CHAPTER 31

 "Zhanaia, what the hell is your problem? I can't understand you anymore! I don't know what's your problem, you've been like this for almost a week. You know, if you are mad at me, say it! At least, I know what you feel and why you are doing all of these. Not like this when I don't have any damn idea for what the fuck this bullshit is!" 

  "Don't shout at her and don't cuss her, you moron!"

  The two started exchanging lines on heat while I sighed heavily, still hearing Dion's voice in my head as he finally got full of my mood swings. Even I doesn't know what was happening to me anymore, my mood was changing from time to time and I don't know why as well, so, he couldn't get any answer from me too which only added up to his frustration. He was right for saying that I've been like this for almost a week now.

  One time, I was jolly and as if the world around me does not face any difficulties; then next, I was grumpy and annoyed over something nonsense; then I'll just found myself yearning for him, calling him to be with me; and then suddenly, I would shout at him and push him away.

  It wasn't the first time that he got enough of my mood swings and shouted at me. The first time he did that, I got infuriated and cried in which he immediately apologized for the way he behaved. And now, I didn't feel anything, I just looked at him as he argued with my brother and ate the white chocolates that I got from our refrigerator.

  "Can you two please, stop?" I interjected when a minute passed and I knew they weren't going to stop.

  Thankfully, Heartly who was just sitting beside me went to Zhairo's side to calm him down and asked him to go in their room. Of course, knowing how my brother becomes a jelly when we were talking about his woman, he complied with Heartly's words without arguing. Dion on the other hand sighed heavily and brushed his fingers on his hair.

  I stared at him and waited for him to say anything to me again, but he didn't look at me and instead, sat on the sofa and closed his eyes tightly. I knew he was calming himself to avoid saying more things that he would soon regret and I just let him as I enjoyed the white chocolate I was munching. After a while, he opened his eyes and looked at me with his forehead creased.

  "Aren't you going to change your mood again? Sweet talk to me this time," he said.

  Suppressing myself to smile, I shook my head and resumed munching my chocolate. He mumbled something but I didn't mind him and just focused on my snack. I was wondering why I wasn't still changing my mood when it's been almost a couple of hours since I was this way.

  For the past few days, I would change my mood every two hours or so, but today, it was different. I think I would stay this way for a few more hours before changing into another mood again. And no matter how I try to think of the possible reasons why I was behaving this way, my mind was refusing to think of anything. These past few days, I always wanted to be focused and relaxed.

  I've been like this for four days now. Everyone was thinking I was weird, including my parents. There was one time that they witnessed how the atmosphere around me turned from cool to a heated one and it always happened even without Dion around. At first, I thought it was because I was getting irritated by his presence, but after two days, I knew it wasn't because of that.

  He was watching me as I was still enjoying the chocolate I was eating. Normally, I'd feel shy over his stare, but now, it was nothing. There was nothing important to me other than the food I was enjoying. When a few minutes passed and I was still not giving him my attention, he sighed and walked out without saying anything. Still, I didn't mind and continued taking bites at the chocolate.

  An hour later, I was engaged in a conversation with Heartly as Zhairo had already gone out for work. We were enjoying her vanilla cupcakes as we talked about my mood swings that everyone noticed, including dad, Dion's father.

  "Believe me, Heartly. I badly wanted to know what's happening with me, but I really don't know. I am confused as well."

  Our sweet girl sighed, she too was thinking of what might be the reason for my mood swings. Dion didn't come back after he walked out earlier, perhaps he was cooling off or what. Whatever he might be doing right now, I don't care.

  "Well, I'm not a doctor to begin with, hence I couldn't say anything about that. You can ask Zhairo though, I'm sure he has an idea of what's happening to you," she suggested.

  I shook my head at the mention of my brother, "Oh, no, Heartly. Not my brother, you know, it's not a good idea to consult him."

  "Uh? But he's studying medicine," she retorted. "He must know something."

  "Heartly, what I mean is his reaction towards Gin. Surely, I am behaving this way because of Gin and it wouldn't be a good idea to consult him, he'd go ballistic again."

  She then realized what I mean after explaining and she nodded. I was calling Dion as Gin whenever it's her whom I'm in talk with because she doesn't know him as Dion. Heartly met her as Gin Montero and I haven't told her our story yet, perhaps some other time.

  "Well, what do you plan to do then?" she asked as she took a bite with the remaining piece of her cupcake.

  That question halted me as I already have something in my mind. This behavior of mine started a week ago when Francis confirmed in Ars Amoris that Dion was alive. And then it was followed when I found out that Gin was actually Dion and he was fooling me all these times, making me believe that he doesn't have anything to do with the latter.

  I cried so hard after knowing that and then when he came to explain himself, we ended up making love. When I woke up the next morning, my mood swings started and until now, it was still going. People around me were already getting confused, though I have noticed dad's look that he knew something.

  Of course, he was a doctor, a prominent one, hence he knew. Probably, he just doesn't want to interfere and wanted Dion to solve all of these by himself. Though I couldn't understand why he was always with his son as if Dion was a child who needed someone to come with wherever he went. Same goes with Nurse Stell and Daniel, they were always with Dion just like before.

  Now that I knew the truth, they were always with him again. When I still knew him as Gin Montero, they were probably hiding in the shadows so that I wouldn't see them.

  Getting back to the reason why I was being like this, I knew it has something to do with Dion and after all what happened between us. Hence, the solution I have in mind. I looked at Heartly who was still waiting for my answer. I winked at her and chuckled at her reaction, she looked so cute, I can't help but to pinch her cheeks.

  "It's a secret, darling. I have to find this out on my own,"