It was in a spontaneous struck when we were walking further in the forest to their so-called Zone. There was no mum back or because maybe I didn’t focus on them catching two. When we got close, I just woke up.
I realized the argument of my two companions in a whisper.
"I told you she will be one of us! I saw it in her eyes, they have uncertainty!" Psyche said with certainty, looking at the person she was talking to.
"Then we shouldn't argue about that. What if she becomes a survivor like us? It's not essential to argue about this unnecessary thing, and there's no need to focus on it," Riley calmly said while he's gripping in the strap of my bag that he's holding.
"Uh, why is it you that I'm talking to? I know it's just not your thing." She tsked three times and shook her head slowly. "Sorcha and you are exactly the same."
"If you're going to argue, choose Freyja or Titus. You know those two." Riley laughed at what he said.
When we were in front of the Zone, we saw the remaining four sitting on the plywood lying on the ground. When they saw us, they came quickly to meet us.
"Stay here," Psyche said holding my shoulder. "We, the official zoners, will be discussing this important matter."
I could do nothing but lean against a tree close to my seat while watching the shady clouds enveloping the dark sky. It's like doing what she wants me to do.
They gathered around a few meters away from me so I couldn’t hear what they were talking about. I have seen their shocked and confused faces as Psyche and Riley keep on talking.
I even noticed that the conversation didn't seem to be going well because they were getting into trouble — arguing — or maybe they really needed to argue. But the two remained calm as they explained everything they knew.
Riley looked at me and smiled. Psyche did the same when she saw my concern before turning her attention back to her colleagues for their decision-making.
I averted my eyes.
I just focused it on the dark forest where I was. Slowly the clouds creep across the galaxy to obscure the unique light that illuminates the atmosphere. The swaying and traveling of the wind in the air became even more fierce as the breeze intensified with the cold.
It embraces my whole body, but even though it is changing and not the same as before, the smell I inhale through my nose remains fresh and natural-scented. It still gives me serenity and calmness at this moment and henceforth.
"New gal."
Less than a second later I looked at the speaker. It's Paris. He pouts and can't look directly at me.
When I looked behind him, his companions were gone. Where are they?
"Come, you need rest first." He supported me behind me and carried my arm in the front of a cabin that was between the branches of towering and ogre trees like the others.
It is positioned on the right, third, if the counting is on the left, and in front of it is on the right too.
It's still new. It looks like someone has already settled down because of the cleanliness and comfort even though it's just outside. Even the stairs upstairs were only painted about a month or two ago.
"Even though you're not officially here yet, it's . . . We've decided to let you use that tonight." The man sighed. "They went to the House Discussion to discuss your stay in this place. We're sorry for we can't offer you food right now. It's too late so it's good for you to rest first. I'm the one apologizing here. "
I just watched him speak. He was restless and frowning. Maybe he was confused and didn’t know what to say.
But he's a cute stranger.
Earlier I was holding back my smile because he was not comfortable talking to me. It's not that I'm being weirded out, his reaction is just really cute. But when he mentioned food, he influenced me in a certain manner for my tummy silently growled.
I can't do anything about that anymore.
"Uh, just," he said, stopping midway, also discontinuing to finish the sentence. He scratched the back of his neck. "Just for tonight, I repeat. This will be your temporary room. Also tomorrow, at seven-thirty, you have to wake up or else Freyja will wake you up. It's the right time because we haven't done anything yet, and you're about to face our Leader in this place for good. . . o-or perhaps bad.
"But you can also call him Gideon, his codename, just like we call him. It's up to him whether to allow what you want to happen or not. After all, he's the one to be obeyed. We're just a zoner here and under him in this place. "
My forehead furrowed.
These still linger on my mind. It would be better to answer this.
"Someone said earlier that he is also its coheir. How many of them? Who are its founders? And why did they build this place?" I wanted to say everything that bothered me, but upon eyeing his uncomfortable expression, I discontinued.
Paris smiled bitterly.
He blinked twice.
"I can't answer your question. Rules are made to be obeyed and not just to break it."
Even though he didn’t directly say what he meant, I understood him. I nodded. If that's the case, again, then I can't do anything about it.
All I need to do is to keep my queries inside my intellect.
"You can go in there. That's up to you today." He leaned over so I could pass and climb there.
I was about to climb when he stopped me to do so.
"A second please."
I looked at him. I waited for him to talk.
"Just a favor." He stared me in the eyes. "Don't mess with the things that are inside. You wouldn't have to change their places first. We would like them to be on their current spot." He averted his gaze somewhere. "We haven't—”
"Paris!" someone shouted.
It's Freyja.
She frowned at the young man. "We need to hear your side. Come on, let's go," she said to his colleague.
The man turned to look at me and his face begged for permission. In the meantime, I looked at him in agreement for his departure. I can't do anything about it.
And I must accept what their decision is. I just hope that when I wake up, no bad news will come to me.
"Let's go," he muttered, walking ahead of her.
Freyja followed him. I watched the two of them leave until they completely disappeared from my sight.
I was about to start climbing the tree by stepping on the trees that were nailed to it that served as proportions to get to the wide and thick floor in front of the house. It is supported by four timbers under it also attached to the timber of the tree, entering the door currently closed. I just noticed something made of wood on its side. It looks like a crib without feet. There are two ropes tied on either side of it.
When I looked up where it was connected, I saw it hanging on a big, sturdy tree branch. It is pinched by a small but long and thick piece of iron that has been bent inside. It's just narrowed so it's not easy to get out of there. It's hanging with a long rope that even reaches the body of the object. It is an odd and unfamiliar thing that I just saw, but it seems it's the only way to reach the tree cabin above.
I heaved a sigh and test my assumption about it. I rode there. I pulled down the rope.
Good thing that equipment rose inches off the ground.
I tried to pull the rope down again, and again, and again until it reached the floor in front of the cabin.
I went down there and slowly laid my feet on the floor. I breathed a sigh of relief because it was still strong to this moment. I didn't hear any grunts coming from it.
I approached the door before opening it. It isn't locked. When I looked at the other cabins, even those weren’t padlocked either. My eyes went down and I was almost dizzy because of its height.
I pushed the cute, yellow-painted door and got amazed because of what I am seeing inside. The equipment is arranged in their locations.
Very clean.
It is appealing and has a good fragrant inside.
There is a turned-on lampshade placed on a side table next to the bed that serves as the light in the room so I can see its whole.
There is a bulletin board hanging in front of a study table. Many pictures from different places are also posted there. A few books are sitting on the study table on the bedside a mini cabinet on the other side. A ceiling fan, flower vases containing a variety of flowers, and spiral chandeliers can also be found inside the room. And its walls, their color is golden yellow.
Very comfortable to observe the whole room. Although a bit crowded due to most of the types of furniture.
I smiled.
If anyone lived in this room, I think he or she was close to them. And I hope it would last forever.
Just like I once longed for.
The next morning, I woke up because of the cold liquid that seemed to run down my face. I just got up and frowned, and with my dull eyes, I've seen the person who did that and smeared at her. It's when I realized it was Freyja holding a mug.Suddenly my wrinkles disappeared when the words Paris said to me came to my mind."Also tomorrow, at seven-thirty, you have to wake up or else Freyja will wake you up.I took a deep breath before closing my eyes for a moment. If I had known earlier that this was going to happen, I wouldn’t dare to sleep so long.I was so tired yesterday.I just think I should have slept that way because I need it."Great," I mumbled. I looked at her with an eyebrow up. "Now, what?""You won't wake up." She scolded me. "Don't blame me for splashing cold water on your face." She even lifted the one that had been used to pour water on me, a mug.Fortunately, there's a little f
Nothing could be heard inside but Titus tapping on the long table, Psyche humming an unfamiliar song, Riley stomping one foot on the tiled floor with a beat, Gideon turning the page in the book he's reading, and my every sigh that I heave.I already saw every side inside. It is quite simple. A long table in the middle, black wooden chairs, vases for the plant on each side, and a mini crystal chandelier dangling in the ceiling. The walls are painted white. Therefore, the room is also air-conditioned.Nothing else besides that."Okay, that's it." Freyja stood as she glared at the stranger who seemed to enjoy the story as he flipped further from chapter one.I just noticed that it is easy to break the ties of her patience, Freyja's patience.Despite that, I still have no right to judge him. Possibly, she wants this thing to end. Possibly, she couldn't just keep on letting him ignore us. And, possibly, she mig
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Enough of the past.I should focus more on The Game.I watched Freyja from inside the fifth House now talking to Gideon. I could clearly see the seriousness on his face as they quietly talked about it in front of the exit door. The woman nodded and seemed to be keeping in mind what the other person is saying."Wanna know a secret?"I turned to Sorcha as she spoke next to me. We were both leaning against a tree as we folded our arms and watched the two talk in the room. Psyche and the others went back to his cabin because they were going to take some equipment left by Leader.I knitted my eyebrows. "We're not supposed to tell secrets. I mean, whatever secret you're talking about that is too confidential."She shrugged and giggled. "I know but it's just . . . It's just about her," she was referring to someone inside, pointing at her with her snout.I blinked as many as I can. "W-What about her?"
The next morning, I was awoken by something. It was these consistent knocks on the door.I groaned in frustration. I can't stand it yet. I'm still tired. I covered my head with a pillow as I tried to get much sleep."Cos! Cos!" Paris screamed in succession as he knocked louder and louder.I closed my eyes tightly. "Leave me alone, Paris. I'm tired," I complained to him, hesitating whether to get up and open the door for him. Especially to stop him from screaming my name."Let's go! Come on!" His deep, flat voice is enough to make my eyes wide open. How come I could get the sleep I want? "You don't want to be left behind, do you?"But I’m not in the mood especially from what happened last night. I'm fine with that idea. "Just go. I don't— I— just leave me alone." I took another deep breath. Can’t say that I'm super tired. How I wish it's that easy to tell him that I
"I wasn't expecting to see you here," Psyche said as she entered the hut which is where I am. Titus is behind her. "Well, we are in fragments of reality that made our world be this small enough to let us meet each other at the end of the day," I replied to her, taking a tablespoon of soup in a bowl with marinated meat. I put a little of it for my rice on my plate before spooning and pouring. Titus whispered to Psyche and nodded at me before leaving the hut. He moved to the one next to us. Probably, it's because of having two wooden chairs only in one hootch with candlelights to lighten the dim ground outside. Psyche rings the bell so as the serious-looking Titus lets the waitpersons know some customers want to order food. Just a moment later, two people arrived from the main house of the exceptional place that serves to be their kitchen. Withal, it appears to be nostalgic. I became wistful for a while for I remember
If I were inside a castle made of glass, I would be frozen in defeat. Perhaps, the reason is beyond what I can't foresee. It might be suffocating.Weeks later after the Game, I am here, an official Zoner.The wind sings as its melody accompanies its southward invisible note. It was also fresh this morning.Who wants to smother in a cage of deceit? How can someone enjoy life if he or she can't be an autonomous person? Chained is its ostensible to the interlock of disquietude and self-slaughter which never do good in life and its phenomenon.As my hands gripped the railings of the top floor of the Wooden Tower, which the Zoners named, I felt every flow of air in my hair. Its blowing almost drove me away from the place where I am staying."Cos."I turned to Riley when he called me. He is carrying two cups of coffee, still puffing some smoke. He is still wearing black nightclothes. His hair i
The orange sky almost engulfed the setting sun to oust it from its throne. The moon is waiting for it to end so that it can reign here for a while. It is only then that we decided to leave the place.I returned to factuality the moment Gideon woke me up as he gently dragged me out of the abyss of dreams. I thought I am not capable of escaping its unending vortex, thank you and he woke me up.At the same moment when we exited the small, bewildering hut with illuminating candlelights, we saw Freyja and her colleague walk toward the exceptional place with the other teams behind them.My eyebrows met, giving them a confused stare. It seems like they fought each other. Some parts of their bodies are dripping with sweat. It's a bit filthy— how to look at them as well. They are still chasing their breaths and some of them are still frowning.What could have occurred when they were in the Game? And why would they be tog
I never comprehend why the pumping organ inside my chest would be this breakneck and stentorian. It might get away from its cage and I can't be able to chase it. It has some kind of unraveled riddle that must be the rationale of what makes this happening inside of me. The Game did this and I should tell myself it's not helping at all.I thought something would be a fairy-tale after we went beyond the large and long thick barricade that has a ladder on its middle part. We climbed it and we're able to discover the place.But different is everywhere that I have seen. Ruins are the subdivision and the only scenery to be cast about each of every side and direction. Vines and grasses that are covering the remaining pieces of each house are the manifest this place is abandoned.We climbed down the ladder that is waiting for us and create steps forward.I looked at the Leader as I saw something that flickered in his eyes. A g
As I tiptoed and glanced in the left and right direction, my heart almost escaped as it throbbed undeniably faster which made it hard for me to be at ease. I turned to the complacent leader who was folding his arms and watching me with a blank expression.I frowned at him."Can't you assist me, Leader?" I sarcastically uttered as I looked behind him to see if there's an enemy. “You’ve been like that the whole time. Justice please.”He did not take his eyes off the sky, I mean, what's even with the sky that he wants looking at it? He shrugged his shoulder and up an eyebrow. "Life is always unfair, right? It is easier for me to read through you. Because of that thought, I think your world's not fair. You're playing but not as a whole. What is it that you're truly feeling?"It was a fact that he said, and I admit it turned me into a frozen statue who stares at his manipulating cold eyes. I averted it somewhere just so I could
I have chips inside the pocket of my denim jacket. With the amount I get, it won't be immediately used up by the user. I can tell Gideon have plenty of it inside his denim jacket, too.When we picked up those, we assured ourselves that we would be having this kind of weapon enough to survive the Chip Wreck. He arrived before I was blindfolded and when I knew I was in the group, he just nodded. Took the clothe and changed his current outfit in the bathroom.It looks like he's the only one who can't do that.And that was when I realized that we have to change our upper suits involving our own shirt earlier. Aside from the denim jacket, we both wore blue collarless bench bottoms based on the one I pulled out of the jar as a symbol that we were both in a group.We all switched for the Game.A while ago I didn't even notice what they were wearing even the color of them but they did the same after pulling out and before the Leade
For those who had remained, I gave them love, but they bestowed me curses and hatred in return.The funny notion about irony and worth is that they couldn't be quested. Irony blazoned itself as irony, and worth promulgated itself as worthiness or worthlessness. Hence, to make it shorter, either one of them is ridiculously a part of the void. They have no meaning at all.So ever since I received hatred from the people I loved I have learned to put a fence between me. Even after I realized that I was adopted, I also realized why my supposed blood relatives treated me so badly.There's this burning fire, rage, in their eyes like I was a fox who brought deceit. That was the end of my questioning. What's wrong with me, what they don't like about me — but by the time the questions run out, new ones flood into my mind.Like why can’t they accept me? Or why do I have to endure each of every whip of them? I didn't do any
Enough of the past.I should focus more on The Game.I watched Freyja from inside the fifth House now talking to Gideon. I could clearly see the seriousness on his face as they quietly talked about it in front of the exit door. The woman nodded and seemed to be keeping in mind what the other person is saying."Wanna know a secret?"I turned to Sorcha as she spoke next to me. We were both leaning against a tree as we folded our arms and watched the two talk in the room. Psyche and the others went back to his cabin because they were going to take some equipment left by Leader.I knitted my eyebrows. "We're not supposed to tell secrets. I mean, whatever secret you're talking about that is too confidential."She shrugged and giggled. "I know but it's just . . . It's just about her," she was referring to someone inside, pointing at her with her snout.I blinked as many as I can. "W-What about her?"