Dilemma

Naya/Avery:

As I stood in the garden area the breeze calmly tingly on my ears, why couldn’t I just get back my memories what if my parents were somewhere looking for me? What if I was married and what if I had children?

All of these questions were bothersome and I couldn’t wrap my head around them.

I got to the stairs which redirected to a point in our garden, I felt super depressed and I also felt like a prisoner except for the prison I had was my body and my mind because I can’t remember anything.

As I turned to go back into the room I couldn’t surrender the thought saying in my mind that maybe I belonged here but I couldn’t understand why I would feel I belonged here when I don’t know anything about this place, to begin with.

“Avery!” I heard someone call and I turned to see Alpha Karl coming towards my direction.

Damn this man is sexy, his long strides are what could make a woman wet in her pants.

“Yes!” I answered stopping in my tracks and coming out of my nasty thoughts of having him think I was ogling him.

“Where are you headed?” he asked her finally getting close to me and I could smell his aftershave and cologne mixed and it could give me a heart attack with the way he was calling out the name Avery. Although it wasn’t my real name that I knew I think I loved the way he called it and I wished the name could be my real name if I finally regained my memory.

“I am going into my room” I answered thinking that was all.

“Maybe I could show you around the Pack if you don’t mind,” I said.

“I do mind, ain’t you supposed to be prepared for your wedding?” I asked him.

“My sister and the Pack Elders can handle that including my Beta Mathias so I have nothing to do with that” he responded and I couldn’t help but hear the hesitation in his voice when he said his sister and the rest were planning his wedding for him.

“Do you not love the woman in question?” I asked finding a spot to set myself on standing was beginning to ache my knees.

“How can I love someone who doesn’t know me and I don’t know her either, it’s so frustrating how the Elders always think that we have to follow the laws of our ancestors even when we have all become tech-savvy,” he said to me and I knew what this was so disturbing to him.

“I get how you feel but why don’t you go try getting to know her, because I am sure you get two weeks to prepare for your wedding by then we should be able to know if she has caught your eye or not,” I said trying to make him see it wasn’t that bad to try relieving his stress.

“I am not doing that,” he said with a frown on his face making me know it would be a long shot to have him hear what I had just said he said it with a hard affirmation so I didn’t talk about it anymore at least for now.

Suddenly he got up and told me he had been Mind linked by his Beta and that was our cue to go into the pack house when I got into the pack house the way everyone looked at me made me believe I wasn’t wanted there so I excused myself and went into the guest room I had been given.

All these preparations going on were making me anxious and I don't know why I felt the way I was feeling but it was as though seeing Karl prepare to wed another woman made my heart whiff.

This was wrong, he wasn't supposed to affect me that way if anything he was making me try to get back to my family if I had any and I should be able to respect that.

The fact that the elders looked at me to be a wild person was way overboard and all I could do was hope I leave this place before I get what I wasn't looking for.

Somehow this place looked familiar to me but I could place my hand on why it would look so familiar to me well, my memory had to return with immediate effect.

After having that talk with Karl, I began thinking what if ingot to find out I was betrothed to someone I didn't love, how was I going to cope with that? Would I have followed my advice to him to get to know the man better or would I have refused blatantly telling them I wanted some space and I wouldn't marry who didn't know?

Climbing into the bed which was soft and soothing to the aches in my body I decided it was time to have an afternoon nap hopefully when I awoke I would remember something from my life which would trigger me to leave this place and not be a hindrance to Karl.

After about an hour of napping, there was a tap on my door.

"Who is it?" I asked grudgingly as I walked towards the door I could tell it should be late in the afternoon about 4 pm.

"It is me, Flavin, I brought you some juice," the voice said and I opened it to see her standing there with the glass of juice in hand.

"I didn't ask for Juice," I said still not taking the juice from her and wondering why Karl's supposed bride would offer me juice when I didn't and for it.

"The Alpha asked me to serve you and that is why I am here with the juice" Flavin responded and I reluctantly took off the glass and thanked her as I closed the door behind me.

I wasn't drinking any of the content, I trusted only Karl and this was because he was the one who had taken care of me.

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