LOGINThe next morning I awoke to an empty bed. Confusion swamped through me as I climbed off the mattress, then made my way out of Torin's room and toward my own.
After softly closing the door behind me, I made my way over to my dresser and pulled out clean panties, a tank top, and a pair of shorts. Once dressed, I hurried from my room and toward the kitchen.
As I entered the room's large expanse, I was happy to see the only one occupying it was Crystal. Over the rim of her coffee cup, she eyed me, amusement and a knowing look written on her features. Smiling at me, she greeted me with a chuckle in her voice. "Good Morning, Marlowe. Did you have an enjoyable night's sleep?"
"Morning, Chrys," I returned, giving her a curious look at seeing her lips twitch with held back laughter. What's with her? I mused, giving my head a small shake.
The sound of bike's revving their engines filtered into the kitchen as I moved about, preparing myself a cup of coffee. There was always some kind of noise and activity going on in the compound, and it seemed today was no different than any other. I could hear the buzz and grind of power tools being used in the shops. As well, the sound of a playful argument out in the yard. But even with the usual sounds, it was quieter than normal.
"Why's it so quiet?" I asked.
"Guys went on a run. Something about the Proofers trying to muscle in on some of our territory," Crystal responded nonchalantly.
Crystal was Tat's ol' lady, and she was stretching her neck out just to keep me abreast of what was going down with the runs, or conflict with our rivals. Tat confided in her confidentiality as usually club business wasn't considered women's business. The only exception was if it directly affected us. I was always appreciative of the information she offered, and especially so this morning, as Torin hadn't even woken me up to say goodbye.
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Hours later, I was again working the bar—drug-free and feeling better than I had in a long time—and handing out drinks, sandwiches and fried foods.
Most of the members who hadn't gone on the run with the others were older, but not so old they couldn't take care of business if it was needed. They had served the cause and earned an easier lifestyle.
They still wore their Kuttes, but slowed reflexes and achy bones, as well bad eyesight, had allowed them the slower pace of protecting the compound, rather than being in the thick of the high-intensity and dangerous runs. Dad's Charter moved a lot of merchandise, anything from guns to drugs, so in many cases, it was the younger members who made these types of runs.
I had just finished pulling a beer off tap, when I heard commotion outside the bar, and as I slid the glass toward Jerky, named so because he loved beef jerky, Dillon and a few of the members pushed into the bar.
My eyes immediately caught the blood stains on their clothing.
Damn near leaping over the top of the bar counter, I ran toward Dillon. I could see the half-crazy look in his eyes as they settled on me. Moisture filled their depths, then stepping toward me, he pulled me against his chest, his voice emerging in a husky cry. "They didn't make it out, Mar—...Dad and Torin didn't fucking make it out."
FOUR YEARS LATER
Setting the glass of bourbon and coke down on the smooth surface of the counter, I slid it toward the man sitting before me. Turning, I grabbed a bottle of tequila, Curacao, and lime juice. After pouring the mixture over ice in a salt-rimmed rocks glass, I grabbed a swizzle stick and poked it within the Margarita. Afterward, I placed a napkin and the drink down on the waiting tray and turned toward the man waiting bar next to me.
"Jess, you've asked me that same thing a dozen times. A dozen times, I've said no—must I really make it a baker's dozen?" I questioned.
"No, this time you can say yes," he replied, winking at me, then twisting the top off three bottles of Corona, he poked three lime wedges within their mouths. Afterward, setting the beers on the same tray as the drink I'd just prepared, he pushed it toward the waiting server and turned back to face me.
"What would you do if I said yes?" I teased, my hands busy wiping the counter off.
"Run the fuck other direction and as fast as I could—that mean motherfucker of yours would slit my throat in a heartbeat," he muttered.
I didn't bother correcting him about calling Rook mine. Instead, putting away the cloth, I just laughed and murmured, "Nah, Rook's a giant teddy-bear! Speaking of Rook, I'm outta here."
Seconds later, I stepped out from behind the bar, and paused as the reflection in the wall mirror caught my attention. I gazed at the woman I saw in it. Her sable colored hair was long and sleek. Several strands on the right side supported dark blue streaks down their length, and her eyes, a deep blue in coloring, were slightly tipped at the sides as they gazed back at me.
The woman's eye makeup was a bit dramatic—smokey-eyed and heavily lined with black eyeliner and mascara—an addition, which enhanced lashes already thick and long without the artificial help.
In her left eyebrow, she wore a small hoop, and a tiny diamond stud graced the crease of her left nostril. An additional grouping of small hoops took up residence on the side of her bottom lip. Her left ear supported a Daith piercing, and in her right, a Helix.
I shook my head as I inspected my reflection, wondering if I would ever get used to seeing myself look so different. My new image was far sultrier, far sexier, than the old me had ever been.
The morning of the wedding felt nothing like I expected. I had imagined nerves. Shaking hands. A stomach that flipped every five seconds. Maybe a rush of panic that made me question every choice that had carried me here. But when sunlight poured through the loft windows and warmed the side of my face, I woke with nothing except a quiet stillness settling into my bones.It felt like standing at the center of a bridge I had been walking toward my entire life.Torin was not beside me. His side of the bed was rumpled and warm, the pillow still carrying the shape of his head. A small folded note sat near my hand.Went to the house early to help set up. I did not want to wake you. I love you. Come when you are ready.I smiled at it like a fool. My heart kicked in a steady, certain rhythm. No cold clamps of fear. No shadows creeping along the edges of my mind. Just warmth blooming outward from the center of my chest.Jess and Tannin were already in the kitchen when I stepped out. Jess had a
The rest of the day passed in that strange, weightless way where everything felt louder and softer at the same time. Like someone had peeled back a layer of silence I didn’t even know I’d been living under.The note and the photo stayed on the counter beside my sketchbook. No one touched them without asking. No one hovered. The space around them felt sacred. Untidy but important.Torin made lunch even though Rook swore he wasn’t hungry and then ate half the pan himself. Tannin complained about needing more sleep and then stayed awake for five more hours just to make sure Reif didn’t disappear on us again. Jess came and went, muttering about paperwork and police incompetence and how none of us better call him past midnight unless someone was literally bleeding. Reif hovered in the corner like he wasn’t sure if he was allowed to belong here but wanted to anyway.Late afternoon sunlight slanted across the loft, turning everything honey-gold. I sat on the floor by the coffee table with my
I must have stood on that balcony for nearly ten minutes before I trusted my legs to move again. The city noise drifted up in warm, steady waves. Car horns. Music from two blocks over. Laughter echoing faintly between buildings. It all felt strangely normal considering something inside me had just shifted in a way I could not name yet.Torin stayed behind me without crowding me. His chest brushed my back now and then when he breathed. His hands rested lightly on my hips as though he wanted to hold me tight but knew I needed space too.“You sure you want to go back inside?” he asked.“Yeah,” I whispered. “I don’t want to hide out here all day.”He kissed the back of my shoulder. “I’m here.”That was enough to get my feet moving.When I stepped inside, the loft felt different. Not bad. Just… heavier in a way that meant everyone in the room knew something had cracked open. Jess stood near the counter wiping crumbs off the surface, a pointless task since there had been no crumbs to begin
The day felt like it wanted to split itself in half. One part humming with the quiet joy of planning a wedding I never thought I would get to have. The other part carrying the heavy shadow of that letter. The handwriting. The truth wrapped inside it like a fuse waiting for a match.Skye wasn’t the only one trying to keep you apart. The words haunted the edges of every moment.I tried to focus on the stack of fabric swatches spread across the table. Jess had found the box tucked behind the bar’s old storage closet. Silk in soft blues. Lace in creamy ivory. A darker piece in a deep wine color that Tannin kept insisting would “look lethal on me in the best possible way”. But every so often my gaze drifted toward the folded letter resting beside my elbow. Torin noticed. He always noticed.He brushed his hand along my back as he passed behind me, his touch slow and grounding. “You want to take a break?” he asked softly.I shook my head. “If I stop, I’ll just start thinking again.”“You ar
~Marlowe~I found Ginger in the guest room sitting cross-legged on the bed, her gray-streaked red hair braided over one shoulder while she folded laundry like she hadn’t spent the last decade traveling the country with Burdock. She looked up the second I stepped into the doorway. Her eyes, warm and sharp all at once, softened in a way that made something inside me loosen.“Come on in, baby,” she said, patting the bed beside her. “You look like someone carrying something heavy.”I sat beside her slowly. The sketchbook trembled just enough in my hands that she noticed. Ginger always noticed.“What’s in there?” she asked gently.I opened it without answering. The photo slid out first—my mother with two toddlers who looked eerily like mirror halves of each other. Me and Rook. The note followed, old and creased and written in handwriting I didn’t recognize.Ginger inhaled sharply the moment she saw it.“You know it,” I whispered.She nodded once. “Yeah,” she said quietly. “I do.”I swallow
I closed my sketchbook slowly. The photo and note tucked inside no longer felt like a wound. They felt like a hinge, something letting an old door finally swing shut.Torin pulled me fully into his arms and held me there. He was warm. Solid. Steady. “You ready to join the chaos?” he asked softly.I nodded. “Yeah,” I said. “I think I am ready for everything now.”He smiled, kissed me once, and stood so he could pull me up with him.As we walked toward the kitchen, I thought of my mother’s letter, the woman she used to be, the girl I used to be, the life I used to have. And then I thought of this one. This home. This love. This strange, beautiful family I had chosen and who had chosen me back.The past finally felt like just that. Past. Tomorrow could be anything. And for once in my life, I wanted to meet it head on.The next morning, the loft hummed in that soft, quiet way it only did when everyone else was still asleep. Or pretending to be. Rook snored loud enough to suggest he had no







