Chapter 70: Frenzy

After saying those words, I left his study without another word.

He wasn't even looking at me as I left, so I took it as a sign that he understood my unspoken words. But as I walked out, I felt terrible. It was almost like I'd said something ridiculous and hurtful to someone I cared about, and the worst part was that I couldn't take the words back.

I was stuck with them forever.

Still, I swallowed my guilt down and went upstairs. All the while, I convinced myself that I was making the right decision. I had to push him away, even though every bodily instinct was begging me to keep him close. Even now, I wanted to turn back and tell him that I'd take all my words back, but it was ridiculous.

I had to keep him away. There was no other choice.

Once I reached my bedroom, I closed my door before leaning against it. I felt sick with nerves and anxiety, and I was also dejected. I didn't want my words to ruin our friendship, which was pretty solid and great at this point. Xander saved me.