Ah hell, she did love him. Loved him so much, but it was wrapped up in all of it, so that she couldn’t separate the pain of loss from those feelings, couldn’t heal enough to take him back. It was too late. She knew this shit; he was just stirring it all up again.That jagged ache was back in her throat, so she started to hum a lullaby. Theo made a contented noise in his dreams. Her chest tightened as she imagined such a contented noise coming from a baby, her baby. The lullaby had its own magical properties, taking her mind to the secret that meant more than anything. The only thing that could have meaning for her now.Hampson and Nathan were wrong if they thought she didn’t understand what she was doing. She knew the path she was taking was fraught with wrongness, but it was also right. Besides which, once a certain point was reached on a wrong road, there was no turning back. Darkness sure as hell didn’t offer exit ramps.She picked up her Dr Pepper. She’d infused it with a mega-pac
While the rest of the world saw longitude and latitude, magic users knew about another kind of map. Lines of power crisscrossed the earth, some fixed in predictable patterns, some constantly shifting due to unknown forces. Whether conscious or unconscious in intent, sacred sites were often built on the fixed lines, like ancient Stonehenge or a plain mountain chapel emanating tranquility. The fault lines weren’t merely feel-good spots, however, though it was certainly helpful that most humans thought of them that way, visiting them with starry eyes, New Age ideas and chakra stones.Fault lines provided the divine arteries that kept the earth flourishing, a spiritual flow as essential as the rivers and waterways that nourished physical life. Sorcerers like Nathan knew how to draw on them at the deepest levels, all magic users connected to them in certain ways. At specific points, the fault lines also contained portals to other realms. Even after centuries of awareness, ongoing studies b
It says you’ve joined the billion other species that instinctively know what most humans are too dumb to figure out. Running from a fight is the best way to survive. ”Rubby raised a brow. “You don’t look like the type who runs from a fight. ”Ella yawned. “I didn’t say I was any smarter than the average human. ”Rubby smiled at that. Leaning forward, she covered Ella’s hand, gave it a quick squeeze. “I’ll yammer at you half the night, so you just tell me when you need to go to bed. I know you’re done in. Per your instructions, I’ve set it up so the coven won’t come until tomorrow at dusk. You can sleep in, recover from your drive, and then I’ll help you with any setup you need for your teaching strategy. Today was my last day at work for the next couple weeks. I’ve taken my vacation time to dedicate myself fully to this, and the other women who could do so have done the same. The full coven will be here every night and on the weekends. ”Ella nodded. “Good. It sinks in better that wa
As she gazed out toward the water, she pulled the vitality from the circle to her like a long, dark cape, the kind the witch wore in Sleeping Beauty. The stepmothers had always gotten a bad rap in those films, women of strength and ambition who weren’t afraid to grasp power. The lingering energy shimmered, disturbed, and she knew it wasn’t from the fault. She draped herself in that cloak, pulled it closer to breathe it in, imagining mayhem and death. Asmodeus in bloody pieces, her raining fire over him, over all of it. A warrior Goddess of vengeance and death.A growl disrupted her concentration. She’d put Jerry to bed, knowing he was worn-out, but now, lowering her gaze, she saw Rubby Australian shepherds sitting on the other side of the circle, regarding her steadily. The way dogs watched intruders. Their earlier friendliness was replaced by wariness, hackles raised, the growl continuing to rumble in the female’s throat.With one sweep of her hand, she could turn them into nothing b
The fourth time, Christine was tired of getting zapped, and her resolve and focus firmed. Her shielding held for a handful of seconds before Ella got through. The praise she gave Christine, as well as the approbation of the group, bolstered the woman. She’d also been able to detect those shimmers around her own hands, not just Ella’s.Students gave a hundred extra miles for even the most minute success from their hard work. It spurred the teacher as well, such that Ella found herself grinning, genuinely proud of them.Several more times and Christine found the groove. She anchored the shield and held it for a solid minute until Ella let it go.“Yeah. ” Ella gave her a high five, which Christine returned with a pleased smile and a shaky hand. “Now, in a few moments, we’ll break out into pairs and let you all practice that. ”“But we don’t know how to do the zapping part,” Sally said.“Yes. That’s a more complicated skill, and one we’ll discuss after you get this down. Right now, you gu
Three years without him, without this. Oh, God and Goddess. As Nathan had pointed out, Jerry just gave her the shamefully needed release. Whereas even angry, hurried, in- the-outdoor-cold sex with Nathan was bliss, to feel that connection after so long. Clutching his shoulders harder, she made whimpering noises into his neck as he worked his hips, his buttocks flexing under her calves as she clamped her heels against his thighs. The climax shuddered through her lower belly, through her tight nipples and aching breasts, rubbing against his shirt. She inhaled him, aftershave, soap and Nathan’s own male scent, and wanted to be here in this moment forever.“Nathan….. ”“Go on over, baby,” he whispered into her ear. “I’m right behind you. I want to feel you clamp down on me. Fuck, you’re heaven. ”Girl was for when he teased or flirted, or sometimes in the heat of lust, like in the barn fantasy. Baby was when he thought her emotions were going to get the best of her, or when he himself was
But she’d done it. However, she couldn’t feel it. It really wasn’t a yee-haw, throw-your-fist-in- the-air kind of victory, anyway, right? The image of her face was a brand on her mind, but more than that she felt Nathan’s silence. His eternal absence. The hollow emptiness of it all. Thinking of her exultance when she’d gloried in the creature’s pain, she felt a little sick. A lot sick. She barely made it to the commode, and then she was coughing, retching it all up. Breakfast, lunch…. Actually, she hadn’t eaten lunch, so just breakfast and bile, dark, putrid bile that smelled a lot like the soul-eaters. She’d taken the Darkness into her, made it work for her, used it to drive them back. Kept Hampson …. Oh Goddess, Hampson. She straightened from the commode with a snap, reaching for a hand towel with shaking fingers. As she scrubbed it over her mouth, she made it to her feet. She needed to go see if Hampson was okay, if they needed help. When she stumbled to the bathroom door, she r
As if trying to get ahead of her winding movement, they were swirling around her faster now, like a tornado, hoping to twist and disorient her, upset the human top and watch it fall. The weight made her body shudder. She felt their desire to take her. She was a creature with Darkness within her, one they could use and overpower.She put the final twist in the braid, and then thrust out with both hands, a sharp, blunt movement. They squealed, recoiling as two braided whips of Light and Dark energy slashed through the smoke, finding its target. The Dark held them to her, didn’t allow them to get free, and the Light burned them like holy water on a vampire. She ripped the energy free, taking Underworld flesh with it, then went with a dual overhand strike like she was wielding two single tail whips. Slashing down, across, bisecting their energy, snapping her wrists so the tails didn’t come back to hit her in recoil.The smoke was burning off as they spent more energy fighting her than cre
He took her straight to the bed, laying her down and putting himself on top of her, holding her there with his far greater weight, size and strength.She thought about blasting him with electricity, but of course she might electrocute herself as well, and she’d just done her hair. She didn’t care to have it teased up like a hedge by static. She told herself that as he moved his mouth, went to work on her throat, turning her world fuzzy on the edges as he pulled open her shirt with an impressive, breath-stealing jerk. He took possession of her breasts, cupping their weight, thumbs sliding over the nipples under her thin bra as he went down under the waistband of the skirt she’d pulled on, found her mound and slid over it. The moment he sealed the heat of his palm over her clit, she nearly came off the bed, arching into him and grabbing his biceps. “Nathan. ”“Got your attention?” he asked.She was set to be mad at him for overwhelming her with testosterone, a way that proved nothing, b
“Then I guess you’ll be the one carrying me up those stairs. ”She must have said it aloud. She wet her lips, stared up at him. “Don’t do this. ”“It’s happening. Deal with it. You promised to marry me. You’re not going to get out of it so easily. ”“Yeah, well, I promised you coffee and doughnuts this morning. See how that turned out?” Her voice was fainter. His brow creased and the pressure of his hand on her chest increased.“Be still, baby. Just close your eyes and let it happen. ”He built the power in that circle so fast and strong, it was overwhelming. This was what he knew how to do, what came as easily to him as breathing. It didn’t matter that he was hurt, that he’d lost blood. Nothing disrupted his focus. She had to open her eyes to watch him, because as a magic user she couldn’t not watch him pull off one of the most awe-inspiring pieces of magic there was. She’d had to do it with complicated potions, chants, working with elemental energies and dipping into the Dark well o
Nathan. She gazed wildly into that opening, seeking him.“Ella, down. ”She dropped as the net of green flame passed over her. It snagged her flailing arm, snapping the net back like a rubber band. It wound around her biceps, growing outward to cover and pin her to that ledge, drag her over it.“Serrate,” she snarled, swallowing the pain as the spell’s detonation, so close to her, flashed over her skin. Hell, she hadn’t even put on her SPF 40 moisturizer this morning. For some crazy reason, the macabre image of a makeup party she’d attended with Ramona years before flashed in her head. The perfectly made-up hostess explaining, Every night you don’t take off your makeup before bed ages your skin three days.Wonder what she recommends for a thousand degrees centigrade at a ten-foot distance?The green net parted as if sliced down the middle. Scrambling free, she leaped to another ledge of rock, an incisor over that gaping hole. She spun in time to see Nathan engage Asmodeus again. He wa
He wasn’t waiting for her to change her mind. Whether or not he was half-asleep, Nathan knew his way around her body. He’d already shoved the covers impatiently down to his thighs, using those long, strong arms to lift her into a straddle. She could only hang on as he found his way under her skirt. She’d pulled on a silky pair of panties, but he simply caught his forefinger in the crotch panel, moved it aside, and pushed that thick hardness inside her. She was sore from last night, and he knew just how gentle and rough to be, inexorable in his demand, but tender in his care of her.“I love you,” she whispered, realizing how many aspects of their relationship had experienced that special, magical combination.His eyes opened then, the blue color full of emotion and that morning languidness that was a pleasure all its own. Bringing her down for another kiss, he constricted his other arm around her waist so she was full hilt on him. He allowed her very little movement, instead working hi
“And yours. ” He squeezed her.“I think she would have been remarkable. ”“She is remarkable. A soul can’t be killed, Ella. The energy just goes elsewhere when the mortal form can no longer contain it. ”“But I want her here. ”“I know. ” Crossing his arms over her chest, he held her close as she wept. She was grieving, letting go. Leaning on his strength to do it. Pressing his face into her hair, he shared that sorrow with her. “Do you think she would have been a princess, wanting bows in her hair and her room all in pink?”“Probably. Since pink always makes me think of Pepto Bismol. ”As a teenager, Ella had been a tomboy, his shy girl with alert eyes, always wearing jeans and T-shirts on her slim, boyish form.“Nope. ” Ella changed her mind. “I’m thinking cowgirl. She’d love horses, and I’d have to fuss at her to take off her boots before coming in the house. We’d live somewhere with lots of land so she could have her horse. She’d probably want to rescue horses, and before we knew
She’d forgotten so much of that in the intervening months, but, watching his reaction, it came back in full flood. It surged up in her even more strongly when he finally spoke, his husky tone taking her breath.“What’s her name?”“I wanted to call her Wolfi. Because she was perfect, just like a rose. ”He swallowed, his voice thickening. “Ruby and Wolfi. My girls. ”She was crying now, too, silent tears coursing down her cheeks as one meager but powerful teardrop made its way down his. Lifting her fingers, she took it away, a treasure so full of power that it was as much magic as what she’d spun in here. When he looked down at her, something shifted inside her. Something painful, like a boulder rolling off a vital organ, letting it function for the first time in a long while, difficult and rusty though she might be at using the squashed thing. She couldn’t deny the Dark part of her was still on maximum-security lockdown, but for this she couldn’t keep the regret and pain out of her vo
She shook her head, lancing his heart, which was already feeling like a pincushion for a legion of spear-wielding gladiators. “No. I won’t let her go, Nathan. I won’t. ”He had to swallow down more arguments like jagged glass, because she broke into those painful sobs again. Her tense body sparked with energy, ready to fight to the death in a battle she knew she’d lose, because she thought she had nothing but the fight left to her.Damn it. He pulled her back into him, struggled with her, then firmly mashed her against his chest until she went limp, cried there. Suppressing a sigh, he stroked her hair, kept stroking until she hiccupped a few times, settled down.The plain truth of it was she was brilliant. And young, so very young. Ella was a twenty-six-year-old woman who’d been treated like worthless chattel by her insidious mother all her life. All that intelligence and baggage rolled together, the trauma of losing a child all by herself…. He knew she had strength— Lord and Lady, in
Taking her hands, he guided her over to the bed. Laid her down on it and himself behind her. He opened his robe, draped it over her and pulled her into the warmth of his naked body. He crooked his knees up behind her. As he did, his still-firm cock nudged her buttocks. Following instinct, he gripped her thigh, a mute command. With a tiny sigh, she let her thighs loosen and he slid back into her, lodging himself deep, holding her there on him while she quaked at the intimacy of that connection, what it symbolized.“I’m here,” he said softly. “I’m a part of you. Tell me, Ella. Close your eyes and tell me. Tell both of us. ”It took a long time, and he had to ask a couple more times, but he made sure he did it gently, a quiet sound in the dark room, like a request from her own mind.“Eight months,” she whispered at last. He had his arm under her head, and her hand crept into his palm, her fingers tangling with his own. “She was eight months old. I could feel her, moving inside of me. Som
“Blessed be Thy heart, which never fails, even in utter Darkness. ” She was standing now, her lips pressed to his chest. When she tilted her head up for the final kiss, he bent to her, because of the difference in their heights.“Blessed be Thy mouth, which gives comfort and strength in its Truths. ”A brief, gentle touch. Then Ella stepped back, her gaze focused and intent on his. As two coven members came forward again, she lifted her arms straight out to her sides. They used them to lower her to her back on the altar table.Rubby had removed the blue cloth and now she laid it on Ella , the translucent fabric settling over her with the weight of a feather. Ella stretched out her arms and legs, forming the Pentacle symbol as Nathan knelt between her legs once again. Rubby blessed the athame and Christine the chalice. Christine gave Ella the chalice, and Nathan leaned over her, placing the blade in the cup.“As the Lord and Lady are joined, so, too, are this cup and athame, representi