My sisters and I ended up talking that night, but we didn't end the facetime. We slept with our cameras on. The next day I was the first to wake up while my two sisters were still sleeping. When I came down from my room, I immediately caught up with Manang Gina in the living room. It was still a bit dark outside, so I was surprised when Manang Gina was there. "Oh, Z. It's too early; why are you awake?" she asked me immediately when she saw me. "Good morning, Manang. I woke up really early so I could prepare for my first day of school," I explained to her. She was cooking breakfast, and just the smell of what she was cooking was already appetizing. "Okay, okay. I haven't finished the breakfast I'm cooking yet. I'll make you some coffee first," she said, which I immediately stopped. "No, Manang. Just continue what you're doing. I'll take care of myself," I said, then smiled. She just nodded at me and didn't argue anymore, so I started making my coffee. "Has Johny come ho
Brandon and I got out of my car together when we got to school. I immediately noticed some students looking at us, but that's not new to me. "How about you just go with me? So they don't have to worry about me anymore because you're with me," I suggested to him. Brandon walked first, so I immediately followed him. "Please? If that's okay with you, since you said you won't do anything after class," I continued speaking. "Brandon!" Even though I hadn't completely convinced Brandon, I immediately heard a voice calling him not far from us. I saw his friends waiting for him at the building we're heading to. I even saw Karylle looking at me, and I remembered again the bad conversation she had with me yesterday. Brandon went straight to his friends, so I had no choice but to follow him because I didn't know where our room was. "Woah! You have new chicks, huh? But it looks familiar?" said a male friend of Brandon's. I looked at him with a frown and saw that he was also staring
Brandon and I went to the café. There are many students there who are buying their meals, and others are already eating. It's noisy there because the friends who eat there have their own worlds. I suddenly remembered Lexy because we ate lunch together at school during our break time. I still remember that I had the most friends in our university, but now I'm alone. There was a long line at the counter, and while I was standing there, I couldn't help but look back at the students who were looking at me. It's like I'm so different from them as they look at me. I don't even know if they are curious about who I am or if they are annoyed with me because I see some whispering there while looking at me. "Come with me so you don't have to stand in line for a long time." I looked at Brandon, who was by my side. I thought he had left a while ago and gone to his friends when we got here, but I didn't realize that he was still following me. I frowned at him, but he immediately started w
Brandon and I finished our last class without giving us any tasks. Just like before, I was only introduced to my other classmates and my professor. "You can't take back what you said, right? So hurry up! I'm excited to go there," I said to Brandon. He nodded and immediately put his things away before shrugging his shoulders. Some of our classmates are trying to talk to us, and all I can do is say hi and hello to them. It's not that I don't want to talk to them, but I'm just really excited to go to the mall. "Gosh! Why don't we just use your staff card in the elevator? My foot hurts!" I complain. We're walking down the building. Our room was only on the third floor, but because I was wearing heels, it was very difficult for me to go down. "I can't do that. Maybe some other students will see us and join us. Our professors will scold me," he explained. I held my breath and was exhausted. "Next time don't wear shoes like that. You can wear flat shoes or rubber shoes," he add
How do people learn how to love and trust again after being hurt so many times by their loved ones?I know that emotions are hard to deal with, but we have to face them when they come to us. Hurt is a difficult one, but you have to learn how to handle it as well as any other emotion. You are sad, perhaps angry; you don't want to deal with it, but you have to. And that's how life works...As I stand here while drinking my red wine on either side of the ledge, looking down from twelve stories above the streets of Metro Manila, I can't help but think about suicide.Of course, not my own. I love my life enough to do those things. I can only imagine how they could decide to end their lives. Do they ever regret it? I know we all have our own challenges, but is suicide really the solution?"Zari!"I rolled my eyes when I heard my sister Margot's voice. I know the reason why she is here."I've been looking for you for a while. What are you doing here?" she asked me.I sighed and backed away s
"Z! Are you coming tonight?"I widened Lexy's eyes and signaled to her not to be noisy. It's Friday, and my friends want to have fun tonight at a bar not far from our school because it's also a birthday celebration for one of our team members.We were in the school's closed gym. I just sat on the bench to drink water and rest for a while. I just finished my volleyball training and am waiting for Bettina. She's a cheerleader at our school. Of course, she's beautiful and talented; that's why most of the boys on campus are courting her."I need your answer now, so I can prepare what I'm going to wear right away!" Lexy said artfully.I rolled my eyes and approached her before speaking."I'll just message you later. You know that I'll just escape again," I answered her.She laughed and poked me lightly in the side."You're really such a brat! What if your mom and dad find out? I might get scolded too if they find out I'm with you!" Lexy was preaching to me.I was tormented again and held m
"What's on your mind, and you managed to run away just to party? My God, Bettina and Zariyah!" Mommy was preaching to us. Yes, it's true. They found out that we were not at home. Bettina and I didn't realize that someone had seen us earlier. I'm still feeling dizzy right now, and I still can't get the man I kissed earlier out of my mind. I didn't even have the chance to know his name! I don't want to make my mother's head hurt more because I know she has a lot on her mind right now, but I also know that she won't allow me and Bettina to go out if we inform them."How many times have you made that escape? I don't know what to do with you! Especially you, Bettina! You're still the eldest!" Daddy added. Bettina kept her head down and was only looking at the tiles below. She is afraid of disappointing Mom and Dad, but I know that she also wants to have fun. "I didn't even know how you girls learned how to fool your parents! Do you really want that? To fool us that you're always at hom
This place is boring! In less than an hour since I arrived at this house, I was restless. This is not the punishment that I'm expecting! I already cried earlier, but I stopped because my crying didn't do anything. I called Mommy as well, but she still hasn't talked to Daddy about me, so I lost hope even more. I opened my suitcases and removed my things one by one. My room is big, and I like the design. There is a big window there, and you can see the trees and some mountains not far from this house. When I look at the scenery, I relax a bit, but when I think about my life in the city compared to my life here in the province, I can't help but be annoyed. I don't know how many hours I put my things in order, and when I got tired, I fell asleep. I just woke up from my sleep because of Manang Gina's knocks. I didn't realize that it was late and I needed to eat dinner. "Ma'am Zari, I'm sorry about our dinner tonight. This is all Julio got from fishing. I also couldn't buy anything at
Brandon and I finished our last class without giving us any tasks. Just like before, I was only introduced to my other classmates and my professor. "You can't take back what you said, right? So hurry up! I'm excited to go there," I said to Brandon. He nodded and immediately put his things away before shrugging his shoulders. Some of our classmates are trying to talk to us, and all I can do is say hi and hello to them. It's not that I don't want to talk to them, but I'm just really excited to go to the mall. "Gosh! Why don't we just use your staff card in the elevator? My foot hurts!" I complain. We're walking down the building. Our room was only on the third floor, but because I was wearing heels, it was very difficult for me to go down. "I can't do that. Maybe some other students will see us and join us. Our professors will scold me," he explained. I held my breath and was exhausted. "Next time don't wear shoes like that. You can wear flat shoes or rubber shoes," he add
Brandon and I went to the café. There are many students there who are buying their meals, and others are already eating. It's noisy there because the friends who eat there have their own worlds. I suddenly remembered Lexy because we ate lunch together at school during our break time. I still remember that I had the most friends in our university, but now I'm alone. There was a long line at the counter, and while I was standing there, I couldn't help but look back at the students who were looking at me. It's like I'm so different from them as they look at me. I don't even know if they are curious about who I am or if they are annoyed with me because I see some whispering there while looking at me. "Come with me so you don't have to stand in line for a long time." I looked at Brandon, who was by my side. I thought he had left a while ago and gone to his friends when we got here, but I didn't realize that he was still following me. I frowned at him, but he immediately started w
Brandon and I got out of my car together when we got to school. I immediately noticed some students looking at us, but that's not new to me. "How about you just go with me? So they don't have to worry about me anymore because you're with me," I suggested to him. Brandon walked first, so I immediately followed him. "Please? If that's okay with you, since you said you won't do anything after class," I continued speaking. "Brandon!" Even though I hadn't completely convinced Brandon, I immediately heard a voice calling him not far from us. I saw his friends waiting for him at the building we're heading to. I even saw Karylle looking at me, and I remembered again the bad conversation she had with me yesterday. Brandon went straight to his friends, so I had no choice but to follow him because I didn't know where our room was. "Woah! You have new chicks, huh? But it looks familiar?" said a male friend of Brandon's. I looked at him with a frown and saw that he was also staring
My sisters and I ended up talking that night, but we didn't end the facetime. We slept with our cameras on. The next day I was the first to wake up while my two sisters were still sleeping. When I came down from my room, I immediately caught up with Manang Gina in the living room. It was still a bit dark outside, so I was surprised when Manang Gina was there. "Oh, Z. It's too early; why are you awake?" she asked me immediately when she saw me. "Good morning, Manang. I woke up really early so I could prepare for my first day of school," I explained to her. She was cooking breakfast, and just the smell of what she was cooking was already appetizing. "Okay, okay. I haven't finished the breakfast I'm cooking yet. I'll make you some coffee first," she said, which I immediately stopped. "No, Manang. Just continue what you're doing. I'll take care of myself," I said, then smiled. She just nodded at me and didn't argue anymore, so I started making my coffee. "Has Johny come ho
Brandon and I continued to talk well. It's just funny because that's why we always talk without looking at each other. After washing the dishes, we decided to go into the living room. The elders were outside and seemed busy in their conversation. I looked at my wristwatch and saw that it was seven o'clock in the evening. I need to get home because my siblings and I are talking about FaceTime tonight. "Are you going home or are you going to spend the night here?" Brandon asked. He was sitting again where he used to sit earlier while holding the book he was reading. I quickly shaken my head and sighed. "No. I'm going home because my siblings and I have face time," I answered him. He nodded and, for a moment, looked at the clock of Manang Gina's house. "It's almost eight o'clock. Can you still go home at this time? It's already dark outside, and you can barely see any lights on the road," he said, causing both of my eyebrows to rise. I grinned to tease him, but he immediatel
"Give me that," he said again with a serious voice. I shook my head, showing him that I was cool even though I was nervous. I quickly sent it in my own message, but my eyes almost widened when my phone suddenly disappeared from my hand. "Hey!" I said when Brandon took it from me. I stood up to take it back to him, but it looked like he had already seen his picture on my phone. "See? Liar," he said. "I'm not! Give me that!" I told him. He is tall, so I can't reach it in his hand, especially when he lifts it up to keep it away from me. He pressed something on my phone, and I think he deleted his picture. "Why did you do that?" he asked me, then hung up my phone. I shook my head at him and again tried to take it from him, but he pushed it away from me. "You deleted it, didn't you? So give my phone to me!" I said to him, annoyed. Now he was the one who shook his head, so I couldn't help but raise an eyebrow at him. "I won't give it back to you until you tell me the re
Before I finally went home, I went through the town, where I found clothes that could be bought. I don't know if there's a mall here, but the clothes I see here are new. I haven't tried to buy some things in this kind of store, but why not if I try it today?I think I bought some things from all the marketstalls there. I especially enjoyed shopping, and the ones there were not expensive. I also bought clothes for Johny, Manang Gina, and her husband. I just stopped buying when I couldn't carry everything anymore, and I can't believe that I spent less than three thousand!"This is so cool!" I laughed to myself as I walked to my car.I smiled as I put everything I bought in the back of the car. Then I got on board to go home. It looks like I'm going to enjoy this place just for shopping!When I got back home, I immediately organized my purchases. I separated what I was going to give to Manang Gina's family, and while I was busy doing it, my phone rang because of a call.When I saw my mot
I left the house to go to school. It wasn't hard to remember the way to get there, so I got there right away. The guard there talked to me for a moment, and when he found out that I was a transferee, he immediately let me inside the school. I don't know where the professors' faculty department is here, but I'll just ask when I see someone inside. The school and university are quite spacious, but not as big as my school in Manila. There are also big buildings there, and there are benches and some trees. I parked where I saw other cars. It's very quiet in this place because there are no students today. I keep getting nervous because these are the scenes I watch in horror movies. I feel like I'm alone here! I took a deep breath and pushed out of my mind what was on my mind. I walked away from the parking lot to enter the building, even though I didn't know which way to go. It was as if I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw a man arranging things in a room. He was taking out some boxe
I tried to focus on the mass, but I couldn't get my mind off the man I was with at the club the other night. When we were in the peace be with you part, I didn't waste the opportunity to look at him again. We looked at each other again, but I couldn't really see any expression in his eyes. He just signaled peace to me, then turned his eyes to others to make peace as well. The whole mass until the end, I was thinking of him. Does he really not remember me? I remember our conversations that night, and I don't remember that he was very drunk that night. He was easy to talk to, so I knew he wasn't drunk that night. When the mass was over, people went out one by one. I looked behind me again to see and talk to the man, but he was no longer in his seat. I only looked for a moment, but my eyes widened when Johny and Manang Gina were no longer by my side. There were a lot of people there, and I almost felt dizzy because I couldn't see them. I'm nervous because I don't want to lose myself