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The Victim 41| deja vu
Sarah***We were still outside when Rine left. Still in the same circle but only two people missing. We continued chatting amongst ourselves and let the love birds be together. "Let's play truth or dare,""Nope," I shake my head repeatedly. The last time we had done this game I was in middle school and I did not have a lovely experience. That was a story for another day- plus, this game always had a history of something going bad. Or there were personal dared or truths."Yeah let's do it," Levine smiles. She loved to stir the pot. "Nope," I stand by my answer. That's when my phone beeps. I take it out from Darek's jacket- yeah... another story for later. I see the text on my lock screen. It's from Rine.From; S is for sister - don't judge. - I don't think Alexander is who I thought he was.Ps. don't tell the guys.I frown at message not knowing what the hell was happening. Weren't they just all lovey dovey just moments ago? But I remember my mom always told me, "Don't believe ev
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim sequel preview
[preview]"Serine, you are under arrest,""Fucking great," I roll my eyes. [WAY TO START OF HER NEW YEAR]"I am going to make your life a living hell," he smirks."She's back?""I'm not trying end my life," I roll my eyes, staring into space. "Although, I'd like to ruin someone else's"[FAMILIAR FACES]"Who's the fool now huh Serine?" [REVENGE]"I think it's smart to have her on our side,""Hello stranger, I suppose you're danger?""The one and only,"[RELATIONSHIPS]"I wish I never fell in love with you," "What are you trying to do?""It's not what I'm trying to do but what I'm hoping for,""What are you hoping for?""For you to fall in love with me,""This isn't love,""You don't know what you're saying,""I thought you were a daisy, but damn you have poisoned me,""Everything has an expiration date,""It's just stale,""WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?[HEARTBREAK]"Wait- what did you just say?""That's betrayal. I never forget betrayal,""You're good at being a hypocrite,"
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim 42|special
S E R I N ETwo years later. A victorious laugh escaped me as I realized I was winning rock paper scissors- don't judge. We were currently in class and super bored. Our varsity decided to open sooner than we all expected but that meant an extended holiday which I appreciated very much. But to say I didn't mind waking up was a lie. It was no longer me waking up at 7, ready to get on with my morning routine cause it had changed. I woke up later, classes would either start at 9- and our latest was 10. Some days, for whatever reason, we had to be there at eight. The professor was seated at his seat, not taking note of us at all. "I knew I could trust you Serine," I hear a loud voice. "My bets always on you," I flash a smile to David, our hands connecting we're doing our childhood handshake. "It's always better to be on the side of a winner, so honey," I pause looking back at Angelo. "take the L because you're looking at a winner," he cracks into his smile, his dimples appearing perfe
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim 43| lifeless
S E R I N ETwo years earlierI cried.Her body was still, she wasn't moving.Lifeless. That's how she was, I hated it. I hated the sight. "S-Sarah come on now," I ignore the coldness brushing against my bare skin. Her eyes were slightly opened, her lips were crippled. She was cold. "Take care of yourself," she whispers."No no! Sarah you are not doing this to me! No, not today," I panic. "They're almost here- just d-don't close your eyes," she blinks slowly, only making me slap her face slightly. "Don't. You. Dare,""Sarah, don't leave me. Stay for me, your parents, your brother- your entire family damnit,""Excuse me miss?" I whip my head to the the door and see two paramedics. "She- she needs help. Help her!" I yell. "Okay miss, we will need you to step out of the way." I immediately do. I remove myself from her. "Just please help her," I cry. "Please,""Did you check her vitals?" the one medic asks the other and I completely zone out and just stare at her body lying there. No, sh
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim 44| confessions
N I N AStill, two years earlierI knew that anything I'd say, no one would listen but I got up the stage- not before seeing her picture on the poster. "Hi everybody," I smile a tight smile once I'm able to speak on the mic. "I know a lot of people knew me for hating Sarah- but I truly, truly never hated her,"Truth is, I was jealous of her. I wanted to be just like her. In every way shape of form. Almost nobody knew we were sister's because of how we butt heads millions of times but that was mostly because of me. Right, lies. It was always my fault. I was the one who had problems- I envied everything she did. Even how she looked- although a lot of people could actually see we resembled each other- that still wasn't enough for me. She had the purest heart, all she had was happiness and when she lost it, she'd get it back."She was everything I wanted to be. I looked up to her- even with us being basically twins- she was more intelligent, had a greater heart. Everybody loved her.The d
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim 45| entries
S E R I N EYes, two years earlier Dear DiaryInstead of writing a letter you'll never receive, why can't I just write into this book I haven't written in since I was- what, 14?Yes exactly. Today makes it another day that I haven't spoken or seen her. It's been tough. I thought it gets easier once you've let them go but man was I wrong. Everyday without her is just a reminder that she's never coming back and it hurts. It really does. My dad, another person I've continued to pray for even though the doctors saw no hope. It's been a couple of months now, it get harder and harder. Losing Sarah and losing my dad? Have mercy on me, please, dear God. I don't think I could take any more deaths in my life. In the midst of her death, Sarah's, I promised her that I would be happy. I'd do justice for the life she herself, left for me. It was sure harder than it seemed because there was still a load on my shoulders. That I can't seem to get rid off. I've considered therapy. Thought about it
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim 46| dreams
D A R E KI heard it.It was like she was here, right next to me. Her laugh echoed, her eyes twinkling as I watch her joyful self. It made me happy- so happy that I had put that smile on her face. That I was the one who made her laugh. I admired every feature; her dark skin looked perfect with her light ginger colored hair. Her big eyes- were perfectly made, the lights, lighting them up even more. She was surreal. She looked absolutely out of this world- I meant it what I was saying. Her Amber orbs making contact with mine.Beauty.She was the epitome of beauty. Her face was small, she bit her pink bottom lip, tucking it under her teeth before releasing it. Smiling to reveal her sparkly white teeth. She was like a doll. A real life doll. She hit her knee, throwing her head back, still laughing. I was too admired by her beauty to even remember what I had said to make her laugh like that.Her curvy figure stood up. "Y- you-" She struggles as she continues to silent laugh. "Oh my gosh I
Last Updated : 2022-11-27The Victim 47| refreshing
S E R I N EFinally two years laterLife.My life.Life was treating me much better. But I still missed her, every time the sun was out, I saw her. It reminded me of her. It was like it was her- she was that sunshine. Summer had even become my favorite season because I'd wait for the sun to come out. The sun was now the best friend I could never reach.It made sense right? Right. The first few weeks without her were so gloomy. It was like everyone around me was in their own dark universe. Everyone had to cope with it in their own way- it took us all individually a long time. Six months felt like 6 days, literally. Time was going so fast but it felt like it was going- painfully slow. I've never wished death upon anyone, anyone but it felt good to know that I was safe. Denzil was no longer a living human being. He was gone and deceased. He was no longer haunting me. It's like his death was a breathe of fresh air- I knew how someone could easily twist my words and make it seem like I
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The Victim 72| complete (BONUS)
AngeloMy eyes followed as she walked down the stairs. I didn't think she'd actually come out of her room. She'd been locked in her room all day, everyday.Amber told me she didn't want to open the door for anyone, but since she had access to the housekeys -- she gave them to me. I still remembered the first time we were alone.It was after I found out what Serine had done. The day where I thought I lost the only girl I ever loved.[FLASHBACK]"Angelo?" I keep my mouth shut as I stare down at the floor. "Angelo what's wro-" Her hand inches closer to my shoulder."Don't touch me," I glare at her and she removes her hand as if I had scared her. "You knew didn't you?""Knew what?""DON'T FUCKING BULLSHIT ME," She jumps in shock and stares at me with wide eyes. I ball up my fists even tighter. "What, so you're telling me you don't know about Alexander and Serine?" She doesn't say anything but rather shakes her head, hesitantly. "I don't know what you're talking about,""Like hell I'd b
The Victim 71| reborn (BONUS)
KellyI rinsed my face off with ice cold water, finding satisfaction with the temperature of the water. The more the tears streamed down my cheek, the more I forced the cold water onto my skin.I lifted my head up and the first thing I saw was my reflection. My eyes were puffy and red, I didn't know how else I was going to explain myself to Angelo. The water was slowly drying up the more I stared at myself in the mirror. I quickly patted my face dry with the nearby towel. I grab my usual face lotion and applied it on my face."Kelly?" I heard his voice from downstairs.I take one more look at myself in the mirror, forcing a smile as I came out of my bathroom. I exit my room and spot him over the balcony. "Angelo," It had been the first time I had seen him months. The rest of my Uni years were bittersweet.And like always, I'd ruined everything.I walk down the stairs, barefeet in a white hoodie. All my blonde strands were tied up into a messy bun. I shoved my hands into the hoodie
The Victim 70| innocent (BONUS)
S A R A H A huge howl of laughter escapes my mouth, once I find myself in his embrace. "D-Darek, I think that's enough now love," And to my luck, he stopped.I can't help but fail at suppressing my smile. He always knew how to make me smile. He always listened, he cared for me. Too much sometimes."I'm going to get the snacks babe, you can find a movie,""Already on it," His tan skin was glistening and it reminded me of men in the movies. He looked unreal, out of this world and I couldn't believe that I got a chance to hold him again. The chance to call him mine. His green eyes that fit perfectly- with his olive complexion-- roamed around the TV screen. He wore nothing but a pair of grey sweats- don't ask me how it even got there, but the image always had me distracted.He shifts a bit, his body moving at a normal pace but in my head it was all in slow motion. His dark black hairhair was messy and slightly wet. I smiled, my chest fluttering. This work of art was mine."Beauty,
The Victim 69| little one (BONUS)
Levine Two years laterI stare at the picture of my dad and I. It was the picture we took on graduation day. The smile on my face then was as real as it could be.Graduation day, wasn't the best day. It was the day where we all thought we had buried my best friend, my sister. My heart still aches, it made me realize how short life really was. She could've died.She didn't, but my dad did. After Serine's birthday party, I was woken up by a phone call.***I could hear my phone ringing, it's default ring tone knocking me out of my slumber. There were pillows all over the room-- and the room I was in, was not mine. I frown, slowly sitting upright and yawn slightly. I grab my phone on chest- off- drawer and answer the call. Not even bothering to look who it was, that was calling me. My palm, rests on my forehead and I tilt my head back slightly. Fuck, I think I drank a little too much last night. "Sweetie," I hear my mom's voice, it sounds so strained. "Mom? Mom what's up?
The Victim 68| epilogue
I was finally dead.They tried to save my life, shock after shock.I was gone.Every body's tears felt like hot water on my skin. I don't know if it was real or if I just imagined that. Probably the second. I think I was at peace.I could no longer feel and that somehow made me me happy. It was something I once hated- I was numb, a good numb? Is there really such a thing?Well, whatever it was, I didn't mind it. These past years of my years have been a rollercoaster of emotions, most bad but at least I had some good. Maybe not everything had gone to waste.I'm sure everyone had forgotten about me.In a way, it made me content. It used make me feel like I was nothing, it made me feel lonely, helpless and hopeless. It was most definitely the opposite now.I was happier.I rest assured knowing even though they all cried, they'd be okay. They'd heal.No matter how long it took, they'd be happy.And fortunately for them, they didn't have to wait so long."Girl you have to wake up!" I groa
The Victim 67| you
S E R I N E"You?""It's me," I slightly smile. Not even knowing if he could see it through the darkness. "Why are we always meeting in the most unexpected places?""You tell me," he says and takes a seat next to me on the roof. "What's your name, again?" I put an emphasis on 'again' because I absolutely couldn't help it. He seems taken back a bit. "I'm just kidding. I actually remember you, Louis," His about to say something and I remember."Oh right, Louis Enzo," There's something in his eyes once I say that. It even shocks me the amount of stuff I remembered. "Serine Santana,""Serine, or Rine. Santana is an absolute crime," I joke. "Oh definitely," he says and I gasp. "Hey!" I playfully hit him with my palm on his shoulder a bit. "What? You said it yourself," he grins.It's then I realize, in the dark, that this man is so good looking. He had a peach black trimmed beard that suited him perfectly. I could see the silver ring on his thumb. His dark hair sui
The Victim 66| stranger danger
S E R I N EI push the door open and enter the restroom.My hands rest on the basin, as I stare at my reflection on the mirror. You could tell I had the time of my life.When was the last time I felt so happy?So free?I hadn't let loose like this in years. I haven't felt purely happy. I haven't had a satisfying escape, but tonight was different. The energy was different, not only was I enjoying myself, my girls were too. It brought a smile to my face, a happy, a silly and joyful one.I took one last look at myself in the mirror and left. I closed the door and was met by the loud music once again.The Dj was sick. I grab my phone out of my clutch and send a text to Levine. Letting her know I'd be outside if she ended up looking for me.I shove my phone back in and continued walking. I reach the outside and shake off my heels. Once their off, I prepare to climb. I was glad that I wore short shorts underneath - an even bigger plus was that nobody was around. I climbed quickly and rea
The Victim 65| forget forever
S E R I N E "Angelo, I can explain,""Is this what he meant? Tell me is this what he meant by, I wouldn't call you my girlfriend after what you did? Is it?" My body shivers and I'm helpless.Not even Levine could help me right now. I had to handle this by myself. I had to get through something without someone else's help. I had to own up to my mistakes. The secret I've kept.It was time.I couldn't deny it."Silence says everything,"I can't even bear to look him in the eye. I just can't.I can't face him."WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" The loudness of his voice almost makes me shout. I finally look at him. He looks torn -- so broken. It makes me sick how I was the cause of all that. With my hand on my chest, tears blurring my vision, I struggle to find my voice.Just to say that I was sorry.Just to say that, even though I knew damn well it wouldn't help. "I love you Serine, I loved you." His words pierce into my soul almost.It hurts so much.I didn't know if making it br
The Victim 64| forgive me
K E L L YI watched him place his hand on hers, with so much love and worry all at once.[Flashback]I understood why she chose him. A smile overtakes my expression, as I watch him, intrigued.He explained every piece that I didn't understand on paper. I didn't get to hear everything he was saying but all I knew is that it made sense.Whatever it was.He looked so focused and dedicated, he was a smart guy.Who I watched from afar, for years. For as long as I had known him. Alexander was there, but as the guy I thought I liked. Right, thought.As far as I knew, Alex and I weren't together because we liked and wanted to be together, no. It was out of mere desperation. There was no good reason other than just- him wanting to get Serine.No matter how, he had to it. No matter if he had to hurt her in the process. Alex didn't care, as long as he breathed the same air she did. As long as he was in her presence. No matter if he irritated her and how much he claimed to hate her, despite knowi
