"That's ridiculous, you make it sound like I'm fucking crazy" I say with a scoff."You were crazy this afternoon! You accused me of not wanting people to know that we were engaged because I didn't tell one guy who you hate before we've had the chance to tell our actual friends. That was fucking craz
"I didn't mean it like that" I say quickly, crossing over the space I created between the two of us and sitting back down on the coffee table in front of her. I've gone too far, I've got to get back some control of this."Girls everywhere want you, and of course they do because you're a successful,
Slowly, she climbs up and into the bed as I pull the covers up and over her. She closes her eyes as I shut off the light beside the bed. I don't climb in, it's way too early for me and that kitchen is too new to be that messy. I do sit on the edge of the bed and gently stroke her hair as she starts
"This your first time in therapy Rhode ?" The therapist asks after we do the 'usual introductions'. His name is Dr Schwartz, one of the more highly rated and exorbitantly more expensive therapists I could find in London. Last night something locked in for me, I could spend months trying on my own to
"Yes. Everyday" I admit quietly."Have you lost her before?" He asks softly, and my stomach starts to churn a little."We were apart for a while last year" I tell him. Fuck, he's going to make me talk about it isn't he?"Why don't you give me some details around that" He suggests, it feels like it s
I call her a few times while I'm away and she doesn't pick up, maybe she wants to wait until we're in person to figure this all out. I really hate fighting with her, I've barely been able to focus during the different meetings I've had to go through whilst I've been away. But now I'm in the elevator
Thank you for loving me the way that you have, you have healed me in ways that I never thought possible. And I love you so much, more than I ever thought I could love anyone. You've given me so many amazing things to hold onto. Because of you, I have hope that someone as incredible as you could lov
Truth be told, I'm still a little angry about my fight with Rhode . He said some things that were way out of line but I guess I did too. When he started trying to justify his behaviour I just saw red, freaked out and let him have it. Maybe it's the concussion, or it's the ring on my finger that give
"Wanna give one a go?" I suggest to her with a small grin."Might be a bit premature, don't think Max is the marriage type quiet yet" She responds with a quiet giggle, then catches herself as we all stop and gape at her. She hasn't mentioned Max in that context in a very long time. Behind Poppy, Fra
"It's stunning sweetheart, absolutely stunning" My mum comments excitedly as I allow my hands to rest at my sides, my reflection making my heart race quickly. I'm wearing a wedding dress. Maybe not the wedding dress, but a wedding dress none the less. It all seems insane to think that I had spent th
Fran, Bianca and now Sarah are at the racks, perhaps browsing for me or for Fran, who recently moved to London and is flat hunting with her boyfriend Zayn."They have wedding dresses at charity shops? I can't tell if that's bleak or romantic" Poppy comments quietly to me as I sit down beside her."
"You are referred to as exactly what you are, a man, while I am referred to as my relationship to you, a wife. Like the only identifiable thing about me is that now I am your wife but you still get to be a man in your own right" I explain. It's something that's always irked me while watching TV show
"You forget we had sex in a bookstore?" Rhode leans in close and murmurs to me, heat rising on my cheeks instantly. One of my wilder moments I would say."Did not forget that, but I'd rather not have to explain that story to, well anyone" I say with an embarrassed giggle. I definitely told at least
"Please, take it" He states in a soft tone that makes butterflies flit around my stomach. "When?" He adds with a little more urgency."How about, before the years end?" I suggest. It's early October now so going into the colder England months, it's not exactly going to be extraordinary weather but t
"Thank you" I mumble against his lips, brushing my nose against his. His hand lingers on my hip as I come down off of my tiptoes, the wind blowing some of my hair into my face."I'll support you either way, it's up to you" He softly states, his eyes never leaving mine as his hand leaves my hip and t
"Hey, you remember yesterday when we had the family over for lunch?" I say just as we approach the small coffee stand near the fountain at the centre of the park. It's run by a father and son out of a truck that normally attracts a large crowd of locals but today seems a little isolated, supposed we
"To be honest, I feel anxious about taking her out on my own" Rhode states honestly as we wait at the corner for our crosswalk light to turn green. It's a surprising admission that immediately gets my attention."You've never mentioned anything like that" I express as I put a hand on his arm while h