LUCIA AMATO‘YOU’RE A LOT MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN FLAMES DESCRIBED’Misha complimented, I swept my hair out of the way giving her an ‘I’m too nervous and too scared of you but thanks’.“We knew you two were coming but I still insisted on being hard on my boy. He never visits except for the holidays and not all the holidays, when we heard he was bringing a woman here well any mother would behave the same way I did when I saw you”“I get it and like he said he’s doing me a favor really because the truth is I don’t have anywhere to go, I don’t know where to move from here”“Well, whatever happened is in the past the best thing to do is move on. This is your home from now on, Lucia you can at least count on that”Sweeping my dark hair across my shoulder, I turned to her giving her a faltering smile and I couldn’t help kissing both of her cheeks before I leaned in for a hug.“Oh”, a startled chuckle escaped her lips but she still couldn’t resist my bear hug.“Thank you”My eyes crinkled with m
CASSANDRA BATESELEMENTALLY, ROYALLY, FUCKING SCREWED.And that was because I didn’t have any other words to describe the situation, I was in.Wait, wait there was another word. I HAD HIT ROCK BOTTOM.I might have acted brave enough to reject Ice’s help but two days sleeping in my ex-roommate’s walk-in closet advised me that I should have done otherwise.But did I want to risk that?Did I want to risk owing Kade anything let alone running paths with him after he had avoided me in weeks?No, I did not need such toxic relationships in my life at the moment.I did not need Kade and I absolutely didn’t need violence dictating what my life should have been.I came back from my whirlwind romance with a vigilante poor as fuck.My apartment had been merrily given to another couple with a labradoodle.My job, well Nicolas Amato was dead, everything he owned had been confiscated by the cops so bye fucking bye to my job.I was back to square one, back to factory settings and pushing my whole sle
KADE HAWKINS/ CONNORGETTING IN WASN’T HARD, the little shits didn’t know we were coming ergo they didn’t have enough ammo or men for that matter to outnumber us.Ice stormed in there like the loose motherfucker he was, shoot, don’t think just shoot.And when he shot the Zetas eliminating them one by one, he paused to do a victory hurrah with the men. That shit annoyed me and at the same time made me jealous.He was the type of man who didn’t think a second before and after he killed anyone.I was the level headed one, the leader with the good head on his shoulders.I didn’t blast my way shooting every fucker in there, no, I calculated my moves, I shot them where they wouldn’t have the chance to crawl out of hell.Was it pretty? No. Nothing about blowing someone’s brains out was pretty and when the mission was done, when the Zetas were wiped out and buried at some island no one would think to look at, I retreated.Like I always did when a mission was completed.Locked away at some bun
LUCIA AMATO“WHAT WAS THEIR NAME AGAIN?”I shouted over the ruckus; Jimmy handed me a mug of the finest beer in Lock n’ Key.I had drunk the finest wines from across the country, champagnes included in the list but never the fizzing stale-smelling brown liquid in my mug.It looked disgusting but Jimmy and his friend Patricia had been on their third mugs tonight so it couldn’t be that bad right?Gazing at the rock slash country band shredding their guitars like they were in a concert and not a bar with twenty people max, I raised my mug at no one shouting at the top of my lungs.“To a great night!”Because this was the most fun, I had in a while.Jason Bates said that this town could give me everything I wanted only if I opened up to it and I was already opening up to it already by chugging the drink in my mouth.I was not gonna lie, it tasted like an old shoe had been dunked in water and left out for a week in a smelly old barn.I didn’t want to be the cowgirl barfing the best ale in
CASSANDRA BATESTHE DOWNSIDE OF staying at someone’s place meant tolerating any visitors she brought to crash for the night.And while I loved my roommate, God bless her, hearing her all night getting pummeled over and over by some guy she picked from the bar was something I couldn’t endure for another night.The thought of moving out crossed my mind but then again, the high rent New York had to offer for a single apartment discouraged me against doing so.“I’m so sorry for last night girl”, Anna slumped in the seat opposite her kitchen island.“No, it’s fine. It’s totally fine. It’s your place bring anyone you want over”, I said working my way through the Avo toast that was already in my hands.Anna, blonde and pretty even with her morning hair all over the place reached out for my hand stilling my actions.“We’ve known each other since high school Cass, you do know you don’t have to feel guilty for anything right? Mi casa is also your casa”Pretty sure the expression didn’t go that
JACE ‘JR’ ASHER/ TRIGGERMY HAND IN HER PANTIES, exploring her slick folds, my eyes found hers in the neon bullshit lighting in the pub.Dark orbs met mine, hungry, visceral, all the shit that made a man like me go savage. And Lucia knew how to stir the pot because her tongue darted out of her mouth wetting her pinkish lips.That was enough for me to say ‘fuck it’ and give it a go. One hand caressing her slippery slit, the other hand found her waist and as delicate as a man like me could, I hauled her to my chest, angling for a better position and when I did the rest was fucking history.I hadn’t felt this nice since—since I got accepted into B&A and still the feeling wouldn’t amount to this.Getting a gun and using it was a good kind of high, sure. Going on deadly missions that helped people was okayish, fuck better than okayish.This…This however was the stuff of fairy tales, stuff that seeped into your heart plunging you into a rainbow-colored world and that should have been the
CASSANDRA BATESEVER BEEN KISSED like…well I don’t know like you were the most freaking important being in the world?I had been kissed by a lot of guys, no question about that and the only guy who’d come close to making me shiver from a mere kiss was JACE BUT KADE?He redefined what a kiss stood from the minute his tongue plunged into my mouth impatiently giving me a glimpse of him and trust me, the dude tasted like he looked. So strong and so intoxicatingly bad.Bad in a good sort of way. Bad in the sense of ‘you kissed him, that’s bad’ but good you know? God what was I even saying?Hand on my chin, the other hand nervously tapping my skirt, I gazed out the window trying to make my heart at least beat rhythmically.The action failed when Kade’s big hand squeezed my thigh and a lot ooh a lot of ticklish prickles shot up my leg to my core and I knew i needed a fresh pair of panties because the ones I was wearing were soaked like a chicken crossing the road on a rainy night.“Talk to m
JACE ‘JR’ ASHER/ TRIGGERLEGS APART, her pink lips so close to my face I could smell her, I buried myself in her like a crazy man.Lucia Amato’s pussy might have been my kryptonite. Four or five doses later and I was still as entranced as the first time we had sex. The best fucking sex I had ever had in all my twenty something years.“J—Jace, they’ll…they’ll hear us”, she complained.Her lips might have been trying to resist me but her pussy, God it throbbed, it called to me and like a fucking sailor I heeded to the call of my siren because she was my goddamn siren that I’d never let go of no matter what fucking happened.Giving that intimate place of hers that belonged to my lips, I hoisted myself up crawling between her legs and up, up where I could see her beautiful face.My beautiful fucking Italian princess.God, I loved her.“You scared someone will pop in and see me in you?” I asked cockily, she rolled her eyes before her hand landed on my cheek.“Jace, Misha and Jason might su
CASSANDRA BATESTHREE WEEKS OF INCONSISTENT NAGGING.I was so mad at him, I wanted to kick him in the shins for everything. But hurting him was hurting myself too and I wasn’t prepared for that.The first week Kade had made it clear no woman of his was staying in a walk-in closet carrying his kid and so he’d rented a luxurious penthouse for me.I took it under the one condition I would be paying rent monthly. That was my first mistake, assuming he would even take my money after the lustful and apologetic look he gave me when he left me in my new apartment.The second week was even more stressful. With him showing up at my apartment door with breakfast and baby necessities I didn’t require yet.The third week…Icarus woke up and I had been beyond thrilled knowing I hadn’t somewhat killed him. I visited him everyday and everyday Kade Hawkins was there, waiting for me with a grin and donuts and healthy drinks I hadn’t asked for and I rejected them.Rejected him. Not missing the pained ex
LUCIA AMATOTHEY said when your turn to die came, you could feel it in your bones. Feel it in the way you faded into nothingness not knowing what was beyond death.When that bullet had hit me, somehow that feeling had latched onto me. The feeling of welcoming death and saying goodbye to everything.Yet when I opened my eyes, light stinging my eyes with a vengeance, the last person I expected to see was the love of my life glancing down at me like an answered prayer.“Hey, princess” The smile he wore was enough to tell me everything was okay. I wasn’t dead. We weren’t separated, everything was going to be okay yet…My hand searched for my tummy, the IV needle injected to my hand hurting far worse than a bee sting.“Hey, hey, he’s fine. The baby’s fine”I didn’t realize there were tears in my eyes up until he said that.And when the first tear fell down my cheeks and the rest came crushing like hail, my throat throbbed as I whispered “Sorry” over and over again.I jumped in front of hi
KADE HAWKINS/ CONNORTHERE WAS only so much shit a man like me could take before he went berserk.I was on the verge of losing the one man who I would call my brother. The one man who was more of family to me than anyone else in this shitty world.On the same fucking day, the woman I would have gone to war for dumped my sorry ass. Regretfully telling me she was done with me…for good.And that shit, her tears, her words ate me up, nothing bloody made sense anymore.“She needs a minute”, my brother from another father quipped beside me not knowing the hell I was going through, the sting that was Cassie’s words and the gnawing fact that I had hurt her and I hadn’t apologized to her yet.“She’s done with me”, I muttered and we stood in foreboding silence looking at the theatre doors where Ice’s surgery was still going on.“Good because her handing your ass is your wake-up call to chase after her and earn her forgiveness”, Jr continued, I still couldn’t understand why they all stayed.Jaso
CASSANDRA BATESEVERYTHING HURT.Physically, emotionally, mentally, I wasn’t doing okay even as the doc assessed me for the hundredth time in the night.Seating at the edge of the bed, trying to piece everything together, I was on the verge of insanity and knowing that Icarus was somewhere in this massive hospital trying to hold onto dear life because of me devastated the hell out of me.The doc offered me a wan smile, all I could do was pretend that I wasn’t going mad when the truth of the matter was, I was. Indeed, going mad.“Everything looks fine, Ms. Bates given your um…earlier predicament. A few scratches here and there, nothing major enough to affect the baby. I would recommend a few ointments for the-“I had already tuned him out the minute I heard a word I didn’t think would ever be directed at me.Reality came crushing in and with it so was confusion and happiness and anxiety and everything a person like me who’d just been kidnapped and slapped with a dose of heartbreak coul
ICARUS ‘ICE’ HAWKINSEIGHT YEARS AGO, I WAS THE SAME fucking schmuck working for Lucas Hawkins. A scrawny kid with a maid for a mother, no father, no money, no fucking worth to anybody.And hell, I would have been the same loser all my life after mumsy died of typhoid or some shit of the sort had it not been for HIM.KADE FUCKING HAWKINS. MY GODDAMN SAVIOR. My partner in crime. My brother.The same boss’ son who thought we were equals. The same kid who had everything I never had and hated it.Money. A powerful father. Power. He had it all and the fucking kid hated every inch of it.I envied him. All my eighteen years of being his best friend and I envied everything he had. But apart from envy? I looked up to him. He might have been a sour pussy, hell a pain in the ass but the kid had his heart in the right place, had that urge to do what needed to be done to get ahead in life and I respected that because I wanted it too.And when the kid got his first dose of power, I straight up jump
CASSANDRA BATES“W-WHAT?”A pulsating headache threatened to split my head apart as I winced.I moved my hand…at least tried to anyway because my hand felt numb. Both my hands felt numb and any tiny movement made something rattle against my body.Prior memories of what happened came to my mind all at once upping the headache even further.I was crying, damn it after what had happened with Lucia, Kade and Jace, I had ended up like some hobo on the street crying then…then…My eyes shot open and like someone had knocked my head with a bat, everything came back biting me in the ass.The unwelcomed light ate my eyes without mercy but that’s not what made my heart pulsate madly in my chest.It was everything in my surroundings, it was in the way, my hands, my legs…I was tied up!I was tied up!What was this place…how…oh God what was…I sat in the middle of the largest warehouse I’d ever seen and I would have been at ease if there were other thigs in here but no…it was me alone in a creepy p
JACE `JR` ASHER/ TRIGGERLEFT, RIGHT, FRONT, THE beeping machines haunted me. I hadn’t slept a fucking wink not that it had mattered because the fucking doctors took their time in there.Four hours and counting, they’d completed the surgery but none of them geeky fucks had showed their asses to explain what was going on.How was she?How was my kid?“How are you holding up?” Ontario shot me a passive look and I shot him an equally tired one.Everyone was here but, in all honesty, I felt alone. I felt helpless and most of all I felt like someone had gutted me and yanked my entrails from my body.The chief, Flames, had brought every goddamn man in B&A to console my ass but he’d avoided me entirely and I had a good hunch it was because of the one man no one talked about.My bloody fucking asshole of a brother.The one who’d escaped his grave and unleashed hell on me.I didn’t answer. Ontario lay his arm across my shoulder.“You should have never fallen in love, buddy. Christ, you look wo
CONNOR/ KADE HAWKINSTHE WINSTON BLUE DIAMOND ring THE SIZE OF MY HEAD stared back at me and I could only stare back at it nursing a whole lot of emotions that wracked and unnerved me.I breathed but I wasn’t really breathing.I tried to think but every ticking moment went to what happened yesterday.Stupid. Fucking stupid.Why hadn’t I realized, why hadn’t I—Jr was alive! They all were and I hadn’t searched enough, hadn’t spent every last dime of daddy’s money to look for them.I had been stunned the minute the forty something year old man stared at me like he knew me while ironically aiming a rifle in my damn face.Then as if all the memories that had been caged in a tight little box had been unleashed, I remembered him.Remembered him with my father.Remembered him carrying me in his shoulders telling me…telling me to call him Uncle Jay.And that’s what I remembered; he was Uncle Jay. The cool uncle. The one who pissed my fath—Callan most of the times.And the man who peeked at me
JACE ‘JR’ ASHER/TRIGGER“J-Jace, THE BABY”“T-the baby”Her blood oozed from that spot on her chest I was trying so hard to apply fucking pressure on.Her eyes were dimming and there was nothing I could do as I held her, my hands trying their best to incorporate every single fucking thing I had learnt from B&A about handling a situation like this.“Stay with me, princess. Okay? S-stay with me”My voice croaked; my heart pumped so hard I could hear the blood thrum in my ears with an uproar.She was making it. She was going to make it. The baby was going to make it.She had to. They fucking had to.My hands were bloody, covered with her life, covered with my mistakes, when she opened her lips to speak, I saw life ebb out of her the same way my mother and father’s screams had assaulted my ears as fire took them away from me.“Luce? Lucia? Come on, baby. Don’t, don’t do this. Don’t—”And when my eyes couldn’t see shit, every noise I had tuned out since Lucia’s body went limp in my arms ca