I was sleeping when I felt his cold hands on my body. I remember covering myself from head to toe with blankets, but now I could feel the night air hitting me. A manly cologne, a sweet and addicting aroma of sandalwood and mint with a hint of alcohol, wafted into my nostrils, causing my breath to catch in my chest. I was roughly flipped onto my back.
Fortunately, Killian had let me sleep alone for today, realizing that I needed solace. He was ‘kind’ enough to give me his warm hoodie and even gave me privacy. I didn't know how I had ended up sleeping when I had been crying my eyes out just a few hours ago, but sleep had come naturally to me. I was tired and exhausted.What I wasn't expecting was Alexei to be here at this time of night. I was still upset with him.I remained silent as I heard him shuffling through his clothes, a thud on the nightstand as he placed his phone, watch, and gun. I held my breath but didn't move, trying to ignore his presence.A persistent buzzing dragged me out of sound sleep. For a second, I was so disoriented I thought it was the middle of the night. But when the buzzing intensified, I let out a groan before rolling over onto my side, I blindly groped for the vibrating phone. Just as my hand touched the device, it stopped buzzing. Sighing in relief, I pulled the blanket over my head, snuggling into the pillows—My eyes snapped open, a spike of adrenaline chasing away the worst of my drowsiness. The phone. I blinked the sleep out of my eyes and realised it was Alexei’s phone on the nightstand. My thoughts immediately rushed with everything that happened in twenty-four hours and it made me completely sober. Before Killian helped me wash last night, I placed the burner phone Dominic gave me under the drawer, thinking it was safe. Looking around with anticipation I did not find Alexei anywhere. Even the bathroom was locked from the outside. My heart thudded.
My body felt as if it had been grated over burning ambers and then run over by a train. My chest felt tight, and every breath that I inhaled felt forced. Lifting my head, my eyes collided with the rearview mirror, giving me a complete view of Ralph’s stoic face set in a deep scowl, brows furrowed deep in his thoughts. It took forever for me to calm down, and because of me, he was late—not that he cared anyway. Maybe I was too much. When my anger calmed down, I realised what I just did. Though I was expecting a beating, Alexei was gentle so was Ralph despite his deep scowl. Alexei even helped me get ready, there were no words exchanged between us. Even the two-piece tweed dress felt too tight, almost claustrophobic despite being designed by one of the best designers herself. My eyes were puffy and red, even the heavy amount of concealer wasn’t able to fix that. Ironic how I created a scene at the breakfast just because I didn’t want to go with Ralph. Now see, I was sitting in the
His hold on me was possessive, and I clung to his side with each step we took, still not feeling at one hundred per cent. Somehow as soon as Antonio left, Ralph was next to me, his face pale and eyes panicked as he looked at me on my knees struggling to breathe. He knew Antonio was here. And he did not expect it just like me. He quickly gathered my shattering self in his arms, licking me up bridal style as people around us gossiped. I couldn’t care at that moment, all my thoughts were jumbled and so was my heart. I didn’t know what Antonio was doing here, or why was he even here, but one thing was sure, something violent was going to happen, so damaging that made my soul shiver with fear. His words rang in my ears loudly. He’d hurt Ralph. He would hurt his son. And that’s when I realised, Ralph’s childhood was not as pleasant as I imagined. There was something that made Antonio hate him, and by the way, Ralph was cursing, I knew he hated him too. My head was so dizzy that I didn’
There were more than five men shooting at us from the side of the car that crashed into us. Ralph met my panicked gaze, something as concern swirled in his deep green eyes as he swallowed hard. He looked me like he was afraid for me. My heart squeezed but I pushed away the feeling. I just wanted to cry, cry till I pass out. He hissed when a bullet grazed past his bicep cutting the flesh. Still Ralph didn’t took his eyes away from me. The mere thought of losing him gnawed my insides. I was nothing without him or Killian or Alexei. They define me. But….“I love you, Rara. I love you so much, little mouse that I can not think straight anymore.” His confession took me off guard. His hand found way to my hair, his hair disheveled and so were mine, but he still managed to look ethereal and dangerous. Love…he loved me. I swallowed hard, the emotions blocking my air passage. He couldn’t….love me. His eyes held mine captive for a longest moment before he saw hesitancy in mine. He chuckled, s
The gun went off, and the man’s head in front of me exploded in blood and flesh flying in every direction, but I couldn’t care less about those things. My eyes focused on Rara, as I watched, her shaking hands drop the gun almost immediately after, as if the weapon was going to burn a hole in her hand. Her doll-like features were a mask of terror and shock. My little mouse had never shot someone before, and just to save me, she killed someone. The guilt, the shame, it was all but painted onto her face. She hated she saved me, yet she hated how not saving me would tamper with her head. She might try to deny it, but she wanted me. Wanted us.The man's body slumped to the ground, the gun following suit shortly after. A surge of anger welled up within me, as I had desperately wanted her to listen to my order. However, an equally powerful wave of pride washed over me because she hadn't listened. I would’ve been dead, but never could I have imagined it would come at the hands of this woman
I was consumed by guilt. I should have never stalled in that alley. I should have never doubted Ralph. How foolish. So incredibly foolish. Every cry of pain that escaped Ralph's mouth pierced through me like a blunt blade. It was entirely my responsibility that he got injured, and looking at Killian and Alexei's expressions, they were fully aware of it as well. I hate to admit it, but the feeling of freedom overwhelmed me for a brief moment until Ralph was held at gunpoint.I just couldn’t imagine Ralph’s father wanted him dead. “Now what the fuck happened?” Alexei’s cold eyes cut to me, the look in them made me shiver. I know I made a mistake, and need to fess up to it, but I was terrified of what may happen when I do. Alexei and Killian now see me as more than just a sex slave, they look at me like I was the centre of their mundane world. Like the only star that shone bright even though the sun was up. And what did I do? I betrayed them. Almost got Ralph killed. My eyes slowly wan
She’s my muse. A face to all my desires. The memories in my veins were as fresh and deep as the wound in my gut. I hate this and I hate it more every second I remember the fearful look on Rara’s face. I lost her. Almost lost her. Like I once lost my mother. The soft pitter patter of rain lingered in my ears. There was another wavering moment before I remember to breathe. I didn’t wanted to think about her, yet here I was. I was five—and foolish, when I lost my mother. Her death wasn’t as tragic as Killian’s mother, but it left a traumatising impact on my life. My chest tightened as I stared in the front, the shadows play on the walls, echoing the turbulence within me. My mother's photograph resting in my hands, the edges worn out. The flickering candlelight casting an ethereal glow, emphasizing the nostalgia that lingered in every corner.I had been awake for an hour or so now. I couldn’t sleep. Every time I close my eyes, flashbacks of my mother’s terrified eyes and her dead bo
I woke up to sore limbs and sweet bitterness in my chest. The sun peeking through the windows told me it was already past noon. Strangely I was feeling better than I was feeling last night. The guilt still tripped my thoughts now and then but except for that, I was not feeling anything—not crane hatred I thought I felt for my captors. I just couldn’t believe that I almost…. cried just because Ralph was hurt because of me. Ralph. I looked to my side to find the beside empty. My hands automatically moved to the cold sheets and I rubbed the spot: I wish he was here so that I could see if he was alright. Sighing I pushed myself up, putting my hair in a messy bun and walked slowly to the bathroom. After brushing my teeth and splashing my face with cold water, I decided to skip the shower since I was not feeling like taking one. The warm hoodie which smelled like Killian’s, I didn’t want to take it off. Walking barefoot, I stumbled to the