“Did you cook this food?”She couldn't consider herself a great cook considering that the best that she could do with her ability are two techniques: frying and reheating. After Nikolai asked her that question, she was suddenly wondering if recipes of food she can ‘possibly’ cook have gone together with her memory.“You're kidding, right?” She prayed silently in her head. Hopefully, no expectations ruined.But she could finally breathe when Nikolai’s smile showed despite his restraints. “Yes. When we lived in New Zealand, we always had takeouts.”“You scared me! I thought part of my amnesia is forgetting those recipes I never learned to cook.”Contrary to her worries, there was a warm smile on Nikolai’s face. It was simply contagious. That’s the thing with Nikolai. She couldn’t be firm with her decision to be anything but lovers with him. He smiles at her one time and she goes weak in the knees.Belle looked away and st
They ate their dinner in silence and said good night. Nothing uneventful, but it was meaningful.It was the first time that Belle felt they were a married couple. She didn't feel the need to impress Nikolai or the need to do something to get a reaction.“I'll go now.” She excused herself, but Nikolai followed.“Did Liam meet Bonnie?”“Yes,” she answered. “Bonnie gave Liam all these toys and chocolates. First day here and she's spoiling the kid already.”Nikolai smiled. “I'm glad they saw each other again. I have always planned to invite Bonnie before.”“They're having a great time. I'm having a great time too.”“I'm glad to hear that.”It was the first time for her to wish that the way to their rooms was longer. This calm conversation with Nikolai talking about little things seemed mundane but precious.It was too much to ask for now, she guessed.“Good night.” She said when she reached her room.Nikolai returned her smile. “Good night.”***“Where do you want to go today?”“Oh, no, n
Because of her lack of memory, Belle had to learn to rely on her instincts. She wasn't always right, but something inside her tells her that this Evelyn woman cannot be trusted.She was acting timid, but confident enough to show herself inside the house. The least he could do was knock at the door. These security people should have also informed her.“Okay. She's gone. You can stop shooting those laser eyes.” Bonnie held her back.She lost track of time, observing until the woman was out of sight. “I'm not shooting laser eyes.”“Shooting daggers then? Either way, you were staring to kill, Belle.” Her friend started teasing her. “I don't blame you, don't worry. I was having my little observatory moment here as well.”She tried to be subtle and not quick to judge. Mission failed for both, apparently. Stopping the ‘I’m not the least bothered by that woman’, her forehead furrowed in all these negative emotions, she couldn't quite figure out what direction was heading to.“I don't like her
It was like one of those moments when you go to class, feeling like you did all the preparation for an exam, only to be asked a single question you have not studied. Belle got the right gears, just not the answer to this question. And just her luck, Nikolai doesn’t seem to know the answer either. Now, they are stuck in a situation with a curious child, waiting for a response. “When is she coming, Mommy?” Her already wide eyes widened even more. “Uhm, who’s… coming, Liam?” “My baby sister.” Her body lost the strength to stand still having a sudden dizzy spell from Liam’s continuous attack. The innocence and curiosity in his face didn’t help, either. If anything, it only made her feel worse. Out of the blue, Nikolai started laughing. He kissed Liam’s head before putting him down. “Go take a bath then, we’ll have breakfast together.” It worked like a magic spell. Liam ran away for h
It was completely unfair how Nikolai dropped those words and then left. Just like that. ‘Classic Nikolai.’ She thought. Leaving her with her raging imagination again. What makes her even crazier is getting that idea and knowing that it happened. ‘Am I supposed to seat here all day thinking about how I literally fucked him? Fuck him and all the ways I could imagine fucking him.’ “Where's Daddy, Mommy?” “Uhm,” Setting all these thoughts aside to focus on the present. Besides, it's much more suitable to think of it later at night. “Daddy has to go to work, but you can have breakfast with Mommy!” *** As big as their mansion, it was so well-maintained that there was no other thing to do. This must be why some rich people get into trouble. They have all the time to think about… stuff. It's not fair that she'd look at a blooming rose and start to freaking think about sex! Everything goe
Time was moving slower than ever. Belle was looking at the screen for a long time now, only blinking when she felt a sting after staring at the computer for a long time.She pressed the refresh button and rested her back. Still keeping her eyes locked on the laptop screen. Anytime now, that email might arrive and she’ll finally know if she’s accepted at the job that she applied for or not.She enjoyed being a teacher, but it wasn’t her calling. Deep inside, she knew there was a different path out there for her. She was okay. She was surviving. The day would start like how it did the day before, and the day before that. It would end the same way. From time to time, she’d sit by herself and with that thought of why there’s a part of her that feels… empty.The only way to find that piece of herself was taking a risk, even when there was an internal struggle and screaming inside her head that she wasn't enough. Belle thought her resume wasn’t that impressive,
First day at her job. She hasn’t even officially started yet, and one of the most important secrets that she would like to keep a secret is already known. Belle was too stunned to react to this random stranger she didn't recognize.“Do we know each other?”“I know you.”“I don’t know you,” Belle replied. She wanted to sound convincing and not the least bothered. Even to her own ears, she didn’t sound like it. She wasn’t doing anything wrong, but she didn’t want to experience the possible effects of the other employee knowing that she’s married to Nikolai.The guy simply nodded. Belle doesn’t know if she should be relieved that he didn’t look interested. Even then, what’s the point of the conversation they are having? He could have simply pretended he doesn’t know her and he doesn’t care. Yet, he stirred the pot with unclear intentions.“You don’t have to worry. I usually mind my own business. It was simply… interesting. Finding you here when you can be somewhere else, but as I said, I
The smile that she forced to put on her face dropped.This wasn’t even the first time this happened to her in this lifetime. All she wanted was something secured and instead, what she got were two marriages with foundation built on anything but love. It was a bitter truth to swallow that it was easier to let Jack go, but with Nikolai, it was a different story.Belle had a disinterested look on her face, with eyes locked on Evelyn. Her hand was itching the mouth that had the same shade of lipstick on Nikolai’s collar. Every wife who felt wronged would love to take matter into their own hands and Belle is no different. Just not right now.“Isobelle.” Nikolai was surprised. If he’s really cheating, he’d easily pass as a great actor. No sign of guilt or remorse there. “Liam, you’re here.”“We wanted to surprise you.”“Yes. We brought food, Daddy.” The clueless child repeated.For Liam’s sake, Belle puts on her happy mask again, even