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Distraction and Despair
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Veronica BlackThank you all for you continued support. I love reading your comments and hearing your hopes for Liberty, Christian and Zander. Your encouragement, thumbs ups and gems mean more to me than I can say, and make my heart so happy. I can't wait to share more of the story with you. Get ready to learn a bit more about Hunter, I think he might surprise you all.
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