**TRACY SCOTT'S POV**The anger overpowered my sense of reasoning. It made me ignore the voice at the back of my head, Antony's voice. Although extremely potent, I shrugged it off nonetheless. Furthermore, I lost all form of reasoning. The screams from Tim zoned out, I just kept moving.I walked farther and farther until they all dissolved into nothing.After walking for a while, I paused and choked on a sob. My emotions had risen up, the main reason why I wanted to go far away. I vowed not to shed an ounce of tears but it was getting much harder to keep that promise, even to myself. Shawn didn't deserve this. He didn't deserve my tears.A huge part of me felt shattered, dead and tired but on the other hand I was also glad I told him, assuring myself a sense of relief. I might've made a lot of mistakes in life but I will be no one's fuck buddy no matter what. I wouldn't be reduced to the level of a mediocre call-girl. Never.The tears were brimming at my eyes and my feets were gettin
**TRACY SCOTT'S POV**Physically and emotionally, I was drained. Hence, I made no effort to try and hasten my pace to get home quickly. There was no need for such. My dad would only be waiting to question my poor choicesyesterday and the moment I sighted Tim, I would wreak havoc, the man would end up jobless at the very end.Having Antony by my side provided some sort of comfort but after the conversation we had moments ago, he completely shut me out. It was not like I wanted to discuss what happened with him, he might just laugh it up in my face, or give an excuse that the kiss was meant to get my attention, that would be a lame one but still very probable. It would've been nice to talk to him. I missed our discussions, no matter how small and meaningless they seemed at that point.We were approaching my house fast and still not a word from him.“Did I say something wrong?”I queried about breaking the hard ice. He took a glance at me before shaking his head in negation."No. You di
**TRACY SCOTT'S POV**In a state of confusion, shock and definitely fright, I did the most childish and stupid thing ever. I ignored the voices of everyone, most of them were yelling and screaming, still in shock as I was. I didn't mind them, I took to my heels and ran upstairs straight into my room and hid under the covers. It was stupid, really weird, and definitely childish, but I sincerely had no other choice. I was shaken to my bones. I took the threat so lightly, as any other one over the years. My bodyguards have been killed before but not like this, not in this way. Beheading someone felt like a triple death. Who knows how they did it? Was he alive? Did they cut it off as he screamed? Did he die slowly and painless or did he yell for his mother as they ended his life?Shivers ran through my spine. I saw him less than two hours ago. Moments ago, I saw his head inside a carefully wrapped box. It resembled the work of a psychopath, that was certain. An unpredictable one. He or sh
**ANTONY SANTOS**~Hours Earlier~The moment she disappeared inside, her words echoed in my ears. The longer I conceal the truth from her, the higher I ruin the likelihoods of ever having anything with her. Granted she said it wouldn't make a difference. But what if it did? If I opened up about the truth, would there be redemption for me?She illustrated that in such a situation, there was no possibility, it meant that if I wanted to keep her close I needed to keep lying, yet everything we laid eyes on one another, and we were bound to do so sooner or later, I only felt culpable. I couldn't agree on what to do. On one hand, I could maintain this life, hiding the truth and striving for the best. On the other, I could throw caution in the wind and tell her the plain truth, damning all outcomes?The first idea had been working out so far, except my conscience pricked me now and then. I nearly blurted it out earlier today. I'd never seen her so sensitive and ordinary, Shawn hurt her up to
**TRACY SCOTT'S POV**"Antony," I coughed, my throat got dried. I must have been crying for quite a while now. He breathed without saying a word. Shortly afterwards, his hands rose up to meet my back. He drew different symbols, tracing lines from the base of my back to the apex and back. I shuddered and let out a sharp breath. I choked on a final sob and relaxed my body into his properly."Stop crying." Those words were meant to sound commanding but with his tone, he was clearly pleading with me. I nodded my head still on his shoulders. He tried to shift my head from his chest maybe in a bit to catch a glimpse of my tear stained face. I recoiled in agony and forced myself back into his chest."Not yet." I begged hoping to receive a little more comfort. I didn't lift my head to check his response but he didn't try to do anything so I assumed he must have heard my pleas."Let's go inside." He suggested, I obliged and wrapped both arms around his torso, locking our position. I just needed
**ANTONY SANTOS**My rage knew no bounds. My body reacted dangerously to her emotions. The more she felt bad or let my test slip, the more I clenched and tightened my teeth and fist. Providing comfort only assured suppressed fear, the threat was still out there. The only way to conclude everything was to get rid of it. They crossed the line by murdering Tim, no more peace, no more battles, they declared war, we had to do the same."I need to go." I blurted out, she froze and ran a hand through her face, cleaning the dried up tears, so she could see me clearly."You said you would stay." She whimpered, her lips were quivering in fright. I tore away from her gaze and got up."Yes, I know that. If I stay, I'd just become useless. I need to go out there and do something, end all this.”"No!" She screamed and latched her hands onto mine. Her nails were practically digging into my skin. It started hurting after a few seconds."Tracy," I called out, struggling to break free."No," She cried,
**TRACY SCOTT'S POV**He left. I was the only soul in the room, just me. Antony walked through the door and broke his promise to me. It didn't matter how I felt, he just walked away. I can't comprehend why he would do something like that to me, I can't understand. I don't want to. How!"Fuck!" I screamed, picked a pillow and threw it far away from me. I had no specific target, it was just a way to let out my built-up aggression. Strangely, I don't know why I was angry, or who I was mad at. I just wanted to smash, hit, or break something. Anything."You left me," My messed up hair fell back to my face, I ignored the uneasy feeling it caused and buried my palm in my face, my entire body shook with tears. I laid still and let them all out. Once more, I was all alone."Baby,” My father's voice boomed from the hallway. Moments later, he nearly took the door down, bursting into my room. His eyes searched frantically until they landed on my body. It seemed to calm his nerves or the panic att
**TRACY SCOTT'S POV**The singular good thing I felt would come out of me moving was a little peace and time to gather my thoughts, clear my head, and refresh my mind. The crazy would die down a little."Apologies Miss Scott , extra precautions." The driver uttered beside me. I wriggled my eyes in turmoil, what did he mean by that? My question was answered when another figure covered my face with a sack, rendering me blind."What are you doing?" I wriggled in my body in the seat as they tried to steal me."You're safe Miss, it's just a precaution. We'll get there in no time." One of them whispered into my ear, I paused my haggard breathing. After a few seconds, it returned to normal and they let me go."Let's move out." I heard his fingers snap, the car door opened and I breathed out. Everywhere was dark, I couldn't see shit because of the sack. I could breathe but it was harder than usual."We'll get there soon." I reminded myself of his words, folded my arms and placed them on my la
**TRACY SCOTT**. "Where do you want to go?"Jimmy asked, dirverting into the main road.It's a miracle we've even gotten this far without any reporters trying to bash into the car or take pictures. Maybe they don't have vans?I'm almost sure Father would have gotten the news by nowThey've flock around the office begging for a comment or the house.I expected it. In fact I want it.The more influence I have, the more people get to hear the truth.Father can't oppose this even. That man killed his wife. He took me for days and now they're going to just let him go.Well I'll be dammed.Just like clockwork, my cell began ringing.Lucky guess it's Ethan. He's calling to rant aboutIt'll be rude not to answer, plus I'm not ashamed of what I've done I'll repeat it if necessary."What is it?"I snapped. From the corner, Jimmy's brows shot up."I just wanted to say congratulations. I'm happy you're going to do something that n
**TRACY SCOTT**. Murmurs. Bickering. Incessant sounds that's currently irking. Echoing in my ear and makes me want to scream. Maybe they'll shut up.More reporters are gathering since I've gotten what I wanted. For this to air live. For the entire world to hear me.For the whole world to see and understand my plague. To know why I went through and decide for themselves if what's going to happen is the right thing. It's not. They know it. It's why they'll stand up and stop it. I hope."Everyone is eager to understand what I'm about to say. I'll tell you and since this is live, there won't be any miscommunication."My eyes went above their heads as the teachers would advise us while we gave our speeches. I wished I hadn't done that though.For the side entrance, I noticed Antony burst out with Ethan behind him.Perfect. I had all the media attention, they weren't affected by two men.I turned away. Antony's eyes move
TRACY SCOTT**. Jimmy loves me. I should not be considering that with everything that's happening and all that's at stake, but in some weird way I can't help the tingles all around me with the realization that Jimmy loves me.He's actually in love with me. I know that because what we about to do is similar to jumping off a cliff with no safety on, he's willing to do that.I think he is. Maybe he'll just walk me up to it, tell me what to do then leave me hanging.He'll remain neutral in the dealings and I'll face the music myself.I would not blame him. It's typically the smart thing to do.Ethan. Antony. They should all stay away from me. The best thing to do is taking it all head on.In fact involving anyone else will just make matters worse.I'm the center piece of everything.It started with me. It should end with me."Are you reconsidering it? I won't lie to you, it'spolitical suicide, that what we would call it
**TRACY SCOTT**. "How about here, it says foreign nationals who have committed a crime...""We can't use that, they'll argue that he didn't actual commit the crime.""That would make no sense?"I cringed my nose in utter confusion."In theory, it would not but if they did that, they'll make a center piece of the American justice system, they'll bring it out on the open for anyone interested to ask as many questions as they'd like and trust me, there are some many people interested in the system.""Ugh."I fell on the chair, tossing the books aside."Maybe we take a five minutes break..."He was interrupted by my cell phone."I'm sorry, I should get this."I slipped my hand into my pocket silently praying it wasn't my father or Antony, in that case I won't have to get anything.It wasn't. Ethan was calling. From the burner. How nice."Yes?"I answered. No filter needed. I didn't want to talk to any of them from that p
153**TRACY SCOTT**. "Tracy wait! I'm confused because it's as though both of you just shut me out in an instant. What is going on here? One minute I think maybe in actually part of the team or whatever shit and the next you're gone with him, you disappear for almost half an hour. What happened?"I held my purse, twirling in the free space outside."Get rid of the substance in your car, we do not want anyone getting a whiff of what that thing might be. It won't do anyone good."I instructed instead of answering the question."Tracy. you're just avoiding the question and I thought you would not be mad for telling Antony.""I'm not mad. Come on, do I seem mad? If I dol apologise for giving you the wrong impression, I am not."I giggled, palming my lips to stiffen it when it got too weird."I'm sorry we didn't take you in with us. I only got ten minutes and somehow you were lost in between, it wasn't my intention."His
152**TRACY SCOTT**. You're weak. You're fragile. That's what they think. That's what they'll never say to your face, but it's the reason they pet you in believing things which aren't actually true.They're all liars. They've been lying to you for the longest time. That is the truth. You can't trust any of them.Those are Antonov's words from earlier today replaying in my head like a broken record.When he dropped the last bombshell, the concluding piece of the puzzle in my head, the little secret Antony was keeping, I grew numb while seating on that chair.I kept my hands folded, staring into space.My head was faced forward, probably making eye contact of some sort with him, but I was not there physically.My mind had wandered off, making up the scenes in my head.How it happened. Who she was. Why he did it.I created an answer for each of those questions after which more would just pop up. That's howmy mind work
**TRACY SCOTT**. I need a grip. A tight grip and maybe a lid. A grip on these whirling emotions inside me, like a storm and I'm in the fucking eye.An hour ago I was prepared, willing, and heaven knows I was ready to commit first-degree murder and not even blink.That's how mad I was. Was it anger? Or hurt? Or thirst for vergence? That would be fueled by either the former or latter before it?I'm not sure what it is, but it's there.I can feel it inside of it, it's burning and it keeps increasing with each passing minute.I would have killed that man, I would have done so without so much as blinking.That's how vicious I have become.Ethan was the only anchor left, if it wasn't for him I would have finished Antonov off.For now, I just need to stay in the same room with him.I need to look him in the eye and figure out why he ruined my life.Why did he kill my mother?Why did he start this goose chase for me decades
**ANTONY SANTOS**. "Why are you looking at me like that?"She asked after moments of silence reigned between us, neither bothering to utter a word. There weren't much seating positions in the gun range, so we merely relaxed our back over the wall, giving the other breathing space.Something I hadn't realised I needed, but I did."Like what?"I moved my shoulders, carefully flipping my front hair backwards and moving my eyes away which were raking her body with suspicion."Like I'm damaged goods. You're looking at me as though I'm damaged goods. It's what's going around and I can't seem to wrap my head around the look. It's getting annoying. Stop looking at me like that "She snapped, standing straight."I'm not looking at you like you're damaged goods. I would never think that, that's just being insensitive and anyone who is doing such hasn't the slightest clue of what you've been through nor has the right to judge
**ETHAN RAMIREZ**I searched the room with my eyes, it had cleared out leaving just us three. Antony and I standing metres away from one of the ranges, Tracy standing by the door with a smug look on her face that shows she's not exactly happy with either of us.What comes next is her feeling all too betrayed by both of us, but I'm sure Antony can handle it.I hope. I hope I didn't underestimate her angry she is at him, angry enough not to listen to a word he had to say, she has only made eye contact with him once since she walked in here and even then, she tore her gaze away quickly."I asked a question but it would seem no one is willing to give a weird answer. Since when did both of you become besties because that's what this seems. A get together for besties."She squirmed her shoulders, her tone dripping with sarcasm and mockery."Tracy..."She crossed her hand quickly, leaving one outside to place ahead of me and halt whatevermovement I had planned"I asked a question, Ethan. I