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Gratitude and Unease

Author: Osarumwense Osakue
last update Last Updated: 2024-11-29 15:23:49
Riley’s POV

When I opened my eyes the next morning, the dull aches in my body reminded me that last night wasn’t just some nightmare.

Every movement sent sharp reminders through my muscles, and the throb in my cheek made me wince.

My hands found the bandage still stuck firmly to my skin, and for a brief moment, I allowed myself to wallow in the helplessness of it all.

The events of the night before replayed in my mind—the dark alley, the cruel laughter of those men, and the humiliation of being overpowered and robbed.

My fists clenched at the memory, and an anger I rarely let surface bubbled within me.

I hated feeling weak.

If only I’d been stronger. If only I could’ve fought back. If only I hadn’t been so easy to take down. The thought sent another pang of humiliation through me.

But then, another memory crept in, one that felt even more surreal. Jaxon.

The man I loathed had been the one to save me. And not just save me—he’d gone so far as to send me...

I grabbed my phone
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