-"

"So... Do it hidden" The boy said with a smug face.

"What? No"

"Oh come on, you want it then do it, if she finds out and kicks you out, my door is open for you whenever you need it"

Aidan smiled and Philip pondered.

"Maybe, but just maybe, it could work, I'll think about it" He said smiling slightly.

"But I do have an opposition... I don't trust Mikhail Winters, he's the school fuckboy, you know" The blonde said with a frown on his face.

"Oh fuck, you're right" Philip said seeming scared again "So I definitely shouldn't be doing th-"

"Wait, wait, wait, don't give up on it, please! Be yourself just once, find out about what you like, okay?" Mr. Martin said, already regretting what he said about the fuckboy "Just don't fall in love"

"I'll think about it, I want to try it, but I can't simply say yes and fuck the world. He will wait untill Monday, so I have the weekend to process everything" Philip said, calmer this time and not freaking out "You helped a lot as always, so thanks squirrel boy, I love you, you know that right?"

"Of course I do, who wouldn't love me?" The older said with a cocky smile "I love you too, freckles, I'll always be here for you. But anyways I have to go, mom asked me to do the grocery"

Both boys walked to the door hugging each other.

"Bye Philie Pixie"

"Bye Danquirrel" He said laughing "Oh, hey Aidan! Don't worry, I would never fall in love with him!"