Chapter 39: Have I lost her already?

Jaxson

I put my shirt back on while Esmerelda just kind of looks off in to space dazed and confused. I didn’t want to have to tell her this way. I thought I had time, but I guess the world had different plans. I wanted to be able to ease her mind so that she didn’t need to fear being with me. But that has been royally fucked now. But one question that really needs to be answered is how the fuck anyone any idea had. my own family didn’t know.

And then if it was already fucked, what just happened might have just sealed the deal. I was happy just to be kissing her and holding her to me, did I know it might distract her just a little bit from what I had just said? Yes. But I couldn’t just say that and not show her it was true. I also couldn’t stand the thought I might not get to do so again. Then her arms fingers grazed my skin and that was when I lost control. I thought that was her way of telling me it would be okay. I was wrong. And now the only thing I see even her dazed expression is