Rhode lets out a chuckle and grins back at me. "I can't wait to use it when we get back, thank you bub. It's a lovely gift" He tells me in response."What did you get me?" I echo his question back to him. "If I get home and there's a new car in that garage with another bow on top I'm going to lose
"I know you are" I say in a whisper as I can feel my voice begin to shake. I'm trying not to just retreat back inside the bridal suite and face this conversation, but I'm aching and I want this pain to stop. The pain of watching the man that I love try to make amends for something that maybe he can'
I take a deep breath, wait for my cue, and turn the corner. Sarah's wedding plEloiser has done a truly beautiful job, simple white chairs and white flowers frame the aisle in front of me. At the end of which is a gorgeous wall of white and light pink flowers where Mitch, the celebrant, Rhode and th
The celebrant gestures for Mitch, who takes a sheet of paper that Rhode hands him with a reassuring nod of his head. It must be time for him to read his vows, I completely missed hearing Sarah's after getting stuck in my head. I remember Rhode telling me that he and Max helped Mitch write his vows
Maybe it's not something that can be changed, perhaps it's just the way that he will always be. Can I really spend my life hoping that I don't do anything to cause these mood swings and accept it as just 'who he is' when it affects me? We're in a relationship; we will have fights and disagreements a
"You mean, that you don't think she actually wants you, she just wants to mess with me?" I ask him curiously. His advice is one that you would give to a child who is being bullied at school, not someone who is dealing with a partners ex who wants the relationship back. Rhode nods his head with a so
"You're the best, Rhode she's the best. You better not fuck this up, this here is a real dynamite lady" Max states confidently as he crosses over to me and puts his arm around my other shoulder, effectively trapping me in between him and Rhode . The pungent smell of herbs overwhelms me as he embrac
"Yes, very grateful thank you mum" Sarah replies in a flat tone, not even looking up from her risotto. A somewhat awkward silence falls over the table after that remark before Sarah's dad decides to barrel through and comment about how great the weather has stayed.The sun is starting to slowly set
"Wanna give one a go?" I suggest to her with a small grin."Might be a bit premature, don't think Max is the marriage type quiet yet" She responds with a quiet giggle, then catches herself as we all stop and gape at her. She hasn't mentioned Max in that context in a very long time. Behind Poppy, Fra
"It's stunning sweetheart, absolutely stunning" My mum comments excitedly as I allow my hands to rest at my sides, my reflection making my heart race quickly. I'm wearing a wedding dress. Maybe not the wedding dress, but a wedding dress none the less. It all seems insane to think that I had spent th
Fran, Bianca and now Sarah are at the racks, perhaps browsing for me or for Fran, who recently moved to London and is flat hunting with her boyfriend Zayn."They have wedding dresses at charity shops? I can't tell if that's bleak or romantic" Poppy comments quietly to me as I sit down beside her."
"You are referred to as exactly what you are, a man, while I am referred to as my relationship to you, a wife. Like the only identifiable thing about me is that now I am your wife but you still get to be a man in your own right" I explain. It's something that's always irked me while watching TV show
"You forget we had sex in a bookstore?" Rhode leans in close and murmurs to me, heat rising on my cheeks instantly. One of my wilder moments I would say."Did not forget that, but I'd rather not have to explain that story to, well anyone" I say with an embarrassed giggle. I definitely told at least
"Please, take it" He states in a soft tone that makes butterflies flit around my stomach. "When?" He adds with a little more urgency."How about, before the years end?" I suggest. It's early October now so going into the colder England months, it's not exactly going to be extraordinary weather but t
"Thank you" I mumble against his lips, brushing my nose against his. His hand lingers on my hip as I come down off of my tiptoes, the wind blowing some of my hair into my face."I'll support you either way, it's up to you" He softly states, his eyes never leaving mine as his hand leaves my hip and t
"Hey, you remember yesterday when we had the family over for lunch?" I say just as we approach the small coffee stand near the fountain at the centre of the park. It's run by a father and son out of a truck that normally attracts a large crowd of locals but today seems a little isolated, supposed we
"To be honest, I feel anxious about taking her out on my own" Rhode states honestly as we wait at the corner for our crosswalk light to turn green. It's a surprising admission that immediately gets my attention."You've never mentioned anything like that" I express as I put a hand on his arm while h