"Do you like that?" I ask, watching her as she moans softly. "Do you like me fucking your greedy little cunt with my gun?"Her eyes clamp shut, but she nods her head, as if she's too afraid to vocalize that she's enjoying it."How about if I shove it in your ass while I fuck your greedy cunt?"She gasps, eyes shooting open. "You wouldn't—""Don't push me, Azira. You know full well I will now."Her throat bobs as that fear returns, going to war with the pleasure. I pull out a bottle of lube and squirt some onto the barrel of the gun.While she's not looking, I switch the safety on. I may be crazy, but the risk of me trying to fuck her and control the gun is too much.It's best to be safe than sorry, but she doesn't need to know that.And then I push it against her tight ring of muscles.She's so tense that I have to force it through, working the muzzle in and out a few times before she relents."Good girl, take that gun in your ass."Her lip quivers and she looks like she might be on t
"So, Bly how have you been?" Jane asks, a notepad and pen in her hands as she sits opposite me, looking attentive as if she gives a shit how I've been.Therapist are all the same. They want to take your money just for asking a few fucking questions, but I don't have a choice. Oak was not going to take no for an answer."Great, thanks."She nods and writes something down, as if somehow she gleamed some information about my mental state from two fucking words. "Oak is concerned that you're on the edge of another breakdown. Can you explain why?""Fuck knows." I run the palm of my hand over the back of my neck. "I've been a little agitated because my workload is increased. That's all.""Hmm." She writes something down, a look on her face as if she doesn't believe my rehearsed bullshit. It always fooled her before, but I was more in control then."What?"She draws in a deep breath. "I just think you seem different.""Well, it's been a few years since I last saw you.""Yes, but I sense that
"Try me."I shake my head. "No, I can't go there.""It's your childhood, isn't it?""My childhood is hazy at best.""From what age?""Anything before fourteen years old is pretty blank." I know it's blank because I've blocked it out. It would take some effort to unlock those memories, but I won't. Nothing good can come from unlocking the closet that holds my skeletons.I'll drown in the darkness if I do."Okay, how about after fourteen?"I shrug. "I moved to America when I was fourteen." That's my cover story, as I don't mention Toronto, not to anyone other than Oak."Who with?"I bite my tongue as I often try not to think about him. "My older brother, Ivan.""And where is Ivan now?""Gone."She looks a little irritated by my short answer. "Dead?" she confirms.I nod, hating the way it feels when I think about him.We were two naïve boys when we arrived in Toronto, thinking we could find jobs and make a life for ourselves away from the darkness of our childhood in Russia. We had plent
Azira approaches me in the corridor, which is gutsy. She's been getting more and more forward since I fucked her in the bathroom at the hockey match."What are you doing now?" She asks.I glance at my watch. "I've got a staff meeting in twenty minutes."She looks disappointed by that. "Oh.""Which means I have time to devour you."Her eyes light up. "Are you sure?""Positive. Now get your sexy ass into my office now."Her brow arches. "Office?"I nod. "Yes."She spins around and heads toward my office. I can practically feel the excitement reverberating through the air from her, and it's sexy as hell.She leans against the wall next to the door to my office, waiting for me to unlock it. I glance around the corridor to ensure no one is around, as at this rate, people are going to notice me constantly spending time with her."In you go."Azira struts inside my office, her hips swaying from side to side. She's always been a confident girl, but lately she's blossomed into a sexy vixen of
"Can you believe it's spring break already?" Nat asks as she shoves the last of her pizza into her mouth.I shake my head. "No, this last year is flying by." And I know the reason is my secret affair with Blaine. It's hard to believe that four weeks have gone by since he got possessive with me at the hockey game and punished me in the bathroom like a feral animal. They have flown by as we spiraled deeper and deeper into our twisted games with one another.When he thrust that gun inside of me in his office five days ago, I thought I was going to die of fright. After a while, I relaxed and then he thrust it in my ass and fucked me. Somehow, I enjoyed it. As sick as that is to admit, I enjoyed the power I gave to him. The trust I had to give him, believing he wouldn't hurt me, that no matter what, he'd ensure I walked out of that office alive and not with my guts blown out by the gun.It should have made me angry and want nothing to do with him anymore, but it drove me deeper into his we
"What are we doing tonight to celebrate?" I ask, trying to ignore the text and the fact he sent it with his number withheld."Movies and junk food?" Nat suggests.I nod in reply. "Sounds like a good idea." I glance at Eva. "Can you come?"Eva purses her lips. "Yeah, I'll text Oak now and let him know." She pulls her cell phone out of her pocket. "He's not leaving for Alaska until the day after tomorrow, and you guys leave tomorrow so he'll understand."Nat makes a scoffing sound, which draws Eva's attention."What's that noise for?"She shrugs. "He never understands when you want to hang out with us. He's like a possessive caveman."Eva smiles at that. "You haven't exactly been that free lately for girl's night since you hooked up with Alex."Nat's cheeks redden. "We're not as bad as you and Oak.""You are both as bad as each other." My brow furrows as I glance toward the exit of the cafeteria. "Where the hell is Adrianna?"Eva smirks. "Probably finally caved and jumped into his arms.
I pace up and down the length of the courtyard outside the library under the cover of the overhang that wraps around it, irritated that she hasn't arrived yet. My text to her yesterday evening was clear that she was to meet me here in the courtyard at nine o'clock sharp. It's ten minutes past and there's still no sign of her. I'm not a person who accepts tardiness, especially not from a sub.I pull my cellphone out of my pocket and call up her name, when I hear soft footsteps approaching. When I turn around, she standing a few feet away from me. "Sorry, I'm late."I tilt my head. "You'd better have a good reason."She shrugs. "My alarm clock didn't go off."I shake my head. "That's not a good enough reason, Azira." The desire to hold her to account is strong, but I know we don't have the time and this isn't the place. "I'll have to punish you after spring break."Her cheeks redden. "Yes, sir." She tilts her head. "Why did you ask me here?"I glance around the courtyard to ensure we're
The city sign for Chicago comes into view. Five days I've been apart from Azira, and already I'm losing it. I'm here to track her down and observe her from afar—stalk her, basically.I need to ensure she's not with another man. After all, she was quick to accept a date with Rizzo to the hockey game, so God knows what she'll be up to back in Chicago.Azira is completely unaware that after that game, I installed spyware on her cell phone.I can track her anywhere in this world. There's nowhere she can run where I can't find her.Hell, if she went to Timbuktu, I'd know about it.I take a left and find the parking lot closest to Bloomingdale's and park my vehicle, getting out and surveying where the exit is. Azira had to be in a fucking Bloomingdale's the day I arrive in Chicago.It's not exactly the kind of place I'd ever be caught dead in, but I sense Azira is the kind of girl who loves going shopping and doing things that would make my stomach churn.I walk to Bloomingdale's, keeping a