"And I made so much progress in the past. I stopped listening to that little nagging voice that told me everyone was going to leave me. But ever since he showed up at the hotel and then promptly left it's come back with a burning vengeance. And I can't live like this, I don't want this to be what my
I park my car next to one of Rhode 's sports cars in the garage and climb out, making my way through the side door into the house. I take off my coat and shoes and carry them upstairs into our master bedroom, where we moved our things to a few days ago. I've gotten quite good at climbing up the stai
"Is that a trap? Like if I agree that a bachelor party will be fun then you'll be mad at me?" He asks with a slight smirk."No I'm being serious! You can blow off some steam with your friends, it'll be fun" I assure him with a grin. I mean, if he said 'fuck yeah I'm thrilled to be going out binge dr
"Which was your favourite 'first' that we've had?" I ask him, unable to keep the grin off my face. I love it when he's in this kind of mood, so open to share his thoughts and feelings honestly. He tilts his head back slightly and hums for a moment."If I said taking your virginity how mad would you
"Baby what's wrong?" He asks with a small sigh. He knows somethings not right with me, he always seems to know. He's just been waiting for me to come forward about it."I'm sorry for leaving you" I whisper to him as I hold myself steadily against him. There's a powerful surge of pain rippling throu
"I would take your last name" I tell him softly. I have mixed emotions about my last name, because it feels equal part mine and my fathers. It reminds me of him but it's also who I am. And now it's little Benjamin's middle name so it is a big part of my life. Rhode bites his bottom lip as he grins.
"Although I agree, I refuse to use that word" I smile down at him as I wrap my arms around his neck."But if you wanted him to be in your life and you felt like he deserved to be there, then I would find a way to get on board" He sighs with a warm smile and wraps his arms around my waist. The sentim
I can't sleep. I'm trying not to literally toss and turn so that I don't wake Rhode up but I've been lying awake for hours and nothings happening. We have to be up in 6 hours to get to the airport for our flight to Australia and at this point I'll be the most miserable person on the flight. I need
"Wanna give one a go?" I suggest to her with a small grin."Might be a bit premature, don't think Max is the marriage type quiet yet" She responds with a quiet giggle, then catches herself as we all stop and gape at her. She hasn't mentioned Max in that context in a very long time. Behind Poppy, Fra
"It's stunning sweetheart, absolutely stunning" My mum comments excitedly as I allow my hands to rest at my sides, my reflection making my heart race quickly. I'm wearing a wedding dress. Maybe not the wedding dress, but a wedding dress none the less. It all seems insane to think that I had spent th
Fran, Bianca and now Sarah are at the racks, perhaps browsing for me or for Fran, who recently moved to London and is flat hunting with her boyfriend Zayn."They have wedding dresses at charity shops? I can't tell if that's bleak or romantic" Poppy comments quietly to me as I sit down beside her."
"You are referred to as exactly what you are, a man, while I am referred to as my relationship to you, a wife. Like the only identifiable thing about me is that now I am your wife but you still get to be a man in your own right" I explain. It's something that's always irked me while watching TV show
"You forget we had sex in a bookstore?" Rhode leans in close and murmurs to me, heat rising on my cheeks instantly. One of my wilder moments I would say."Did not forget that, but I'd rather not have to explain that story to, well anyone" I say with an embarrassed giggle. I definitely told at least
"Please, take it" He states in a soft tone that makes butterflies flit around my stomach. "When?" He adds with a little more urgency."How about, before the years end?" I suggest. It's early October now so going into the colder England months, it's not exactly going to be extraordinary weather but t
"Thank you" I mumble against his lips, brushing my nose against his. His hand lingers on my hip as I come down off of my tiptoes, the wind blowing some of my hair into my face."I'll support you either way, it's up to you" He softly states, his eyes never leaving mine as his hand leaves my hip and t
"Hey, you remember yesterday when we had the family over for lunch?" I say just as we approach the small coffee stand near the fountain at the centre of the park. It's run by a father and son out of a truck that normally attracts a large crowd of locals but today seems a little isolated, supposed we
"To be honest, I feel anxious about taking her out on my own" Rhode states honestly as we wait at the corner for our crosswalk light to turn green. It's a surprising admission that immediately gets my attention."You've never mentioned anything like that" I express as I put a hand on his arm while h