Note.

So, another chapter, but this one is a note, thank you for your patience.

I made an important decision after much deliberation. I'm not sure if this is a good or bad decision, but I've decided to stop writing after 'Blinded Dreams' is finished.

I'm literally in tears while writing this chapter, and I thought I'd stop after 'Third Chance Mate,' but now that BD has signed it, I can't.

I realize this appears to be a hasty decision, but I have given it careful consideration. If you didn't know, I've been writing for over a year but have yet to receive any recognition from any platform. If you look at my first book, it has only 407 readers to date, all of whom I obtained on my own.

But this current platform is doing a fantastic job of promoting my work, so I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Please don't think I'm greedy; I have family to whom I owe my value.

Please consider this from my perspective: I sit in front of my computer as soon as I get home from class and write all night, putting in all my effort to recheck my work frequently and also to give something to readers, a plot they will think is unique, and I am grateful to all of you who thought so, but even that is not enough. I see support for other books with huge fan bases and simple plots (no offense), but my books don't have it.

I believe that readers prefer erotica, which is fine, but I don't write because I want my books to be accessible to wider age groups.

I agree that my book isn't all that great; perhaps the plots aren't as unique as I think they are, and someone even pointed out that my grammar isn't very good. I believe it is best if I discontinue it entirely so that readers do not lose interest in my book.

I am a very sensitive person, and this is how I feel about the situation.

To cut a long story short, I haven't earned a single dollar in the last eight months. Yes, not even a single dollar, and even for TCM, my earnings from six months are only 85$, which I can't withdraw until it reaches the point.

So, if you were in my shoes, would you continue to write for no pay, with no motivation, just to see your efforts go to waste?

Believe me  I would have continued writing because I still have two more plots ready but my parents think I am wasting my time and not doing any work because for my parents I don't have anything to show them and I think they have a point because they are worried that I keep writing all night but they can't see any result so they suggest I look for some other work which can cover my expenses though writing has my heart I am going to do so.

I have someone who looks down on me and thinks I am nothing in comparison to him, and the situation isn't working.

So that's it, please don't take this as emotional blackmail or anything, but I needed to vent somewhere, and I did it here. Sorry, I couldn't help myself, and I thought anyone considering supporting my work deserved an explanation. Maybe at some point, all this will be worth it and maybe I would return with those two stories.

I appreciate your patience; the next update will be posted tomorrow.