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00015: Things I Never Wanted To Hear

Author: Kim Moon
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MERIDA

Chapter 15.

"That's not true." I heard myself saying , not believing that my voice could sound that way , so thin , almost breaking as if it wasn't mine.

I blinked back the tears that were already running down my cheeks , I swallowed hard, making me realize that for the hundredth time I was feeling so worthless, so unloved .

I wanted to glare at Zayna but I couldn't each time I raised my eyes and they fell back to my feet .

Wanted a voice to tell me that Zayna was lying , that she was jealous and trying to break me and Lukan apart.

How could she say that ?

When I heard the concern always ringing in his voice when he asked about me .

The anger when he learnt about what Aunt Ophelia and Uncle Garrick had done to me .

All my life , no one had looked at me with so much concern , the care in his eyes . Back at Frostclaw Pack , members of the pack had never felt so sorry for me.

Me ?

I gave a silent laugh , I wasn't allowed to let the sun grace my cheeks , I could count how many time
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