chapter one hundred and forty-six

Emily POV

Relieved. That's how I felt after I poured out everything I had kept inside me to Tyler. Maybe it was a way my subconscious found to communicate with his, to get him out of this life. It was a disguised threat.

Actually, I still wanted to see him suffer, but I know very well what it's like to be a victim and what it's like to victimize oneself all the time. I've been playing the victim for too long, now I'm tired. If I can make Tyler suffer, I will do it, despite loving him deeply.

I want him to learn, learn that no matter how capable I am of forgiving, I won't tolerate being made a fool of. I want to make him learn what it's like to close his eyes and imagine a bunch of things. What could have happened if I hadn't intervened? That's what stops me from forgiving him. If I hadn't interrupted them, would he have had an affair with her? Deceived me?

I believe he loves me, I know he loves me. But he's a man. My mother always said that men need to be tamed. It's time for Tyler to