It was the first time Silje told Greg something personal, and he didn’t say anything. Greg just listened quietly.
“Christian is definitely an attractive man. Whenever I see him, I feel happy and comfortable. I smile more and he just makes me feel like something good is going to happen. But… even with all the positive feelings, I still feel empty deep inside. Isn’t that strange? Compared to Christian, that man… He is too rough and aggressive, but still… There is an odd understanding between us. Do you think it’s because we’ve seen the worst of each other? Do you think arguing and fighting make people closer? Do you think that makes sense? Our relationship… It’s very raw.”
“So it sounds like you are saying you are in love with him. When did this feeling start?”
Greg kept his hands busy with making drinks while listening to Silje attentively. He was an excellent bartender and one of t
Ironically, Christian’s kindness and sincerity made Silje feel even more distant from him.They could never truly become close.He continued to smile beautifully, and all Silje could feel for him was respect and friendliness, nothing more.Realizing that she would never be truly happy with him, Silje smiled sadly.‘I hope you are always happy in your beautiful world, Christian.’When she looked at him quietly, Christian asked, “Why aren’t you eating your pizza? Is it not good?”“No, it’s delicious, Christian. The salad and coffee are great too. I can see why you come here often.”He looked at her quietly with his hazel eyes before saying, “After we eat, let’s go for a walk.”After the meal, they went to walk in the nearby park.Brilliant Park.So Christian remembered. A while back, he told her about how he spent a summer here with his friends
Kail said Christian’s name calmly, making Silje anxious.“So, you are a famous designer in New York… I suppose if you want to help Silje, there is no need to refuse it.”Kail smiled widely and shook Christian’s hand.“…!”Kail didn’t seem to be squeezing Christian’s hand hard, but Christian’s face slowly became pale. When Silje tried to interfere, Kail raised his hand to stop her.“Kail!”Silje yelled at him, but Kail continued to study Christian with interest, like he was at a zoo watching a funny-looking animal.Beautiful and scary Kail… He said in a frighteningly soft voice, “Famous New York designer… So that means fashion shows, commercials, and CF shoots, right? You are like a Santa Claus who takes MY Silje to fancy places crowded with paparazzi and fashion people? Have you already been doing that?”Silje inhaled deepl
Music was playing.The stage was decorated with black marbles and one by one, the models walked out fluidly.They walked professionally and among the many tall slim models, Silje looked like an elegant deer walking on fresh green grass.The music continued to play.[I won’t sympathize anymore. And if you complain once more…]Feeling the rhythm of the music, Silje walked gracefully. Her walk wasn’t exaggerated, but still memorable. In a white flare skirt, Silje walked beautifully and the audience seemed mesmerized.Phoebe Philo, Celine’s lead design, created a collection that was lovely and elegant like the moonlight on a calm Paris night.[You’ll meet an army of me. You’re alright. There’s nothing wrong…]Silje changed into high heel ankle boots and a feminine skirt. On the modern yet sensitive French stage, she looked outstanding. Depending on her outfit, Silje smiled faintly o
Silje bit his lips hard and kissed him back. When she started to suckle his lips seductively, Kail’s eyes darkened in desire.Silje ate at his lips furiously. She was so angry and she wanted to hurt him. The fire within her burned.Rip.She tore up her coat to take it off. She threw it down on the floor and started to take off the rest of her clothes one by one as Kail watched in disbelief.When she only had her black bra left, Kail couldn’t take it anymore and finally lunged at her.“…”He pushed her down to the bed. The heat between them exploded and moaning urgently, Silje slapped Kail before kissing him again.He also seemed to be overwhelmed as he pushed her silky hair back and groaned like a beast. He exposed her white neck and bit it.“Ahhhh…”Silje felt like she was being bitten by a vampire. She moaned as her body burned.She kissed down his neck determine
Silje wasn’t surprised when Kail cried out in pain.He started to throw anything he could grab against the walls and roared angrily.“Dammit! No! It can’t be!”He was clearly suffering, but Silje just watched him emotionlessly like the goddess of revenge.This was necessary for their relationship to finally end.Silje knew he must’ve already known about what happened, but hearing it from her lips had to be more shocking than ever. To confirm his worst fear… It had to be horrifying.Silje understood the pain, but she desperately needed him to leave.Silje slowly continued, “It’s the truth, but I am not telling you this to get back at you, Kail. All the years I spent here in New York by myself… I have learned that retaliation is pointless. All I want is to never see you or any of your family members again. I don’t want to be associated with any of the Bruntlands. So Kail, jus
The next day.It was as if nothing happened.Kail was gone from her life, but it didn’t affect her daily routine.He disappeared like he never existed in her life. What happened during the past few days felt like a dream, because her life was suddenly back to normal.Kail was gone forever.Where did he go?Silje couldn’t believe it. There was no trace of him anywhere, like the snow that melts when the sun shone on it. She felt empty inside.‘It’s better this way. I can live a good life without him. A great life.’Although she tried to convince herself of it, Silje couldn’t help but feel oddly sad. It was like a ghost came and left an invisible mark on her. He was gone, but Silje couldn’t pretend that nothing happened.Her work life, however, went on as usual.She was a professional, and she made sure her personal life didn’t affect her career. As if everything was fi
After returning home from dinner with Christian, Silje changed into more comfortable clothes. She still lived in the agency dorm with the other models. Since she didn’t live alone, it wasn’t perfectly private, but Silje still felt like she belonged here.“Hello, Silje.”Tasha greeted her. She was a model from Eastern Europe with a long ponytail. She was wearing a yoga shirt and black hot pants. They lived with another model named Anna who was from Russia. The three got along well and they often went for meals together. Their favorite place was in Chinatown.Silje also had a wide network of acquaintances. She was often invited to parties where she was able to enjoy good jazz music and wine. Silje liked these parties sometimes, but she still couldn’t get used to them like many other New York models.What mattered the most to her was her work, but still, Silje recently opened up her heart and worked on her social life as well. I
When she came out wrapped in a white towel, Tasha was talking to her boyfriend on the phone. Anna was away in Saint Petersburg doing a photoshoot for Russian Vogue, so the dorm was quieter than usual.A siren was heard from outside but Silje was used to it by now. Drying her hair with the towel, Silje looked out the window with a bitter expression.She was used to this life now. When she first came to New York, she felt lost in this giant city.However, she no longer felt lonely. She used to be completely alone, but now, she had friends, including Jung Yun. After work, Silje often chatted with her friends.Jung Yun, especially, became a close friend. Jung Yun, a fellow model and the daughter of Silje’s favorite Korean restaurant owner, often gave Silje helpful advice regarding modeling.And of course, Silje sometimes talked to Niels and Tran in Oslo. She also contacted Irina from time to time. These were people who were happy for Silje’