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To Love You Hurts An Unwelcomed Visitor.
Attempting to inhale deeply only intensifies the tightness in my chest, leaving me feeling light-headed as a wave of unease crashes over me. I should have anticipated this inevitable moment after Tobias confronted me after his father's funeral. But I suppose I was somewhat foolish to think that Tobias would have willingly distanced himself from me once he discovered that I was pregnant and had deceived him by claiming that Kip was the father.Throughout my adolescent years, I discovered that when you inflict enough emotional pain on someone, they become accustomed to suffering, much like a physical wound. If you don't resolve the situation, it could have serious consequences, like bleeding out. Unfortunately, my relationship with Tobias only brings us both immense suffering.I'm well aware that Tobias shares my sentiments, and when life has taken control of you, inform of the tragic events that have unfolded. It’s near impossible to allow something so heart-warming, like love, fill th
Last Updated : 2024-08-26To Love You Hurts F.M.L.
Tobias exhales sharply, frozen by the sight of Ryan. His chest heaves, his breaths coming in rapid, desperate gasps as he fights to fill his lungs. I can sense the overwhelming impact this must be having on him, and it's difficult to fathom the thoughts racing through his mind at this moment. But I'm pretty sure that all he wants is to put his big hands around my neck and choke the hell out of me.“Leave.” Ryan bellows, taking me by the hand, and he desperately tries to drag me back inside. “You made my mummy cry, and we don’t want you here.”“Ryan, darling, it’s okay. We don’t let our anger turn into violence," I say softly, squeezing his shoulders before I turn him around to face me. "Believe it or not, your mummy knows who this man is," I smile. "It’s okay; you can go inside and wait with Awez; she is probably a little upset herself.”Ryan turns his head to look at Tobias and they both glare at one another in a stand-off, their eyes narrowing into thin slits and their nostrils flar
Last Updated : 2024-08-26To Love You Hurts A Restraining Order.
It’s been three days since Tobias showed up unannounced, and I’m hoping that he has come to his senses and returned to New Zealand. I’m so tired, the sleepless nights have been getting to me lately, and I’m so paranoid that I catch myself constantly looking out my living room window or over my shoulder when we are out in public.I steer the car into our driveway and notice a black sedan is parked up in front of the house. My stomach begins to churn, and my grip tightens on the steering wheel as the driver gets out of the vehicle and stands next to his door with a placid look on his face.“Who is that man?” Awez asks, rubbernecking out the window as I drive past him.Lifting the handbrake, I kill the engine and put the windows down to let enough air into the vehicle. “I’m not sure, honey girl, but I’m about to find out,” I say as I unbuckle myself and turn to face both her and Ryan. “I need you both to stay here while I talk to the nice man and see what he wants, okay?”Awez nods her h
Last Updated : 2024-08-26To Love You Hurts You Owe Me That Much.
“Are you sure you are well enough to watch the twins?” I ask El, who is lying on the sofa with a heating pad on her pelvis. “I can always reschedule. It’s just my yearly check-up at the dentist.”She waves me off, “yes, go. It’s only my monthly cramps that Aunt Flow likes to bring with her during her visits.” She sighs, turning her head to look at me. “I’ll take some painkillers and the twins, and I will do some arts and crafts while you are gone.”I gnaw on my inner cheek, “are you…”“Keri, will you just leave already?” El sighs, sitting upright as she gives me a pointed look. “It’s just cramps that will pass soon. I’m not going to die, or let your kids run a muck.”I raise my hands in the air and slowly start to back away from her, “okay…” I chuckle.Now I know why Kip pops around home more than usual during the second week of the month. El is quite scary when she is on her period, and I hate to think what she will be like when she finally conceives.“Just make sure you bring me a l
Last Updated : 2024-08-27To Love You Hurts I Hate You.
Tobias staggers backward, and I press my palm over my thumping chest. My heart feels like it is desperately trying to rip through the layers of skin and expose its vulnerable state. Calmly, he picks up the fallen chair, sets it upright, and collapses into it. His gaze is trained on the floor in front of him as we remain still. The pair of us are too afraid to disrupt the silence between us as we try to figure out how we got here.I wonder if he is blaming me. Conjuring up scenarios in his head of me setting out to trap him to demand a substantial payout to keep my mouth shut. Surely, he wouldn’t be so foolish to think that after I haven’t attempted to contact him all this time.“I was told that I was infertile,” he mutters as his brows knit together.“You didn’t wear protection, Tobias. Not once, and El told me that if you…” My voice trails for a beat. “That if you were to ejaculate multiple times in a short span, there was a small chance that you had one or two good swimmers.”His ga
Last Updated : 2024-08-28To Love You Hurts Not Going To Happen.
TOBIAS:It’s been two days since I returned from Australia.Two days after confronting Keri and hearing the words from her mouth. ‘The twins are yours, Tobias. You are their biological father.’The words swirl in my mind like a vortex sucking me in. You think you know someone and then bam… They do something that makes you question every little detail in your daily life. I haven’t been able to think straight, and I’ve pushed back every important meeting scheduled for today. Not only is Keri fucking with my mind, my business is taking a hit too.For a long time, I believed that I couldn't have children, so I didn't see the need to use a condom. It never crossed my mind to imagine myself as a father. After receiving the results, I handled the situation with composure and dedicated all my time to Landry Enterprises. I suppose you could say that I made the decision to nurture my company, guiding its growth and development into something indescribable.A large part of me is still in denial
Last Updated : 2024-08-28To Love You Hurts What Do You Mean NO?
I sigh, shaking my head, knowing that these two will clash like unbreakable links in a chain.“Why don’t you two sit down and watch some TV while Tobias and I step outside for a bit to chat?” I offer them a bright smile, pretending that I’m not secretly freaking out on the inside.“I don’t feel like watching TV.” Ryan says as he glares up at Tobias.Tobias turns his head to the side. He doesn’t utter a word, but I can sense that he is displeased with Ryans’ attitude, and I don’t want him to say something that will only upset Ryan further. To someone who’s looking in from the outside, Ryan would appear to be a spoiled little brat who needs to learn his place. But to me, he is being protective, earning his status as the man of the house.“Alright, how about you take the tin of cookies up to your room with Awez and do some arts and crafts?” I give him a pointed look.Please don’t start, kiddo…“I have some grown-up things that I need to address with Tobias.” I add, gnawing on my inner che
Last Updated : 2024-08-29To Love You Hurts The Wrath Of A Landry.
TOBIAS:I feel a chilling sensation coursing through my veins, making me shudder as I take my place behind the steering wheel. She truly gets on my nerves. Drives me delirious with rage. It's clear that she perceives my desire to be involved in my children's lives as a threat. If I had any intention of taking them from her, I wouldn't have bothered coming here. I'd be sitting in my office, effortlessly orchestrating the assigned duties of a team of lawyers.I’m not a heartless bastard. Well, not to the point where I could tear my children away from their mother because, even I know how it will affect them mentally. All I want is to be involved in their lives. Parenthood isn’t a part-time gig; it’s all or nothing, and I want to give them my all. I’ve already missed their birth, four birthdays, and four Christmas seasons with them, and she aims to make out that I’m the one who is being unreasonable here.Surely, I’m not the asshole!I accelerate out of the driveway, and the rear tyres s
Last Updated : 2024-08-30
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To Love You Hurts Are You Happy?
EPILOGUE: TOBIAS:The waves fiercely crash against the shoreline behind us as the sun rays beam upon us.“I do.”Tears of joy brim my eyes as she utters two small words that mean everything and so much more to me. She is officially mine. Again. This time by choice.“You may now kiss the bri-” Before the priest finishes his sentence, I reach for my wife, crushing my lips against hers as I seal the deal between us. Keri smiles against my lips. “How does it feel to be a married woman by choice, baby?”“Perfect. How does it feel to be married and a father of twins?” She has a mischievous glint lining her eyes.“Like the lost pieces to my life have finally pieced themselves back together,” I reply honestly.I turn around and look at my children sitting beside one another with a large grin on their faces as they sit on the white chairs in the sand. Sawyer is holding a small bouquet of flowers, and Ryan, an empty small pillow that not long ago held our wedding rings. My gaze shifts further i
To Love You Hurts Let Me Explain.
TOBIAS:A persistent knock raps on the timber door, catching me off guard as I flip my steak over on the grill. Turning the BBQ off, I move my steak to the side, taking it off the heat so it won’t overcook. The banging on the door starts again, and my strides become larger until I reach the door and yank it open.“Why the fuck do you continue to bang on my-” The words fall from my lips when my gaze collides with Keris'.What the fuck is she doing here?How did she know I was here?Fuck… Fuck… Fuck…“Keri, I… Uh…”Slap!Before I can finish my sentence, her palm collides with the side of my face. Lifting my hand, I cradle my cheek, dampening the stinging sensation spreading across it. She looks pissed off. Like she could murder me, and I don’t blame her.“So, it’s true. You’ve been here for two months?” She hisses, enraged to find me here. In the same country and not behind bars like I should be.“Yes.” I state firmly, gritting my teeth.“You bastard!” She cries out, shaking her head. “
To Love You Hurts The Lake House.
THREE MONTHS LATER:“We need to reschedule today's’ meeting,” Mel looks up at me from her desk, sounding a little strange. “I’m not feeling well, and I need to go over the new contract Adem sent through for a new deal he wants to cut with us. I aim to be on my A-game before facing him.”“I can get Davis to come in and go over it with you? Two sets of eyes are better than one, and unfortunately, I’m still trying to get up to speed with everything going on as it is.”“Davis is unavailable today. He is at the hospital with Ava.”I know I shouldn’t ask, and I don't understand why I give a rat’s ass about her after all the grief she has caused me in the past, but I can’t help myself. “What’s wrong with my sister?” My voice sounds harsher than I had intended.Gnawing on her inner cheek, Mels’ brows furrow as she raises her gaze to meet mine. “She was standing on a chair, screwing in a light bulb when their oldest girl came running into the living room, accidentally colliding with the chair.
To Love You Hurts The Guilt.
“You need to stop being so hard on yourself, Keri,” El speaks softly, resting a gentle hand on my shoulder. “Under the circumstances, you have done a remarkable job with the twins, and one day, they will eventually realise that you have always had their best interest at heart. If there is one thing I know for certain, it’s that being a parent is a learning process, too. After you have given birth, you are not handed a parenting manual. You learn as you grow together as a family; sometimes, the road we pave isn’t easy. But it sure as hell is fulfilling when you reach the end of that bumpy road.”I take a moment to let her words sink in and wipe my eyes dry as I nod my head; agreeing with her. “You’re right,” I whisper, patting her hand that remains on my shoulder. “It’s been four years now, and I am still as clueless as I was yesterday on how to parent my children correctly.”“Everything that has transpired into this mess with Tobias and Coach Matty, isn’t your fault. I need you to hea
To Love You Hurts It's Your Fault.
As the front door to Kip and Elz home opens, I glance at Officer Marcus and give him a small smile that falls short of reaching my eyes – a silent expression of gratitude for his safe escort here. He offers me a brief nod, pivots on his heel, and walks away without uttering a single word.“Oh, my gawds, Keri!” El screeches as she yanks the door wide open and pulls me into her loving embrace.I lean into her, tears streaming down my face as my heart shatters further. I feel an overwhelming urge to express my emotions loudly. To express my frustration and lament that the universe and Gods have conspired against my happiness. Yet, I find myself without that feeling. I search within my soul to find my strength and muster the bravery to stand before the twins as they come rushing towards me.“Mummy, mummy… we missed you last night.” They say in unison as they fling their arms around me.El rubs my back as she gently pulls away from our embrace. Our eyes collide, and she utters the words, ‘
To Love You Hurts A Million Years And One Day.
I shut my eyes, attuned to the strong and rhythmic pulse of Tobias’ heart, my body half entwined with his. His fingers glide softly up and down my spine as he lies on his back while his gaze remains fixed on the ceiling. We haven't slept; we've only been exploring each other's bodies on an intimate level, compensating for lost moments and creating memories that will linger for years ahead. I press my face against his chest, a deep sigh escaping my swollen lips as I cling to him with all my strength. I long for a chance where time could freeze, allowing us to savor the precious last moments that Kip has generously given us. The sun has risen, birds are chirping, and early morning traffic for churchgoers echoes through the room. There is so much I wish to say to Tobias, but I don’t want to ruin this moment. Though we showed each other how we felt about one another on a deeper level, using our bodies to express ourselves, I still feel like there is so much unsaid between us.“I want you
To Love You Hurts Use Me For Your Pleasure.
TOBIAS:The soft caress of her lips is like a lifeline I desperately try to cling to. Warm. Soft. Sensual.I hate to think that this could be the last time I get to feel her like this as she passionately tries to kiss away my deepest and darkest fears. I’ll love her until my dying breath. It’s always been her, and it always will be. I am undeserving of her love, her warmth, and time.“Don’t speak… Just feel, Tobias. Use me for pleasure.”“Don’t say that,” I murmur, pulling away from our kiss. My gaze travels down her body, and she has no idea what the vision of seeing her in my clothes does to me.“I’m serious, Tobias. If now is all we have together. I want you to take what you need from me.”Lowering my pants down my hips, my cock springs free, and I watch through half-lidded eyes as she licks her lips like a starved little kitten looking for its next meal. She lowers herself onto her knees, gazing up at me, with the moonlight accentuating her natural beauty. I lean against the glass
To Love You Hurts Don't Leave Us.
I slowly feel myself surfacing from the deep slumber that embraced me. Reaching across the bed, I search for the twins, and when I am met with air, I jolt awake in a frenzy as last night’s terror claws at my chest. I open my eyes, and my vision slowly adjusts in the darkness.“Tobias, is that you?” I whisper, squinting towards the far corner of a room that isn’t mine.Sitting in an armchair with the moonlight illuminating the room, Tobias is leaning forward with a bottle of Whiskey dangling between his wide-spread legs. He stares down at the bottle, tilting his head to the side as he swirls the amber-coloured liquid at the bottom.“Go back to sleep, baby.” He mutters in a soft tone, raising his head to meet my gaze. “It’s still early, and you need your rest.”I notice that he’s wearing nothing but a black pair of satin pajama pants. His hair looks damp as if he’s just stepped out of a shower, and the woody scent of his body wash faintly lingers in the air.“Have you been sitting in th
To Love You Hurts Utterly Useless.
TOBIAS:My sedan comes to a screeching halt as I pull into Mattys’ driveway. Pulling the handbrake up, I don’t bother killing the engine and push the door open. Exiting the vehicle without slamming the door shut behind me, I race up the stairs, giving Link the death stare of a lifetime.“Where the fuck is she?” I growl, curling my hands into tight balls at my sides. Rage licks my flesh, setting every inch of it on fire. Without uttering a single word, he points to the door, indicating that she is inside. I bite down on my molars and shove my finger in his face. “You are fucking fired!” I bark in a breathy and murderous tone.So fucking fired!I vividly hear movement inside the house, like there is a struggle, followed by a muffled whimper and I spring into action, realising that my Keri could be in grave danger. I take one step back from the door and I kick it in. Link rushes inside, and my blood turns to ice when I see Keri pressed up against the wall with Matty trying to rip her pan
