53. My phone

ERICA

My knees bounced as my anxiety started to get worse while I sat there at the end of the bed, looking around myself feeling alone like I was in a well, forgotten and helpless. Thor got tired of my agitation, at least that’s what I think was the reason for him to go sit near the windows. But I couldn’t help it as no matter how much I tried to think of something else my thoughts circled back to what Mac had said to me, and my body buzzed with an unfamiliar energy as my mind conjured up all the unwanted stuff that must be happening back at home.

The emails. The threats. Antonio’s ultimatum. And my sister... Fuck. Gabe and Summer must be devastated from the miscarriage. And I was here wondering about how I could keep Antonio for myself. Having the time of my life with him despite knowing how hungry he was for revenge. Unknowingly I had become so selfish, looking forward to an impossible future, that I forgot about everything else.

I stood up and had to stop for a moment as black dot