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The creature inside me Unexpected guest
“Hey, Vanessa.” Irvin greeted the lady and then Zadkiel understood who she was. She was the one Irvin was going to marry.“Hey, Alpha.” She gave a short smile but that smile held sadness and Zadkiel could feel it.She placed the tray on the table and Zadkiel realized he was sitting on the table when he had to turn his head full 180 degrees to see her. He hopped down and turned around, flushed cheeks.“This is Zadkiel. My mate.” Irvin introduced Zadkiel to her. She gave him a glance and smiled. “You must have thanked the Goddess that you didn’t marry me because look at him.” She said, completely in awe of his looks.Irvin chuckled and turned to Zadkiel “Zadkiel, this is the one I was-” Zadkiel cut him off. “I know.”“You’re very pretty yourself.” Zadkiel gave her the deserved compliment.“Can’t argue on that one.” She chuckled.“Is this some kind of running joke in you omegas to be full of yourselves?” Irvin scowled at them but his lips were still curled upwards.“Dude, we omeg
Last Updated : 2022-07-28The creature inside me First crack
Zadkiel headed straight home after this. His legs were thinking with their own brain because the one in his skull didn’t even know what was happening, the one in his skull was numb to everything. He wasn’t crying. He wasn’t feeling any kind of emotion. He was just numb.He was sitting on the bed, gripping the sheets as his mind was playing the same picture on a slideshow in his brain. He didn’t want to see her face but that’s all he could see.“Zadkiel…” He heard Irvin’s voice as he entered the room but he didn’t look up because somehow the floor was more fascinating than any reality he was in.“Zadkiel, I’m talking to you, baby.” Irvin stood before him. He lifted his gaze from the floor and stared at his mate’s face.“Yeah?”Irvin gave him a soft smile and sat beside him. He caressed the balled fist of Zadkiel that was gripping the sheets, tightly. Zadkiel released the sheets and sighed, shaking his head.“I’m sorry.” He murmured.“Why are you sorry?” Irvin questioned, placing
Last Updated : 2022-07-28The creature inside me Another vision
“Get out of my room!” Irvin spat, glaring at him.It took a moment for Zadkiel to understand what Irvin said because he was so hurt by the tone Irvin used and the glare he was sending his way as if he couldn’t hate him enough.Finally, a drop of all the love that was bubbling up for Irvin inside Zadkiel, escaped the corner of his eyes and his throat clogged to even voice his protest. Maybe, his body knew that Irvin wasn’t what he thought of him to be. Even the wolf inside him didn’t put up a protest. She was just wailing in sorrow.“Didn’t you hear me? Get the fuck out of my room!” Irvin bellowed and it was enough to make Zadkiel flinch out of the trance as he hurriedly shuffled off the bed. He grabbed his shoes to wear but Irvin didn’t have enough patience for it.“Zadkiel, get out!” This time the growl Irvin let out, made Zadkiel whimper and he obliged as he grabbed his shoes in his hands and ran out of the room, shutting the door behind him.He was so confused and emotional th
Last Updated : 2022-07-28The creature inside me A cursed baby
Two days and Irvin still hadn’t talked to Zadkiel about what happened to him suddenly that he snapped at him for no reason. Zadkiel also didn’t bother to show his face to Irvin. He was hiding in his den which was Nora’s room. He could’ve easily shared his room with Abel but Nora’s motherly nature always made him restrain himself from hurting her feelings.He still hadn’t told Abel the real reason he and Irvin weren’t talking. Not that Abel questioned because he didn’t want to pry in Zadkiel’s privacy but just so he wouldn’t worry about him, Zadkiel told him that they both had a heated argument over Zadkiel’s treatment.“Zadkiel.” A knock on the door pulled him out of his thoughts. It was Abel’s voice and Zadkiel had called him for discussing his visions. At this moment, he had no one other than Abel to trust. He had made some assumptions and he just wanted some confirmation for it. He wanted some assurance that he hadn’t gone completely mad.“Come in.” He responded and like a gust
Last Updated : 2022-07-31The creature inside me Confirmation
Since the day, he started suspecting that he could be that baby, he couldn’t digest the food given by the same people who were responsible for the massacre of hundreds. He didn’t even want to live with them but he had nowhere else to go.Zadkiel went to Nora’s room that he had been using for the last two days and sat on the bed. He didn’t want to use her room now. He held Nora equally accountable for what Edmond had done because they all were hiding the crime.He collected all of his stuff from the room and put it in a duffle. He had made up his mind to move out of the room. He didn’t know where he’d go but he wouldn’t stay in Nora’s room anymore.When he was done, he was waiting for Nora to show up at the door to ask if he needs anything before going to her own bed, like she did every night. To Zadkiel, all this care and love was fake now because if it wasn’t, she would’ve told him about his identity when he was crying in her arms about it.It was almost 11 in the night when Nora
Last Updated : 2022-07-31The creature inside me Irvin's reaction
Judging by Irvin’s expression after Zadkiel talked about getting treatment through magic, he seemed happy. He was thinking if Irvin was faking that too? If Irvin was angry on the inside? Only if he had control over his powers, he could read his mind but for now, he had to believe that Irvin was happy for him even if it sounded plain craziness when he knew Irvin wanted him dead.“Are you sure?” Irvin had a smile on his face as he was asking for Zadkiel’s confirmation but Zadkiel was in a mind battle. He wanted to ask Irvin if he really was happy or was he just pretending to be.“Yeah.” Zadkiel gave a small smile and a nod.“I didn’t throw away the subject. I knew one day you’ll come along. I talked to a witch, she is ready to help.” Irvin walked back to him, placed his clothes on the bed before grabbing Zadkiel’s hands in his.“Thank you so much. Not that I would’ve let you die but I was scared that you wouldn’t even let me try to save you now.” Irvin spoke, staring at Zadkiel’s ey
Last Updated : 2022-07-31The creature inside me Who is U. C?
Zadkiel went to the headquarters thinking maybe he’d get more visions there. He was walking around the corridors and the rooms, touching different things, trying his best to get a vision, anything.When he failed everywhere, he walked inside Irvin’s office. The first thing that caught his attention like always, was Irvin’s shield wall. This time he took his time to read what every shield was for. The most surprising one was archery because he had never seen Irvin with a bow and arrow.He trod to the chair, brushing his finger along with the handle of the chair and moving in a circle around it. His mind was focusing on the past. He wanted the chair to reveal everything to him.When he was at the back of the chair, his finger brushed along something metallic. He stopped and looked at the small piece of metal which had something carved on it.A gift to U.C – The Onyx Tails Pack by The Spirit Walker PackHe read the tag again and again but he couldn’t understand what it meant. He shr
Last Updated : 2022-07-31The creature inside me Learning control
As soon as Irvin and Edmond were off to work and Nora went somewhere she was heading almost daily, Abel led Zadkiel out of the woods. He guided him to the place which he vaguely remembered the direction to but he didn’t tell Zadkiel about it.Finally, when he saw the big oak tree, he exhaled a breath of relief because they weren’t far from the cave now. They walked only 3 minutes from there before a small cave made of big rocks that looked like some animal’s home came into sight.Once in the cave, Zadkiel removed his backpack and took out a bottle of water. Abel did the same because it was one hell of a walk to here. They both took time to catch their breath before setting their backpacks aside.“Now what?” Zadkiel glanced at Abel.“I think the most important power is mind control. You need to know when and how to do it so that the other person doesn’t suspect you. People don’t like when someone plays with their mind so, be careful.” Abel warned.“Yeah, tell me about it,” Zadkiel
Last Updated : 2022-07-31
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The creature inside me Epilogue II
He walked through the familiar path and stopped by his father’s for a while just to listen to him talk about his mother ever so lovingly and he couldn’t feel better about it. He was glad to hear that his parents found their way back to each other. It took them years to do so but it was all worth the eternity they were going to spend together.After his father’s he headed to check on Abel who still hadn’t remembered him but they had reformed a new friendship here.“Hey, angel.” Abel greeted him with a smile on his face.“Can you not call me an angel?” He sighed, shaking his head but a smile was present on his face.“Seriously, you have wings and a face like an angel. What do you want me to call you?” He questioned, arching his eyebrow.When Zadkiel found out that Abel ended up in heaven, it wasn’t a surprise for him. He knew the man for his whole life and he knew there was not one day where he meant any harm for another person except for those who hurt Zadkiel.“Okay, whatever bu
The creature inside me Epilogue I
He gazed at the beautiful waterfall as he thought about the last sixty-eight years of his life. Every moment he spent with his friends and family. He couldn't be more grateful than he already was for the life he lived. He enjoyed every moment of it. Yes, there were ups and downs. Yes, he lost some people in the way but that was part of the journey. He still wouldn't exchange it for anything else, except for the part where his mate died in his arms. Whenever he thought of it, he wished he had died with him too.He tried to stay with his family. He tried to be there for them but it didn’t matter. He couldn’t do it. Now, he knew what heartbreak his mother had gone through.Maybe, it wasn’t that difficult if his best friend hadn’t died the same week. He had lost everyone. Not his kids, but that wasn’t enough. The people who were there all through his life. To whom he could share anything. They were gone. He could talk to his kids but having a whole generation gap wasn’t helping in the c
The creature inside me The last goodbye
He knew he could heal him. He just had to hold his hand and think about it but he was strictly told not to. Because Irvin's body was too weak to stay functional now so every time he healed him from something that he feared would end up in his death, he healed him, making the next time more difficult for Irvin.Two sons came rushing through the door. Felix immediately took Aphia out of the room while Anwyll called the doctor.Irvin suddenly stopped gasping and shaking as he lay still. Zadkiel instantly check if his heart was still beating and it was but barely. His skin was cold and his body was stiff. All family members were now gathered in the room to check up on Irvin. Everyone just sat there staring at him while trying to hold back their sobs because they knew it was the time.The doctor checked up on Irvin and told them that she have given him every medicine needed and hoped he'd get better but she also warned that they might just say their last goodbyes to him because Irvin'
The creature inside me Slipping through the fingers
"Irvin..." He sobbed, holding his hand and pulling his sleeping body over him with his other hand. He dipped down his head and placed a kiss on the top of his hair, lingering his lips there.Irvin fluttered his eyes open, very slowly. He was confused for a moment before he looked up at his sobbing mate."Why are you crying, Zadkiel?" He asked pulling away from him and sitting up, though it took a real effort from him to do so."What were you doing on the west of the border?" He wanted to ask but he knew the answer would be too painful for his mate to remember and way more painful for him to hear."I just love you so much. That's why." Zadkiel answered giving him a smile and wiping off his tears."Well, thank you." He replied, resting his back against the headboard because his back was hurting. Zadkiel put a pillow behind him to make it as comfortable and soft as he could."Look! A butterfly." Irvin lifted his hand that was shaking uncontrollably to the window behind him.Zadkie
The creature inside me Fast forward
"Dad, what are you doing here?" A black-haired man, with hazel green eyes, maturity dripping from his face, asked a white head man, wrinkly face and confused expressions."I'm sorry. I lost my way." The white head man with emerald eyes replied with a tremor in his voice which was the gift of old age."This doesn't even the way to home. Where were you going, by the way?" He asked the old man, approaching him and helping him sit on the bench.The old man took almost five minutes to think with a confused face before answering "I don't know." He said looking up but then his confusion intensified as he stared at the face of the black-haired guy. "I'm sorry but who might be you, gentleman?" He asked politely unknown of the fact that whenever he said something like that, it hurt the other man so much. "Let's get you home." He spoke, standing up and helping the white-haired old man, keeping his touch and hold very gentle."Where is home?" The old man questioned but nonetheless followe
The creature inside me The driving lesson
“This is the most difficult thing to do in the world,” Zadkiel screamed while trying to drive the car smoothly while Irvin sat beside him.Irvin finally decided to give Zadkiel those driving lessons he promised and that too in his favourite car that he rarely drove. But now it seemed like it wouldn’t be left in the condition to drive after these lessons.“No, you’re just panicking too much.” Irvin sighed.“I’m not. Get this thing to stop!” He whined. He was so done with these lessons. It was way too much for him to process. Even his angelic powers weren’t helping in this.Irvin face palmed himself, shaking his head before speaking. He couldn’t believe that Zadkiel was having a panic attack while driving Tesla which required low to none skills. For a person who had no idea how to drive, it was really very easy but Zadkiel made it seem like it was as hard as walking on water. Yeah right, he was making it seem like it was impossible. God forbid if it was any other model. He would’ve
The creature inside me Abel's flower buds
Zadkiel sprinted down the stairs with a 3 months old in his arms while Irvin was just behind him with another 3 months old held in his arms. They both rushed to Anne’s room and barged in without knocking because it was an emergency.“Mom, can you take care of the babies. Abel is in labor.” Irvin spoke and he wasn’t even asking because he knew the answer already so, he just laid down his son on the bed and Zadkiel followed him.“Oh... Don’t worry about them. Just go.” Nora answered, sitting beside the babies.“I’ve fed Felix but Anwyll was asleep so when he wakes up, please feed him. I’ve made his formula. It’s in the yellow one. Felix’s is Blue and Anwyll has yellow. Don’t mix up please. Yeah and please, make sure Anwyll burps. I don’t know what’s the matter with him but he seems to like the idea of vomiting out everything on me but is too stubborn to burp.” Zadkiel said, adjusting the blanket around his babies and then leaning down and kissing. He was about to turn around but reme
The creature inside me Two rays of sunshine
“Zadkiel, what’s wrong?” He asked his mate who looked pale as if someone had just drained the blood out of his system. His eyes were closed and he looked like he was about to puke.“Zad-” Irvin cut himself off when he felt something wet seeping down his pants. His eyes flicked down to where their crotches were meeting and a gasp left his mouth when he saw that Zadkiel’s pants were also soaking.“Zadkiel…” He instantly sat up and lifted his chin to have a better look at him. “Baby, what’s going on?” He asked but Zadkiel gave no reply.His eyes remained shut and his breaths were laboured. Irvin pulled him against his chest not knowing what Zadkiel was going through. He had no idea why would Zadkiel just piss himself.“Irvin…” Zadkiel whispered taking a few moments to himself.“I don’t feel good. Help me.” He said in a shaky voice as his eyes flicked up at his mate, glistening with tears.“Hey, it’s all right I got you. Let’s change and then we can go to the hospital.” Irvin assure
The creature inside me The strange pain
The next two months went as smoothly as they could have because everything was settled. Zadkiel spent a hell lot of his time at Abel’s, took him to the doctor’s and way back home because Sean was easily getting on his nerves. He always blamed Sean for not telling him that this would happen to him because he hated being pregnant but he also loved that he was going to be a father soon. Though it wasn’t enough for him to see Sean’s face.Sean knew it was just his mood swings and hormones because, at the end of the night, Abel couldn’t go to sleep until it was Sean holding him from the back and assuring him that he’d be fine and how happy it made him that Abel was carrying his baby.Zadkiel, when he was not with Abel, spent his time with Ayaan and his kids. He loved his cousins so very much. He even loved babysitting them. Irvin was more than happy to spend some time with the kids when he was home.In the night, when Irvin came back home, Zadkiel made sure to give his time and attentio
