4pmI was escorted to the living room, to meet Dr. Nancy, as I had agreed. I enter the room and there she is sitting, waiting for me. She wore a black pantaloon”style jumpsuit. She gestures for me to sit down.“ Navid, how was today?“Normal…“ According to your record, you frequently experience hallucinations...I didn't respond and looked around, observing the details of the office.“What do you see? “ He asked me.“ An elderly woman in the dark, I see my son who sometimes whispers in my ear…” I took a deep breath and turned my head. “I see Mr Jones my friend. “ He said. I invented the first ones that popped into my head, I had to say something.“ Do you have children?“ I already had… “ I lied. I never had children, Sasha and I have tried several times but without success. I had to invent some story and pretend to be insane, even though I was aware of what I was doing even without taking the pills that psychiatrist Felipe had given me. It could not arouse suspicion.“ I am really
Navid/MarlonI open my eyes and see myself in a room, I try to move but I'm stuck. I am tied from head to toe, my face had a mask that covered my mouth. I try to speak but to no avail. I see people in masks and lab coats, one of them approaches me.“ You shouldn't have done it Navid!I shake my head and try to speak, but the mask on my face doesn't allow it. I try hard but to no avail. Another one approaches me with two metallic objects, I couldn't believe this would happen to me. I get an electric shock. I feel the metals in me, making my body shake, seeing stars, clouds and everything else that was possible. I had never been shocked, but today I felt the pain of it. I was irrational, without the strength to move, this process repeated itself and I felt rays of darkness invading my body. I tried to scream but the mask suffocated me, I thought I was going to die.“ Enough! “ I hear a female voice speaking, I can't see because I'm completely out of balance. “ They could ask my name and
8pm“ Sasha, agree to marry me! “ I say kneeling, in the middle of the sea. There were two of us in white, in front of the beach. She wore a long lace dress, her hair flew in the wind. She knelt in front of me and held my face.“ A thousand times yes!He responded by kissing, holding my hand and putting the ring on my finger and kissing my hand, a tear fell from his face. With my left hand, I smoothed his hair behind his ear.“ How can you want to marry me, Marlon? I…“ Shiu... It doesn't matter, you're the most beautiful woman I've ever met! Affectionate, sweet, companion... everything I ever wanted.” I know a kiss on your face. “ And between us, I'm crazy tooWe both laughed, I made her blush, her cheeks turned red and her smile became radiant, her Japanese eyes became even more refined.“ I have to admit that you are crazy, because only a crazy person would marry a woman like me…We got up together, me holding her waist and her with her hands resting on my arm.“ I love you…” He wh
8 a.m tomorrowThe nurse hands me pills to take. Put it in my mouth and drink water. She tells me to open my mouth to see if I really took them, I do as she says and when I leave the room I take them out of my mouth, throw them on the floor and crush them with my foot, leaving them unnoticed on the floor. There was no way I was going to take that. I still wondered about the voices I heard last night, were they my hallucinations, due to the shock I received or were they really someone's voices. I hit my head with my hand, always trying to keep my wits about me.“ Navid, let's go for a walk. “ The nurse approaches, very kind.“ Where are we going?She approached me and held my hand.“ Come on, let's go to the activity room! You can't stay locked up all day!I got up and went with her. Along the way I came across other patients, some very happy, others horrified and others who were simply in another world. Some looked like the living dead, spoke nonsense, murmured and drooled until their
4 pmThey accompany me to Dr. Nancy’s office. I enter the room and sit down, while she was at the table staring at me. She felt her gaze fixed on me, as if she knew what had happened. She had the paper and pen in her hand.“ Navid….I breathed deeply, pressing my hands to the back of the chair. I looked away, as I didn't want to show how I felt at the moment.“ You attacked a patient today! “ He told me. “ Lucas.“ Betina. “ He said irritated. “ Today she was Betina!“ Are you so upset because of a simple game?"“ She swallowed the pieces! “ I hit the chair on impulse.“ Was it necessary to strangle her? Something else irritated you and made you compulsive.“ Nothing much... I just got irritated... “ I stared at her. “ And Mr JJones ordered this to be done.“ This me jones makes you someone compulsive and aggressive.“ I am not compulsive and much less aggressive. “ I stared at her, crossing my arms, still annoyed and bored.She took a deep breath and nodded, not knowing what to do wi
NancyI could have sworn there was someone nearby. I re”enter the room and arrange some patient documents in their proper places. I left the room bored, as the hospital was empty, luckily the patients were well behaved, as there are days when this is impossible. I walk through the corridors and the next thing I know, I'm near Navid's room. I peek through the small window in the door to see how he is doing. I see him walking around in the same place calmly, as if he was thinking something. Was she thinking about running away? I waited a little longer to observe her behavior, it was addictive to watch. He takes a deep breath, turns his back to me and takes off his shirt, demonstrating his physical structure, defined body, his back? My God, what a back and shoulders he was like, I could revise my anatomy classes just by looking at him. I take a deep breath and can barely contain myself seeing him like that. He might have a mental disorder, but he couldn't deny that he was handsome and at
MarlonI feel my body being touched by someone, I try to open my eyes, but I can't, I feel like I'm being overcome by a deep sleep. I saw everything around me blurred, I barely recognized faces. She whispers in my ear, I knew that voice. I take a deep breath and open my eyes, looking at her. She takes my mouth, while her other hand goes down to my abdomen, until it reaches the level of my groin. I hold her hand and look at her, making her stop.“ I know you want... “ She takes my mouth again and her hand invades my pants, I am caressed without permission, but I also can't help it because I'm dizzy, I can't react, as if a drug were in me. I let the pleasure carry me away and then I fall into a deep sleep. I feel time passing, my body remains asleep but my mind tells me to wake up.“ Navid.I hear my name, but I can't wake up, as if I don't have control of my own body.“ Navid wake up!I wake up scared and in agony, I take a deep breath trying to calm down. I didn't understand what just
11pmLying in bed, I waited for some sign of Mike, if he didn't come I would go back to the same place to see if I could find him there. I wait a few more minutes, get out of bed and start to feel anxious and impatient. I start counting to ten, while walking around in place. Soon I hear the door slam, I immediately open it and see Mike. I already knew how to differentiate Lucas's personalities.“ Shhhh “ Mike said with his finger in his mouth.I nodded positively. Without half a word, Mike turns his back on me and starts walking and I follow him, seeing where he takes me. Along the way I hear voices coming from far away, the voices that have been asking for help for days.“ Do you hear it too? “ I asked.“ Ever! “ Mike says, walking, lifting me to the door that crosses the red line, the same door as last night. I walk and look into my eyes, I see Nancy in one of the rooms.“ Do not look! Never look…."“ Why?"“ If you look, you'll end up giving up on continuing... Don't get distracted
EpilogueMarlonI get home and see Sasha sitting on the couch with a paper in her hand, she looked nervous and scared.“ Sasha…She looked at me and approached me, giving me a big hug. I returned the hug and gave him a kiss on the shoulder.“ What it was?She looked at me.“ I'm Pregnant!I couldn't contain myself with the news and I gave him a kiss, pressing his body against mine.“ Are you happy? “ She asked me distressed.“ Of course I am, aren't you?“ What if our son or daughter, be a…I put my finger on her lips, shutting her up, before she said anything stupid.“ He will be perfect, be beautiful, healthy and have lots of love…“ If you are like me?“ It will be even more perfect!She showed a smile and nodded. That smile was everything to me.“ I love you.” He declared.I took his mouth, plunging my hands into his hair. Our kiss was strong and intense, we could barely breathe. In one movement I took her into my arms, placing my torso between her legs. I walked to the stairs, bu
MarlonNancy once again left a plate of food and left. He treated me like those animals that carried out tests in the laboratory. She fed me, but tortured me, taking away my strength so I couldn't escape. He kept me alive to torture me. I had no idea of time or the day I was here, but it seemed like an eternity. I sit inside the cage, hugging my arms around my legs and resting my head on my knee, trying to maintain my sanity. At that moment I hear a noise, footsteps approaching me and a familiar smell. I look and I can't believe who I see in front of me. She, the woman who wanted to open my eyes so many times but I didn't listen, the woman who even though I doubted her, she came to me.“ Sasha! “ He said in surprise.She held the railing.“ Wow, what did they do to you Marlon?” Her eyes shone and she looked distressed.“ You have to get out of here! She's crazy, get out of here!” I said.“ No, without you...“ Go Sasha!“ No!She takes a hairpin out of her hair and tries to open the
SashaI wake up and get scared seeing Júnior in front of me, watching me. He looked distressed and furious at the same time. I faced him, lying on my back, waiting for him to say something.“ Have you spoken to my brother?I didn't respond and continued staring at him.“ Responds!“ No.“ Do you know where he is?“ How would I know, he is no longer my husband.Junior took a deep breath and rubbed his head.“ Why do you ask me about Marlon?“ Because I find it strange that he disappeared, on the same day that he left you! I find it very strange.“ How did it disappear? “ my heart accelerated, I didn’t understand what happened.“ I suspect he was kidnapped! He has been incommunicado for three days.“ What?“ And I suspect someone is involved in this! “ He looked at me seriously.“ Do you think I have something to do…“ just the day he separates from you he is kidnapped!“ I would never hurt him...“ Really? The scar he has on his abdomen, who made it?I looked away, how could he think s
SashaThe day passed and it seemed like an endless time, I felt lifeless, as if everything was black and white. I missed my home, Marlon... without him it felt like something was missing from me. I sit on the bed and pick up a book to read, I like to read novels. One of the nurses was kind enough to lend me one.“ Sasha…“ Mike! “ I say surprised looking at him. He was at the door looking at me with a smile. He came closer to me and sat on mine. In this hospital, men and women were all together. It was a happier place with good energy.“ Why are you here?“ I will be hospitalized for a few days, they are testing my mental state!“ What happened?“ Nancy, she’s alive! I saw…“ Didn't she die?I shook my head no and explained everything that happened. Mike opened his eyes, surprised by what I said.“ Of course no one would believe you? Nobody believes in people like us!“ I know…“ Marlon?“ We are no longer together... It's better that way. “ I wiped the tear from the corner of my eye.
SashaAfter a few minutes of waiting the event began. She was sitting next to Marlon, one of his hands was resting on my leg, crossed with the other, stroking it. I had my arm resting on Marlon's shoulder, while I saw Júnior receiving the award and giving a speech. He liked to give long speeches that sounded like a lecture.I feel Marlon's hand sliding up my inner thigh, teasing me. I pressed my legs, closing them more and preventing his hand from moving forward.“ Stop, Marlon! “ I sent.He showed a mischievous smile, staring at me, as if he wanted to tame me right now.“ It is serious!He put his lips to my ear and bit lightly.“ I told you that this dress would give you problems…I gave him a quick kiss on the mouth and got up from the table, forcing him to let me go before he did something crazy. I was already going crazy with his touch, that if he continued with these provocations I would end up giving in. I went to the bathroom, got myself together and touched up my lipstick and
SashaI look out the window at home, seeing Marlon getting into the car and leaving for work. I waited a few minutes and started getting ready to leave, wearing something simple and practical, leggings and a black t”shirt, sneakers and a cap. I called the taxi and asked it to take me to the address I had written down on the paper. I couldn't drive, because of my mental condition. It wasn't safe for me or others. The place was distant, it was far from the city, it took almost half a walk to get there. When I arrived in the neighborhood, I asked for a taxi to stop one block before the place. I got out of the taxi and walked to the place. I arrived and spent a minute looking at the house, Nancy's house. The house was made of wood, rustic style but it was beautiful and tall. I spent a while watching the house to see if anyone was in the house, but it seemed to be abandoned. I didn't know why I was here, but something told me that I had to come, I had to know more about her, because I saw
SashaI'm at home in front of the television, watching time pass. I try to forget what happened in a moment, but it's all well and good. It wasn't imagination! I saw someone came into my store and messed with my dolls. I really wanted to believe that Nancy was dead, but something told me no, I was terrified of that woman. She was so evil, that even if one day they told me that she died and was reborn from the ashes, I would believe it.Sitting on the couch, I press my hands to my dress, trying to stay calm, breathing deeply. At that moment II get up and go to the kitchen to take the medication, which my new psychiatrist had recommended to me. I had to take it twice a day. I'm starting to get bored, I was used to always keeping myself busy, it helped me scare away "them". I pick up a novel and go to the porch of the house and start reading."Sasha...."I hear the voice calling me again. No matter how much medication I took, there was always a voice calling me, it felt like it was my si
SashaAfter a weekend away from home, we returned to our routines. I took advantage of Marlon's ride to go to the store and he went to work. It was a beautiful day, sunny and people were walking around in the street. My store was in front of a garden, where children used to play. Before opening the store, I spent some time looking at the children playing, happy and radiant. Others were with their parents, the affection between them was so beautiful. I wished my adoptive parents were alive, they were missed to this day. I wish I had had a good relationship with Nancy, my…Sister. Even though I knew she was my sister, I couldn't feel affection for her, just pity. If she had told me right away that she was my sister, it would have been different.I turn my attention back to the store and open the doors. I go in and see that the objects are not the way I left them before. On the floor there were two dolls sitting in front of me, one blonde and one brunette, both with sharp eyes. I take a d
MarlonThe sun's rays come through my bedroom window, creating a pleasant breeze, I could hear the sea waves while lying in bed. I reach over to the side where Sasha slept, but it's empty. I wake up looking to the side and see that there is a note.“Love, I'm waiting for you on the beach"I got out of bed and looked out the window. She was lying in her thong, sunbathing. I spend a while appreciating her and she looks at me, lowers her sunglasses showing a smile. She bites her lip and with her index finger calls me to meet her.I show a smile and lip, appreciating that geisha who seduced me every day, I say goodbye with a look and go to the bathroom. I stand in front of the mirror looking at the scar on my abdomen, thinking about whether it would go or not. I put my hand on my head and breathe, then I decide I'm going. I put the indentrifocal paste on my teeth, wash my face and get ready. I go out onto the balcony of the house that directly overlooks the beach and see her coming out of