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*Tatum*

Everything feels bleak and dark, no escape, no way out of this mess that will forever have us living in agonizing pain. Be it physically or emotionally. All hope for something better, something more was obliterated the moment he said those three words. Because the moment it was out there, I knew there was no one else I could ever love.

But I could live with a broken heart. I’d done it before and I had no hope of ever feeling complete again, but I could learn to care for someone, with a little time. I could adjust and be a suitable mate, a wonderful mother and pine in the comfort of my own moments. Or so I thought. Before the second chance, bond kicked in and left me with no recourse, no escape from the love and craving I have for Mav.

I can never be with another man without hurting Maverick through the bond. Every kiss, every intimate encounter would render him incapacitated with pain of the bond, informing him his mate is unfaithful. One moment I was trying to convince mys
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Not a long chapter like usual, but we are getting to the point where things are going to unravel very very quickly! buckle up!!

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Another heartbreaking but sweet chapter for our star crossed lovers
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