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I loved you

Author: Kaya
last update Last Updated: 2024-08-14 23:54:23

ERIKA

"I.. hate myself so much.. for everything. I hate it all," she cried and he scooped her up from the seat and placed her on the counter top with his soothing arms wrapped reassuringly around her. He pulled away, the warmth still intact on her, and tried to make her meet his eyes but she kept on hiding it away because she didn't want him to see her like that. But she finally met his eyes and he smiled at her softly.

"I'll love you enough to make you forget you hate yourself," he said, sending waves of butterflies all over her stomach. And at that point, this was all she needed without even realising. She just wanted to have someone she wanted to hold and something that would make it all seem instantly alright. And when she was experiencing that, it felt like a celebration in her body, something that blooms and takes over completely.

"I don't think I deserve that," she said in between her sobs and Nigel somehow hugged her tighter that didn't feel suffocating but liberating. He had
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