I was still in the closet when I woke up in the morning, but I was alone because Xander wasn't there with me. If I had to be honest, I would have said that I preferred it that way. The kiss we shared last night was burning brightly in my memory, but with that came a lot of complications. We weren't supposed to be kissing. Last night should never have happened. I'd blame my vulnerability for it. I was terrified after the incident with Felix's brother, and was in need of company and some assurance that things would be okay. He'd given me all that and a little more, and now I wasn't sure how I'd face him after this. I groaned and rubbed my face. The closet door was closed, so I wasn't sure if I'd see him in the bedroom. I had to make sure first. I pressed my ear to the door, careful to not make a sound, and waited. I didn't hear a thing. When I was sure that it was silent out there, I opened the door. It didn't break. The bedroom was indeed empty, and the bed was made. I sighed i
After saying those words, I left his study without another word. He wasn't even looking at me as I left, so I took it as a sign that he understood my unspoken words. But as I walked out, I felt terrible. It was almost like I'd said something ridiculous and hurtful to someone I cared about, and the worst part was that I couldn't take the words back. I was stuck with them forever.Still, I swallowed my guilt down and went upstairs. All the while, I convinced myself that I was making the right decision. I had to push him away, even though every bodily instinct was begging me to keep him close. Even now, I wanted to turn back and tell him that I'd take all my words back, but it was ridiculous. I had to keep him away. There was no other choice. Once I reached my bedroom, I closed my door before leaning against it. I felt sick with nerves and anxiety, and I was also dejected. I didn't want my words to ruin our friendship, which was pretty solid and great at this point. Xander saved me.
I didn't know if Xander had marked me; all I knew was that it was the most euphoric moment of my whole life. I was lying on my front now, and he was behind me, caressing every part of me. I was in a daze, and my head was spinning. I could hardly believe where I was, but I guessed that was the beauty of the moment. I didn't see it coming. And it was beautiful. Xander was kissing every part of me. We hadn't had actual sex yet and I already felt satisfied. Whenever I felt his hard cock pressing into the smell of my back when he leaned over to place a kiss on my neck, I became a bundle of nerves. I wanted him more than I'd ever wanted anyone else before. "You're so beautiful," he murmured against my skin, littering kisses everywhere. "From the moment I saw you, I knew I had to make you mine.”He flipped me around, and then lifted my shirt up to my neck, exposing my breasts to him. They perked up instantly, and his eyes darkened significantly. They were on my face before he dipped his
I knocked on his door, afraid to intrude. “Come on in.”I opened the door and saw him sitting behind his desk. There were a whole bunch of papers littered around his desk, and in his hand, he had a pen. He immediately put a cap on it and stood up when he saw me, and my heart skipped a beat at the warm gesture. His greeting was a heated kiss, one in which he parted my lips with his tongue, and then proceeded to explore my mouth with it. My knees felt weak, and he held me close against him, close enough to feel the hardness between his legs pressing into me. He broke the kiss roughly and said, “Only you can make me hard like this with a kiss. Do you see what you’re doing to me?”I blushed. I didn’t know what to say to his words. He grabbed the back of my neck and kissed the side of my neck before reaching that spot that, strangely, ached for him. His lips grazed the skin and I sucked in a breath through my teeth. “I’m tempted to have you now,” he said. “To make you mine?”I gulped.
I didn't know if I was dreaming or not, but the sun had set and my bedroom window was open, and I felt a fear in my heart so great that it was enough to keep me rooted to the bed. I didn't see anyone when I looked around. I was completely alone in the room. I rubbed my eyes because my vision was blurry, and it didn't get any better. It was stressful, not being able to see clearly. I also had the constant feeling that I was falling, so that didn’t help at all. The issue was that I knew I hadn’t opened my window, so who did? I asked myself this even though I couldn’t move at all. I tried to turn on my side and it didn’t work; I was firmly rooted to the bed. And then, a figure materialized to my right, and someone was standing by the door. The view was still grainy, and I didn’t recognize the figure, not really. It was a man, though, that much I knew. When he started nearing the bed, I felt the first prickles of fear. I could feel my heartbeat rising, and my chest moved with every br
When I woke up, it was to a cold hand touching my arm. I sat up quickly, which was a mistake because the pain I felt in my shoulder was incredibly intense. I even yelped. In the space of a few seconds, the first thing I noticed was that my window was wide open, and that this time, I wasn’t dreaming because my vision was too clear. The next thing I noticed was that the hand closed around my arm was Felix’s. My eyes bulged. “What—”With a strength I never would have guessed that he possessed, he picked me up and threw me over his shoulder. He then started toward the door, where we went toward the stairs. The pain in my shoulder was beyond intense. “Where are you taking me!?” I demanded, but my voice wasn’t as loud as I intended, and it didn’t sound as aggressive as I wanted it to. No response came from him. I felt nauseous from the pain, and when I tried to use my legs to kick him or do anything to stop him, I felt even more pain. We were walking through the kitchen, which was da
“Fuck you,” I hissed at him. This made Cassius chuckle. I couldn’t understand why he was so amused. I added, “There’s nothing in the world that will make me help you. Go ahead and kill me now.”“How…valiant,” he said, staring up at the ceiling. I noticed right away that he didn’t look at all like Felix. Their facial structure was different, and Cassian was rougher around the edges. His features were much darker. “But I assure you, dying isn’t what anyone ever wants. It’s what everyone says they prefer, but I tend to find anyone who says such a thing a liar.”“I don’t care what you think. If that’s what it takes, then I’ll take it.”He eyed me intensely. I maintained eye contact. I wasn’t afraid of him. I wanted to show that clearly in case he wanted to get the wrong idea. I. Was. Not. Afraid. Of. Him. A small smile curved his lips, and I became convinced then that he was someone who loved challenges. Right now, I was a challenge to him. And that was further intensified by the fact
I didn’t know how much time had passed. I woke up covered in sweat. It was too hot in the room, and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my neck was unbearable; I couldn’t move my head. I tried to lie on my side, but even that was impossible. “Shit,” I cursed.My mouth was so dry. The bedroom door was closed, and I didn’t hear anything. My guess was that they were probably in their coffins, sleeping the day away. I’d forgotten how to was to live among them. I’d grown so used to the sunlight. Now, I was back in the dark, and it both depressed and angered me. It wasn’t fair that they had to strip me of my rights. I made a choice, and they had no right to take it away from me. I didn’t want to participate in this stupid revenge plan of theirs. They were crazy to think that I’d turn against Xander, of all people. My mate. My companion. Being away from him confirmed my feelings for him. If I wasn’t sure of them before, I was absolutely sure now. I was heartbroken that we’d be
Xander brushed my hair away from my shoulders, leaving my neck bare. His pupils dilated. To be fair, I was more nervous than he was, but that was only because of the last time that we bonded. I was in pain for the longest time, and about half of the bond ended up being consumed by my blood. I didn’t want to go through that again, but if we didn’t try again, I would never know if trying to mark me a second time would work. “You never know,” he said like he read my thoughts. “Second time might be the charm.”“Isn’t it usually the third time?”“Let’s hope it won’t come to that.” He massaged the spot with his thumb, spreading heat in the area. I shuddered a little, and my nipples hardened against the soft material of my nightgown. He lowered his head and kissed the spot he caressed, ripping a soft moan from me. If there was one thing that Xander knew how to do, it was turn me on. While he kissed my neck, his hands began exploring. He placed them over my breasts, which were so taut th
A few minutes passed by in absolute silence. Konstantin was dead. Cassian was dead. I guessed that the others were dead, too. Felix stared at his brother’s body unwaveringly. I wanted to go to him and offer him some kind of comfort. He’d tried to find a way out for him for centuries. And now that he was out, he was forced to kill him himself. Xander looked at me and said, “Jade, let’s go. Let’s get out of here.”I looked back and forth between him and Felix. I didn’t want to leave him; I didn’t come all the way here just to free him and then walk out of his life like nothing happened. I didn’t want things between us to end so abruptly. “Jade,” he said again, this time more firmly. I glanced over at him, then raised a hand, gesturing for him to wait for a bit. I went down the front steps and then slowly approached Felix, who was too busy looking down at his dead brother. He didn’t look up, even when I was just a few feet away from him.“Felix?” I said. Only then did he meet my g
“Felix?”He was in disbelief. “What are you doing here? What did Cassian do to you?”I couldn’t see anything, but still tried to stand up. I held out my hands in front of me as I tried to find out where he was. “There’s a light pull switch somewhere around here. Try to find it.”I didn’t stop until I grabbed the cord. Light flooded the room, and I had to shield my eyes from the glare. I heard him say, “How did you end up here? What happened?”“I came to save you,” I explained. He said, “What?”“I knew that you were in danger, and so I came to find you.” I opened my eyes and took a good look at him. My heart broke in two when I saw that he was locked in a narrow cage, completely naked and bound. There were deep cuts in his chest, one of the cuts being suspiciously close to the heart. It was like he was being drained. “You shouldn’t have come here,” he spat. His eyes were bluer than usual, but perhaps that was only because of how pale his skin was compared to before. “Why would you
The house where Linda and Benjamin lived with Landon was hard to find. We spent almost the whole night looking for it. I was sure that Konstantin probably found it by now, but we had no way of communicating and anyway, he never said that he’d take care of the situation tonight. We’d probably have to spend a day spying in order to get acquainted with the area. We successfully tracked their home thanks to one of the werewolves who were with Xander. He had a particularly sensitive nose, and he was a shifter, which meant that he could become a werewolf at any moment, unlike Xander, who had to wait for the full moon. Shifters were different kinds of werewolves. More powerful. Things between Xander and I weren’t as tense anymore. We were actually talking to each other now; granted, we never mentioned our relationship or any of the risks involved, but we were saying something to each other, which was a significant improvement to whatever was happening between us earlier on. “Your fathe
Konstantin’s house was as terrifying as it was the first time I saw it. The shutters made it seem like there was never anyone home, and I wondered if any curious soul ever tried to break in and found themselves standing face-to-face with a monster. A blood-sucking one at that. I took a deep and steadying breath. Now that I was here, I couldn’t turn back. I’d come too far. I crossed the unkempt lawn, and onto stopped when I reached the front door. I raised my fist and knocked. At first, there was no reply. I had a moment of derealization. I was having them more frequently. I felt dizziness and an intense disbelief for a handful of moments, and then there was nothing. I heard his voice from within. It was tinged with curiosity. “Who dares to knock on Konstantin’s door? Do you willingly seek death? If so, you’re in the right place.”I lamely said, “It’s me. Jade.” “Jade?” he asked, sounding confused. “I was here with Felix.”He opened the door right away. I heard him unlock it,
Xander still hadn’t said a word to me, and it was starting to make me feel really uneasy. I wished he’d say something. Then again, maybe I deserved the silence. I was taking him to a dangerous place all because I felt the need to save Felix (even when I’d been told that he didn’t want to be helped). He was risking his life here.We rode the subway to reach Konstantin’s neighborhood. I still recalled where it was, but honestly, I was starting to seriously doubt my plan. There was more than enough time to turn back, but something wouldn’t let me. Gratitude, perhaps. He’d saved me many times when I was in danger, and it only felt right to do the same thing for him. Besides, Cassian had to be stopped. Was I supposed to live my life looking over my shoulder for him? I would prefer it if we got rid of him permanently. And because only a vampire could kill another vampire (successfully), I’d need a vampire’s help. And Sven suggested Konstantin, so that was that. As we sat side by side,
Our first stop was their apartment. Since it was daylight, there wasn't much that we could do, so we had to kill time by paying for a room in a shitty hotel room nearby. It was five buildings away—we wouldn't be able to keep an eye on their building and monitor movements—but it was the best thing we could do. Although we kissed right when we left his new pack, I wasn't sure where we stood. It wasn't like we'd completely reconciled, and right now, my thoughts were on Felix. But I was grateful that he came with me, and his gesture spoke volumes. He sat on the edge of the bed while I stared out the window. "So, what now? What's your plan exactly?""I'll ask them where Felix is, and then I'll go to him.""Just like that?"I cut him a look. "It's the only plan I have.""It's not the best plan, Jade," Xander said with a hint with impatience. "You're running back to the very people who wanted to use you as a weapon without a plan. What if they don't let you walk away? What if that Cassian
I must have fallen asleep because I woke up on the bed.I sat up, alarmed. My heart started racing as fear clawed at me. I hated that I'd fallen asleep in a territory that I wasn't familiar with. Where was Xander?I allowed myself to relax when I realized that I wasn't in immediate danger. The bedroom door was closed, so I had no idea what was going on outside. I had to go check. I climbed out of bed and peered outside. I didn't see anything of notable significance. The corridor was dark and empty. It was also impossible to tell whether it was day or night, which meant that I had no idea how long I'd been out for. I was disoriented. Did I want to risk going downstairs and looking for Xander? What did I even want? I didn't know what I wanted to do. What was my plan here? Felix said I had to stay here because it was safer. I wouldn't doubt him because I now knew that he had the best intentions with me. He wouldn't have said that if he didn't actually believe that I was safe here. B
Cassian was enraged. “Brother?” he asked, tilting his head. He touched the side of his head, which was bleeding, and then wiped his blood on his pants. “I told you to stop,” Felix said, using the same voice he’d used earlier. “This isn’t going to continue. I’ve had enough.”“You’ve had enough?” Cassian asked in disbelief. “What about me, who spent centuries rotting inside a cage, starving to death? Do you think there’s such a thing as ‘enough’?”“I won’t let you use Jade,” he stated. “Our plan was different before. This would have all been done with her consent. But now, it’s done. It didn’t work. We should all move on.”Cassian paced back and forth, pointing a finger at Felix and then putting it back down. He was still holding me, and I had to admit that I felt very much safe standing next to him, and I knew that he wouldn’t let his brother put his hands on me again. He’d stopped it, and that was what mattered to me. “You’re choosing this whore over me?” he asked. “Is that what t