*Soleil*
I walk directly to the sink with the fish, trying to find a way to start this conversation, a way to save myself for a serious telling of. Siri is sitting alone at the table, plucking dry flowers off their stems.
"I caught some fish for dinner". I try and look at Siri. "Well kind of".
Siri doesn't answer or look up from her work. And for every second I feel worse and worse about what I did.
"Grab some rubber gloves and come over here, I could use a hand with this". She finally says.
I breathe a sigh of relief and quickly open a cabinet pulling out some rubber gloves. Then I go to sit down, pulling them on.
"Watch out you don't breathe in too much of the flowers; they are quite poisonous". Siri picks up one of the plants, showing me how to pull off the dr
*Soleil*It takes me all day searching the shore for a branch that are usable for my staff. Tjalfe had told me I would know, that it would stand out from the rest. Problem is, none of them are standing out to me. In the end I give up and start helping the vaetter clean up. Even if Gudrun has told me about other beings than trolls and elves, I almost fall on my but when little beings with big shimmering wings introduces themself as fairies."We are the spirits of the trees and we protect the forest, the animals and the plants. You can call for us by sitting under a tree". One of the fairies says."I am really sorry to have disturbed the balance like this". I apologise, as I drag a heavy branch away to the stack."Well you have made sure there is fire wood for a long time and lots to repair the cabin. It can use it". The fairy explains.
*Soleil*For the first time since I arrived in Scotland I dream. But this is a brand new dream. It is everything mixed together. Warm hazel eyes and a beautiful smile are mixed up with wolves howling. Fairies and trolls show up, twirling me around and beautiful elves try to get me to follow them.A person wearing a vǫlva cape and having a staff in her hand steps up next to me. She turns to look at me … it is me, or me as I can become if I follow that road, the vǫlva me starts to walk. I take a step after the other me, but stops.Behind me the warm eyes have turned into Luca, he is standing on the edge of the forest, reaching for me. Ecstatic I run towards him, wanting to throw myself into his open arms. But for every step I move away from my other self, I feel loss and sorrow. I stop again, caught between the two roads I can take. None of them wants to follow me in
*Soleil*"Okay like that. And now, lift it just a bit". Deeply focused I nod for an answer and slowly lift my hands. "Yeah good there". Tjalfe says. "See if you can make it rotate faster".I groan from the effort and try visionens how the column of wind I have created over the lake spins faster. For a moment it reacts and absorbs water."I can't hear you". He teases me. "You really have to train those pipes if you want some more power behind it".There is a loud splash as the water falls down into the lake and I sink down on the bridge with a sigh."Well that went pretty well". Tjalfe says encouraging. "It has gotten bigger and you can hold it for longer now. With galdr you should be able to boost Your seiðr". He sits down beside me, slapping me on the back."Just
*Soleil*"Here". Gudrun hands me a small drawstring bag made from rabbit fur. "I made it for you".Carefully I open it, pulling out a white piece of fabric. It is a rune cloth like the one Gudrun has. I look at her with surprise. "Is this for me ?"She nods, looking very excited. "You need one for Your runes… you need to make them first though".Then she starts teaching me about the 24 different runes, all taken from the old Nordic alphabet the futhark. How they are separated in 3 different houses and what the different ones represent.After almost an hour Gudrun looks at me. "Are you with me so far ?""Yeah I think so... all those choices and paths, it kind of like with us right…our path, our choices and the things we have to go through to become a vǫlva
*Davina*I am putting the last touches on a new dress I have designed when my phone rings. I am quickly pressing the green button when I see who it is. I was not expecting to hear from him today. "Hi it's Davina, didn't you have meetings and a business dinner ?""Well lucky me, it was funnily enough Your number I pushed". His voice sounds at the other end. "Plans changed, are you home tonight ?""Might be.. why ?" I ask. "Are you okay ? Your voice sounds a little of"."Just a little cold". He says. "As I said, plans have changed. I have a club I need to make an appearance at. You could come if you are not too busy"."Yes !" I whisper, holding the phone away from my face, pumping my fist into the air."Was that a yes I heard ?" He chuckles. "It might get a bit lat
A small warning this chapter contains hard sexual content, blood sharing and puplic sex.. so be warned.*Davina*Inside the club Lefu leads us through the crowd of guests. They part for us, making a path. We walk directly to the stairs, without stopping or talking to anyone.This is how it works, just like in the Grotto the rumours of the out of this world beautiful royals will quickly spread and people will come in throngs, hoping to catch a glimpse of Lefu or Celine, maybe even of me. The bat is sure to be a success.When we are upstairs, I go to stand at the railing, looking over the club. It is much bigger and more luxurious than the Grotto. The dance floor is surrounded by greek columns. Ther
*Soleil*"That's it ! I am never gonna learn this. So if I am not to get a melt down we need to stop now". I get out through gritted teeth and exhausted huffs. I have just ended on the ground for only God knows which time after trying to jump. I have done my best and nada is happening". I point to my sweaty and sore body.Gudrun straightens up and looks at Marta who sighs. "Alright then, five minutes break. Then I come with something else for you to do"."What just happened ?" I say, letting Gudrun pull me to my feet."You are fighting, you are doing Your best. Marta knows that and she is just at frustrated that she can't help you over Your barrier". Gudrun answers."Barrier ?""Sol, you have the ability in you. You have to believe. Maybe you just need to focus o
*Soleil*The next couple of days are even worse to get through. Opening up to nature takes so much energy and most days I am asleep before my head hits the pillow and I have no energy to think of anything but training. It takes me forever to answer Davina's messages. I simply don't have much time alone. I only have time to answer when I am in the bathroom or on my way to bed. And the answers I get worries me. Davina's messages are different, so elated and almost sanguine.After asking several times she finally admits to having met a guy. I am truly happy for me, she deserves to be happy. But she won't tell me anything about him or who he is. It makes me sad because we have never had secrets for each other. From now it will all be different. I have to lie about all of this and if she can't tell me about her life either, I feel it will tear us apart.While getting rea