MERIDA
It was the singing of the birds and the harsh sun rays that woke me up.
I couldn't even remember how long I had slept or when I had slept off.
I stirred , turning to the other side of the bed suddenly feeling so cold .
I grabbed the duvet and pulled it over my head , trying to go back to sleep.
My stomach rumbled , reminding me how little I had eaten last night and I almost cried out, the hunger that was chewing at the other side of my stomach grew more teeth and increased its tempo.
Just then I suddenly sat quickly as if pricked by a needle I broke out in cold sweat.
Aunt Ophelia....
I said to myself , my eyes darted around the room and for a moment I forgot that I was no longer in Frostclaw pack.
I was somewhere , safe somewhere where no harm could get to me and where I could no longer be reminded of how unworthy and useless I was.
I slapped my temple softly and exhaled in relief.
"You are up so early."I heard a voice say and I quickly turned to find Alpha Lukan standing before the mirror.
" Did I?"I asked sheepishly and he turned to give me a funny look." I thought I was still at my Aunt's."
"So I thought ." He said moving away from the mirror after trying to knot a tie but failed miserably.
I guess he was preparing for some meeting of some sort but I just couldn't bring myself to ask him.
"Next time you should have all the sleep you can get." He said in a harsh tone that I flinched. "You are in my pack and you're no longer a slave . I wonder how many times I will drum that into your skull."
I pretended not to hear him and swung my legs over the bed
"Do you want me to prepare anything for you?"I asked in a rather small voice and slowly he turned to give me a look mixed with a little anger and amusement.
" Is it that you love asking silly questions or it's just me?" Then he turned back and picked some files.
"I do not want you to prepare anything for me , the maids can handle that , you should start getting comfortable on how to become the next Luna." He said his tone flat and I thought he was joking.
" I'm I really your mate?"
"Another silly question." He said, rolling his eyes."If I stand here listening to everything you are saying or having to answer every question you throw at me I will be late for the meeting."
I said nothing else again but I knew he was staring at me when I was looking down at my feet.
" You should make sure you apply the Willows Tears to your injury after taking your bath, I'm quite sure you can do that on your own." He finished.
I glanced at the top of the bedside table where the little bottle was untouched.
"When I mean I apply, I mean you should scoop just enough of that, if it finishes,I will get another one. The issue here is that your injury has to heal properly and then I will have to question those psychiatric patients you called family." He grabbed his phone and began to scroll through it.
"One more thing."he said h
as I began to walk to the door."Feel free to interact with everyone here, this is not a zoo you might be spending the rest of your life here."
Might.
What does that mean?
It sounded like a probability to me like, I was in a kind of test and if I passed so well I will live here and if I don't?
The thoughts of going back to Aunt Ophelia and Uncle Garrick made my heart stopped beating
I just couldn't think of that ,not even in my wildest imagination.
Going back to them was like death itself.
I would rather jump down the bridge than go back to Frostclaw pack.
"What are you thinking about?" Alpha Lukan said to me, watching me closely.
" Nothing —"
"Fine." He said."You will never tell me what's on your mind, so I have stopped bothering myself." He got to the door and held the knob and glanced down at his wrist watch.
" Rosita is ever ready to answer any silly questions you have. You have the right to order any kind of dish, remember you need to put on some skin , I can't present you to the council like this." He said.
His last statement struck me hard and I remembered what Rosita had said last night.
It was actually true but she mentioned a gala and now he was saying that he was going to present me before the council.
I have never been to the council before , I do not know what they look like but I know that they might probably be some old men with stern looking faces.
How was I supposed to know what they look like when I was never allowed to leave the Pack House?
"I will take my leave now." He announced and when I looked up I found him staring at me.
"You are supposed to say ' have a nice day at work darling' and press a kiss on my cheeks." He said regarding me like a six year old." Isn't that how mates do?"
My eyes opened wide and I didn't know what to feel.
Fear. Surprise. Indifference .
The only couple I know was my parents but I was too young to remember anything.
Aunt Ophelia and Uncle Garrick weren't all lovey dovey, they were either quarreling or Aunt Ophelia asking for more money , the only time they were united was when they wanted to make me feel so worthless or take turns in whipping me or bringing silly suggestions on how I will be starved.
I wanted to get up and go to him, to hug him at least.
How was I supposed to tell him I don't know how to kiss, I had never done it before.
My legs felt so weak as I struggled to my feet and with slow small steps I walked up to him.
He towered over me and the only thing that came to my mind first was to shut my eyes and bring my lips closer.
I stood there for a few seconds hoping I had touched the soft flesh of his cheeks or his lips but nothing , only for me to open my eyes and see him scrolling on his phone.
"What are you doing?"he asked when he lifted his eyes up ." You frightened me."
And that was when I realized he was so engrossed in his phone that he hadn't seen me walk up to him, he had totally forgotten what he said.
He blinked realization in his eyes.
"Wait." His tone was laced with a mixture of disbelief and amusement." You really took what I said so seriously? "
I suddenly felt so small and I wanted to vanish.i was plunged into the sea of embarrassment. I wished for the ground to open and swallow me , I didn't even realize that he was joking.
He was playing with my feelings and the shame I felt sucked up every strength I had in me.
I couldn't even walk back to the bed.
His eyes were still on his phone and then he looked up at me.
" You walk like a cat , I didn't realize that you were beside me. I thought I was saying the ghost of my dead grandmother."
Stupid ,Merida. I said under my breath. I reminded myself not to take his words seriously next time.
"Take care of yourself little mate." And with that he left, leaving me in the large bedroom.
LUKANThe car gilded slowly before it stopped in the parking lot, I glanced at my watch and realized I was fifteen minutes late."If they can't wait they can go home." I muttered to myself as I took the steps up to my office."Good morning sir." My receptionist greeted me with a low bow , I gave no reply and walked away when I saw my PA but I pretended not to see her . She came out of an office smiling sheepishly obviously engaged in a gossip." Good morning Alpha Lukan." She said half running after me and trying to keep up with my long strides."I sent you two emails and you never gave a reply, " I said, taking another bend."I did , but I was waiting to congratulate you." She said in a rasped breath and I stopped in my tracks."Congratulate me for what?" I asked lines of anger etched on my
LUKANI stood staring down at the pack below, one hand thrust into my pocket and the other holding a tumbler.My mind was far away and it went back to the discussion I had with my mother , Julietta .I took another sip , savoring the taste , the cold liquid ran down my throat , warming itThinking about Merida , I felt there was so much I needed to know about her.It seems she was a shadow , like she just wasn't existing and when I turned away she might just vanish.I exhaled and poured myself another glass of vodka .I guess they were still a lot of things that I just didn't know about her , it seems there were many things I might never know about her"Why does it seem like mother knows so much about her ?" I muttered to myself taking another sip.The
MERIDAI still couldn't believe he could do such a thing to me even when he left , I was still feeling embarrassed.My stomach rumbled again and with the little strength I had left , I pushed the door open , my eyes meeting the spiral staircase which made my eyes water.I took a step at a time and the smell of freshly brewed coffee flew into my nose making me salivate. I told myself this morning that I could stuff myself with just enough food .As I came to the dining hall I momentarily forgot about Alpha Lukan and I wanted to grab every piece of fried chicken that was on the table.There were dessert and appetizers , coffee and toast , just anything to make one go crazy.Back home I never had any of this and I wanted to start eating right away. I was still in last night's clothes and I really wanted something to eat. I knew I was supposed to have showered before having breakfast , but I was about to faint from the hunger that was crawling at the sides of my stomach. "Merida."I hear
MERIDA I blinked , the sun on my face and I squinted. My leg sting from the pain which drove through meLemuel stood awkwardly beside me, he glanced at an angry Lukan and then back to me, as though unsure whether to help me up or not. "Lukan!" I gasped, my voice cracking , this was the first time I was calling him by his name.He stood there, staring down at us, his eyes narrowed, his jaw clenched. There was something funny in the way he looked at Lemuel, as if the very idea of us together made him angry.I tried to scramble to my feet, but my leg throbbed, and I winced, I stayed put. “I... I tripped,” I stammered, trying to explain. “It was an accident.” Lemuel quickly nodded, his face pale. His cheeks flushed “Yeah, she fell. I was just—”“Just what ?" Lukan's voice was cold and low.He didn’t seem interested in Lemuel’s explanation, nor mine. The way he looked between the two of us, there was something else swirling in his mind—something I didn't think was possible. Jealo
LUKAN.I took a sip from the wine flute , from the corner of my eyes , I could see Merida stealing glances at Lemuel. My wolf gave a silent growl and I wonder what's with all this nonsense. I really don't want to feel that I was probably getting jealous .Hell no !But she was already getting used to Lemuel in just two days , I looked away angrily trying to hide my anger though.Lemuel's and Zayna's chatter filled the air , they were also getting ready to become mates . I almost laughed , it feels so absurd.I clicked against the empty wine flute with my fork drawing attention to myself. Everyone stared at me and the hushed discussion paused.Better .I cleared my throat and looked around for sometime , Merida stared at me before looking down at her food."I have some very important news to share with everyone." I announced and from the corner of my eyes I could see mother beaming . " All preparations have been made,"I said after a few seconds. "Preparations?"Lemuel asked and he exch
MERIDA.Embarrassment washed over me like a tidal wave , I couldn't stand properly and I stared down at my light green dress. Too bad I won't be wearing it ever again.*"She couldn't hold the glass properly." * Zayna had said but she was lying and I couldn't say anything ,just anything to defend myself.As usual my tongue betrayed laying limp and dry in my mouth tasting like dry paper ."Yes, I should go and change." I said and I glanced up to see Zayna smiling at me.As I went up the stairs , Zayna light elegant steps echoed behind me .I could see the way Lukan was staring at me , I saw that silent anger in his eyes , he was quite irritated that I couldn't even defend myself."What a magnificent bedroom." Zayna said, looking around."Thank you." I said sheepishly."Not you . I was complimenting the room." She intoned , her voice so sweet for someone that mean. She had poured the wine on me on purpose but I just couldn't say anything.I went to the wardrobe ,I guess I had no idea why
MERIDAChapter 15."That's not true." I heard myself saying , not believing that my voice could sound that way , so thin , almost breaking as if it wasn't mine.I blinked back the tears that were already running down my cheeks , I swallowed hard, making me realize that for the hundredth time I was feeling so worthless, so unloved .I wanted to glare at Zayna but I couldn't each time I raised my eyes and they fell back to my feet .Wanted a voice to tell me that Zayna was lying , that she was jealous and trying to break me and Lukan apart.How could she say that ?When I heard the concern always ringing in his voice when he asked about me .The anger when he learnt about what Aunt Ophelia and Uncle Garrick had done to me .All my life , no one had looked at me with so much concern , the care in his eyes . Back at Frostclaw Pack , members of the pack had never felt so sorry for me.Me ?I gave a silent laugh , I wasn't allowed to let the sun grace my cheeks , I could count how many time
LUKAN"Why did you take so much time in the bathroom?" I asked Merida who was sitting before the dresser staring at the beauty collection before her , clueless on what to do .Her hair was raised high on her head in elegant waves and the fish tail gree gown made her look kind of beautiful, I could have been better if the gown hugged her curves but there was nothing."Because , I like —" Again she trail off and I wasn't bothered to continue with the discussion. "So green is your favorite color ?" I asked after a few minutes trying to pick up a conversation with her and make her say something. She had been quiet all day and she jumped , I rolled my eyes .She turned to look at me confused and clueless, if only there were awards given to people who are clueless , Merida would definitely top the chart."What—" She asked ."Don't bother." I said looking at her from the corner of my eyes , she was lost in thoughts and during breakfast I had caught her stealing glances at me.I knew some