"Am I not enough? I did everything so you could spare me a drop of love. I have always been choosing you over me. Your happiness over mine. Forgiveness over hatred and revenge. But you never did the same."
I covered my face. "What about me? What about me? When are you going to choose me? When are you going to love me? When are you going to forgive me? When will I ever earn a drop of happiness? I am," I almost can't utter it because I never really felt it. "I am your daughter, too." I mumbled.
The sound of my cries mixed with the roaring laughter of my father.
"You got to be kidding me," He said. "You're not even my daughter," He was smirking while saying that. "Do you want to know what you are? You are a fruit of something disgusting. You are a reminder of something terr
I clenched my chest. "And another thing is, Clea doesn't want you. I love so damn much that it's so painful that after our marriage, you started treating me like a trash."I stood up. "Why? Why can't you love me back? Why are you making me feel so worthless? When will it ever be me, Quel? When will you allow me to measure your love?""How can I love the woman who ruined my plan in the future?" He sarcastically smiled. "You're not worthy of love, Athijha. Just go and die. Maybe you'll find the love you've been waiting for.""What are you saying?""You love me, right? Then die for me, Death." Tear ran faster like they're competing in a marathon.I closed my eyes
I closed my eyes and forced myself to sleep especially when I smelled his perfume.He kissed me on my temple. He laid beside me and wrapped his arm around my waist.He scooted over closer and buried his face on my back."I'm so sorry. Forgive me, love. God knows how sorry I am. God knows how much I love you, Jha.""I trust you, love. I love you so much. If you feel like I'm lying when I say I love you, then look into my eyes, love. Please."The back of my shirt started to get wet which made me feel kinda uncomfortable.I can feel his body slightly shaking as his embrace tightened.
I am standing at the shore, comfortable with the soothing feeling of the cold water as it caress my feet. The warm breeze of the dusk makes me feel free.I clossed my eyes when the wind started dancinf with my hair as the droplets of the seawater landed on my my skin the moment that the wave hit the rock formation near me.I turned around and stared at the figure of Miss Rebekah's manor. I tilted my head as I intertwine my fingers on my back.I can't believe I ended up here. I can't believe I have went this far after everything that has happened in my life.It's almost been two weeks since I stayed here without contacting someone. Not even my mom, not biological mother, not my friends, not Exiquel, not my family and
She started to walk while I threw a final glance at the horizon then followed her lead after a few seconds of staring at the gorgeous line between the sky and the waters.After dinner, I immediately laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I am processing the things that Miss Rebekah told me earlier.Forgiveness.Forgiveness something hard for me to give. Given that I still suffered even after forgiving them for many times.They have always taken that for granted, knowing that I can forgive them again even if they have hurt me.But not this time. I won't let them take whatever I can give for granted anymore.
The memory of that night came back in my mind. The memory of how stupid I was to attempt to commit suicide. How stupid I was to ask him such a silly question."The moon is beautiful isn't it?" I mumbled then laughed. "Damn, I can't believe I said that in that kind of situation. It makes me cringe now."I can't believe how foolish I was to take the three steps away from him but I also let myself to be pulled closer to him.The nineteen years old me sure was stupid. I laughed with that thought. Silly me. I wonder if I fell in love with someone more deserving, will I be able to those crazy things?I wonder if I wasn't that naive and kind, will they abuse me because of who I am?
"Hey!" She screamed then shoot me glares. "What the hell are you doing?""Do you want to play, Cali?" I asked with a small smile plastered on my face.I saw how her eyes sparkled the moment I said that. "I sure do! Damn, you better be ready for this," She splashed waters on my face then giggled which resembled the sound of a baby's voice.We played on the waters for almost an hour before we decided to just sit on the cottage and watch the waves caress the open shore."Did you know that most of the children wants to grow up fast and most of the grown ups wants to go back to the time when they were just a toddler?" She said out of nowhere."Yeah? Well, I don't se
"And I don't want the world to see me,'Cause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's made to be broken,I just want you to know who I am,"Do you know who I am, Quel? I was once your girl.Do you know who I am, Zein? I am your mother, baby. You came from my womb, my little angel."And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,Or the moment of truth in your lies,"The truth that you have been trying so hard to keep in yourself must be revealed. The truth that lies beneath the facade of pain."When everything feels like the movies,Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive,"His voice rang
"Good morning, everyone," I greeted them in a cheerful manner which they returned in the same intensity of the enrgy I gave.My eyes grew wide when I spotted him standing by the counter, comfortably leaning on the wall with a smirk plastered on his face."Woah! What are you doing here, kuya?" I asked while walking towards him.He spread his arms while I run to acceot the hug he was offering. I felt him kiss the top of my head."Good moring, little sis," He said while chuckling. "Apparently, our old man misses you already, Emerald.""So, you're here to pick me up?" I asked in a quite cheerful tone."Yep, da