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Losing herself
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2024-10-29 19:42:56The night was pretty long and Grace couldn't fall asleep, she was reminded of all the pain she had received and it was mostly from her loved ones. She was crying for a long time but the pain still didn't go away., the pain she felt in her heart, the emptiness that filled her, it wouldn't go away no matter what she did.
She finally gathered some courage and got out of the bed. She smiled as she looked at herself in the mirror, at that broken girl who could do nothing but cries.
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