“You look nervous.” Knox says to me as I walk toward his car at my job’s parking lot. It’s the end of my afternoon shift on a Friday. I’m tired as usual and I’m regretting agreeing to this trip. I’m not looking forward to sitting in a car for hours.
I was hoping Knox would change his mind and stand me up but he didn’t. There he is standing next to his car, looking like he’s the king of the world.
I look at him thrown by how good he looks under the night lights. He looks like he has a halo on the top of his head. He’s so tall he’s blocking the pole of the light behind him. The darkness around him makes him look mysterious.
And it doesn’t help that he looks so good in a pair of jeans.
“Do you blame me?” He holds out his hand and I give him my bag. I watch him place it him place it in the boot.
“I told you, you have nothing to
The next morning I wake up to the bright sun filtering through the big window of the room Knox put in last night. The curtains are thin enough for me to be able to see through to the outside. All I can see is lush green fields beyond. Dogs are barking and a few people are talking.Knox was right, this place is magical. I don’t remember the last time I slept this deep. I closed my eyes last night and the world disappeared. It’s like the stress just left my body. I really needed this.I reach around my bed for my phone; I find it under one of the many pillows on this huge bed. I’ve never slept in such luxury. I almost cried in joy when my body came in contact with these sheets. My skin has never touched anything this soft.If I was home I would have slept in the nude, just so I can fully luxuriate in the softness of the sheets and the plush mattress. But I didn’t feel comfortable enough to do it.I wake up my screen and look at the t
“Good morning.” Knox’s grandfather says walking into the sunroom, where one f the stuff led me to, to have breakfast. I came out of my room this morning to an empty house. I was then informed that Knox is out with his grandfather on farm work things. I was told that breakfast would be served here. I’ve been sitting here, sipping the best coffee I’ve ever had. “Morning .” I say smiling back at him. I look at him taken aback by his appearance. He looks like he was tackled to the ground and made to roll around in the dirt. “I was in a fight with a horse.” H says answering me before I even ask. “Well not really fight but I was thrown off a horse.” He says and my eyes go wide, why is he talking about getting hurt so casually? I know that’s dangerous. “That sounds serious.” I say looking at him concerned. Where’s Knox? He needs to check on his grandfather. “I’m alright, you should see Knox. He looks worse and he wasn’t even on the horse.” He s
I look down at Knox my body shaking slightly. I can feel my insides vibrating from his touch. I close my eyes and take a long, deep breath. I do it again hoping I will be able to turn off the flood of feelings Knox just ignited.I breathe over and over but it’s not working. My body wants release and the only person that can give me the kind of release my body needs is right here but I can’t let him in like that. Not again. I won’t recover this time if I let him in too close.He sits up again his face so close to mine I can feel his breath on my skin. His hands brush over my arms softly. Leaving trails of goose bumps as they go, I can feel his every touch.They move lower to my waist and I open my eyes when I feel his finger untie the waist tie of my shorts. I look up at him willing hi with my eyes to stop. But he doesn’t. He pulls my shorts and underwear down and then uses his one arm to pull me up slightly so he can slip my bottoms down
In the evening “You look cute in your matching pajamas.” Melody says when she opens her bedroom door. She smiles at me sweetly, looking me up and down.“Thank you.” I say striking a pose, she giggles as I change angles and show her my best pose.“I didn’t know you were a model.” She says moving from the door to let me.“Fun fact I wanted to be a model when I was younger.” I say closing the door behind me and following her to the bed. She gets under the covers and I sit on top of the covers.“I didn’t know that.” She says looking at me intrigued.“Yeah, I loved the idea of travelling the world and posing for pictures in expensive clothes.” I say smiling, I would dream for hours of the places I could see. I can still remember the excitement I felt at the thought of it.“And why didn’t you become a world travelling supe
“I always sleep better when I sleep next to you.” Knox says when I open my eyes. He refused to go sleep in his own bed last night. I begged him to leave but he told me that he wants to sleep in my bed. So I let him, I got tired of arguing. We fell asleep around 3am and I had the best sleep ever. I made sure to keep to my side of the bed and not move any closer to him. Luckily this bed is huge, so I didn’t have any issues there.I won’t admit it to him but I always sleep better when he’s next to me too. I love knowing that he’s there with me. The thought that I can just reach out to him and touch him is comforting for me.I close my eyes for a moment and then open them. Knox is sleeping on his side facing me. He’s a very good sleeper, he doesn’t move much in the night. I’m the opposite I sleep on my back, my favorite position to sleep in and I change positions all throughout the night.“I wonder why that
“How was your weekend?” Samantha asks standing next to my bed. She gets under the covers moving her body closer to mine. I hold myself from recoiling from her. I’ve been editing my reactions to her since I got home a few hours ago.From the moment I walked through the door my brain has been telling me to break up with her and kick her out. I’m feeling angry and frustrated. And her being here is making the feeling even worse. Spending the weekend with Mel did something to me. She called me out n so many things that when I came home and found Samantha here, her words echoed in my mind.Our conversations did a number on me. She made me think deeply about how much I’m letting slide with Samantha. I’m coasting along letting her decide where my life is going. The truth is I don’t want t be here anymore. I don’t want to pretend to love Samantha anymore. I want to be free. I want to know what it’s like to live with no expec
“Melody?” Someone says behind me, I turn around and my eyes go wide in surprise. She’s wearing a matching purple outfit, not one hair out of place. She still looks like the judgmental girl she was years ago.What the chances that I could run into her here at this very moment? This restaurant is way off campus and not many people know about it. I come here for their chicken salad, it’s so good and I like that it’s quiet. It’s very rare to run into people you know. Which is why seeing her here is weird.“Summer.” I say shocked to see her here. She smiles looking me over. I can see the surprise in her eyes. I’m not what she expected. I bet she thought I would remain the same timid girl she used to bully. I smile letting her take her fill of me, yep I’ve grown up.“It’s so weird running into you.” She says sitting on the chair at my table.“Not r
“Can I come in?” Knox says looking at me at the door. I look at him and walk into my apartment and leave him at the door. He looks at me with his sexy, I own the world smile on his face.“Come in.” I say walking straight to my bedroom. I hear him close the door and he follows me to my bedroom.I go to my drawers and take out comfortable clothes and take off the ones I’m wearing. He stops at the door and looks at me as I undress. I can tell by the look on his face that he loves this.“You like what you see?” I say looking at him. He has this look of focus and zoning in on my body.“I love what I see.” He says smiling at me. He stares at me not even blinking once. “I bet you do.” I say and he laughs a little.“Why do you say that like it’s a bad thing?”He asks walking into my room and sitting on my bed.“Are we going to have this conversatio
“I know your favorite thing to do right now is to sleep.” Knox says into the silence. I stand in the doorway and watching him holding our son. He has his back to me so he can’t see me eavesdropping on his conversation with his son. My eyes water at the beautiful sight, he’s taken so well to being a father. I knew he would be great at it but it blows my mind how much heloves being a father. I don’t have to ask him to do anything. He knows exactly what his child needs. I wasn’t surprised when I woke up from our nap and Asa wasn’t next to me. I bet Knox came up to our room as soon as he got home. He misses his son like crazy when he’s not home. If it was up to him, he would stay home and devote his whole life to our child. But he can’t do that, he has tgousands of people that rely on him. They need him to show up at work so they can have jobs too. The dedication he has to his family takes my breath away. He makes sure that his child is loved in every way. He has Asa sitting comfortabl
“Are you okay?” Knox says walking into the bathroom. I’m bent over the toilet, vomiting my guts out. I’ve been having morning sickness for a while now and I’m not happy. “I read somewehere that ginger helps with morning sickenss. Let me get you some.” He says walking away. I listen to him walk away. He’s been annoying the hell out of me with his rememdies and pregnancy facts since he found out we’re having a baby. But I have to admit for once I appreciate his obsession. I would give anything to make this stop. I came home about half an hour ago and I’ve been hurdled over this toilet since. I thought morning sickness was for the morning and that’s it but not. Imagine my surprise when this happened during a meeting in the middle of the day. I flush the toilet and sit on the wall next to the toilet. I don’t want to move from here. I’m pretty sure I’m going to need to vomit in a minute or two. Knox and I should have thought about this a little harder before we decided to engage in bab
My ex wife is sitting opposite me at one of her favorite restaurants in the city. She looks perfect. She doesn’t have a hair out of place; she’s staring at me with a look of hope in her eyes. She’s looking at me like she won the lottery. When I look at her face I see my past. I don’t see anything beyond this conversation. The only woman I want is Melody. I’ve never been surer about something like I am about my love for Mel. I feel bad that Samantha is looking at me like that. I can tell she thinks I’m here because there’s still something between us. “Thank you for meeting me.” Samantha says smiling at me. “I didn’t think we would ever see each other after everything that happened.” She adds looking away but she’s still smiling. After my talk with my father I had a lot to think about. I realized I owed her at least one last conversation. I might have moved on but she clearly needs to talk to me. I want to go into this next chapter of my life with no attachments. And no matter how I
“Is it weird that I want to pick out the baby’s name already?” Knox says kissing my belly. This man is obsessed with his baby. That’s all he wants to talk about, he’s constantly asking me random questions about pregnancy, birth and anything else that comes to mind. “Are you pretending you didn’t hear what I said?”I ask looking down at Knox. He doesn’t want me to go back home. But I need to; I haven’t seen my siblings in two days. I feel bad for leaving them alone for so long. I know they’re grown and they can take care of themselves but I can’t pretend they don’t live with me. I have to be a good sister and make sure they’re okay. I know they love it when I give them their space but I need to check in on them. “I’ll drive you home when we’re done here.” He says kissing me over and over again. Of ‘course Knox wants me with him all the time, I want the same thing but as long as we have two different households that’s going to be a little difficult. I need to make sure all the people i
The dinner party is over. Knox’s grandfather opened his expensive gifts. Olive and her father left, done for the night. It’s just Knox, me and his mother left. We’re back in the living room enjoying a late night drink. I’m having tea while everyone else is having alcohol. I have to admit, this being pregnant this has its drawbacks. On a stressful night like this a glass of wine would have come in handy. If I sip on the tea slow enough I swear I can taste the wine. If I’m going to be required to attend these awkward family events, it’s going to be a very long 9 months. I can’t imagine getting through them sober. “Are you ready to go home?” Knox says touching my belly softly. I look up at him smiling. I can feel his mother’s eyes on me. She’s been eying me the whole night. She hasn’t said a word to me but she had her eyes on me the whole time. It was creepy in the beginning but I don’t care anymore. If she has something to say to me she should shout. I won’t let her intimidate me wi
“Mel, you look so pretty. Look at you.” Olive says when I walk into her grandfather’s house. It’s pouring outside and I had to run into the house while Knox parks the car. We’re at his grandfather’s town house. Knox says this is the house he uses when he wants to host extravagant parties. And of ‘course his birthday is one of them. “Thank you, you look beautiful as always.” I say giving her a hug. She giggles as I squeeze her closer, I’m so glad to see her here. I need all the support I can get if I’m to face her parents. “Thank you. I feel beautiful as always.” She says smiling at me. “Melody, how nice to see you.” Knox’s grandfather says walking to the entryway. “You know I barely recognized you. I can’t believe how much you kids have grown.” He says looking at me surprised. “And you look like you haven’t aged a day, happy birth day by the way.” I say smiling at him. We hug as he laughs at my comment on his age; or lack thereof. “You don’t have to lie to an old man. I know I’v
“Casey seems to be in love with you.” I say looking at Knox peeling a papaya. I shift forward in my stool so I can be closer to his plate. I’m sitting on the opposite side of the island, so it’s hard for me to get my hands on it. He’s been at this for the last five minutes; he’s taking his precious time to peel the whole thing. The moment he started peeling it my taste buds went crazy. The bright orange color is making me want to bite into it with the peels. “I think I’m in love with her too.” He says cutting the peeled pieces into even smaller pieces. I reach out taking a piece off of the plate he’s cutting them on. I don’t what know what happened but as soon I found out about the pregnancy I had a rush of an appetite. I want to eat everything I see. It’s like my body knows I need to eat for two. “Don’t tell her that or she’ll ask to move in with you.” I say throwing the piece into my mouth. I moan in appreciation at the taste. It’s so sweet. I reach out to take another piece and
10 minutes before “I’m confused. Why are you taking a pregnancy test?” Casey asks sitting the bath tub in my bathroom. I look at her with a look of concern on my face. I’m stressed out to the 100th degree. I can’t believe I’m here, with a pregnancy test. I’m sitting on my toilet, feeling all types of embarrassment. I survived all of my teenage years without taking a pregnancy test. I know it’s not a big deal but it’s embarrassing that I’m doing this as an adult. I’m so mad at myself for being careless with Knox. I didn’t even think about using protection with him. I didn’t even think about the possibility of getting pregnant. I just went in blind, I wasn’t thinking at all. This has to go down as the dumbest mistake I ever made. This wasn’t part of the plan, I wanted to take time and fall in love again, have fun, relearn each other. How are we supposed to do that with a baby? “Well I know why you’re taking the pregnancy test. I just mean what happened, when and most importantly wi
“Hi Mel.” Samantha says staring at me when I open the door. The smile on my face slowly fades; I go from excitement to shock. How did she get up to my apartment? Why wasn’t I told she was coming up? The front desk should have let me know when she arrived. I look at her on alert. I look into her eyes trying to figure out if she has any animosity. The second I saw her at y door, the word murder pops into my head. Why else would she be here? Surely she came to kill me for taking her love from her. I have so many questions right now. The one that’s nagging me the most is; how does she know where I live? I look behind her expecting to see Knox. He’s supposed to be here instead of her. Maybe they are playing a sick game on me. Knox wouldn’t tell her where I live; he believes Samantha would never bother us. So much for his promises. “How are you here?” I ask looking at her suspiciously. I don’t know what’s going on here, I feel ambushed. I hate when people show up unannounced at my door. T