Not Remorseful Yet It Stings

CHAPTER TWO

NICHOLAS' POV

I felt a slight sting in my chest as soon as I walked out of her room into the living room. 

I looked back at the room and the sting in my heart increased even though I couldn't place a particular cause to it. 

Just when I attempted to leave the room, my wolf took over me and I found myself going back to her room. If there's one thing I learned from my father, it was to keep my ever-aggressive wolf in check. I forced myself to stop and took charge of my body again.

"You got what you wanted. What now?" I asked angrily. 

"What I wanted was for us to claim her as our Luna and take her back to our pack without having to lie to her about your name, status, and reason for being here but you will never agree to quit the pretense. She is in so much pain right now, at least you should show some remorse and stay with her," Louis suggested. 

"Does it look like I care? You wanted to claim her and you succeeded. If you cared about the pain she'd be in, you wouldn't have come forward as you did earlier." I retorted. 

"You controlled me so well just now. If you didn't want her you could have as well controlled me back there. We took advantage of her and we should take care of her now that she's in pain. She's our mate. We are supposed to care for her especially since she's not our kind, not hurt her." Louis advised. 

"SHE'S NOT MY MATE! I don't want any mate and definitely not HER!" I scolded. "If you don't stop pestering me about her, I will hurt her and it will be all your fault!" I threatened as this was the only way to keep Louis shut. 

I faked my identity and came to this palace in my wolf's name for a different purpose - to exert my revenge by assassinating the King of Sweden who Is her father. The princess was never part of my plan but today, she has been included. And it felt like a perfect idea too, if I truly want to cause the King so much pain.  

The King had left the palace secretly and as his youngest knight, I am saddled with the responsibility of keeping the secret and also taking care of the princess. 

The only way the King was reassured of the Princess' safety is by seeing her on the CCTV cameras situated around her Chambers.

If she hadn't remained indoors all through today, I wouldn't have had to check up on her and what happened tonight wouldn't have happened. 

I didn't feel any guilt towards her after all, she was the one etching for sex so badly. 

I brought out my phone and called the King to inform him about her safety and the reason for her being indoors all day.

"Your...The Princess is doing just fine. I made sure of that. She was only indoors because she felt bored not being able to come to your Chambers. After all, she was avoiding you, but I sure helped her out by playing some mind-game with her. She won't be bored for quite a while, you can ask her that yourself." I reported as soon as he answered the call. I knew he'd probably be watching me through the CCTV from his laptop now so I had to be careful with my body language and all.

 "But that should be tomorrow because she'll probably be fast asleep by now," I added.

"Thanks for relieving me of my worries. I'm sure she's doing well now. As suggested, I will talk to her tomorrow." The King replied before ending the call. 

I heaved a huge sigh of relief and turned back to look at the princess's residence for a brief moment before walking to my apartment which was adjacent to the king's chambers. 

As I entered my dark room, a strong floral feminine scent hit my nose, and even though I still had to switch on the light, I knew who it was and her black leather jacket lying on my couch confirmed it. 

"Why's she here now?" I wondered as I took off my shirt in a bid to freshen up once I'm done talking to her. 

I went into my bedroom and met her arranging the room. She wasn't startled as I entered because she knew my scent well. 

Ava was my Beta and also the second precious woman in my life with the first being my kid step-sister and I could tell her scent apart even at a very distant place. I 

She wore a black singlet, black jeans, and a black knee-high boot to match. The ponytail of her long brown hair drifted from side to side as she dusted the table beside my medium-sized bed. 

"You're becoming hard-headed Ava. You might get into trouble if you keep doing this." I warned sternly and she finally looked my way. 

Flash of lust filled her eyes as she stared at my bare, hairy chest and I realized taking my shirt off in her presence was a totally bad idea. 

"I needed to be here, Your Highness." She finally let out after a few seconds of ogling at me. 

"I believe this charade is taking longer than expected, we had a better and easier way of carrying this thing out but you chose the hard way," Ava complained, though with respect with her head tilting downward. 

"It might be the hard way but there is no way better than this." I countered as I walked toward my wardrobe to pick up a towel. 

"Where are you coming from this late? You're not the type to keep late nights but I've been here for quite a while without meeting you at home." She asked politely.

"That lousy King sent me to check on her dumbass princess. I had to do it, he already finds me too rude for his liking, can you imagine?" I asked, not expecting an answer. 

I didn't realize there were some bloodstains on the shirt I had on earlier until Ava noticed it and drew my attention to it by swinging it across my face. 

"Your Highness, did you get hurt?" She asked as she walked up to me and quickly scoured through my body, in search of God knows what. 

"Calm down Ava, I'm doing just fine," I assured her as I collected the shirt from her. 

"How did you get bloodstains on your clothes if you are fine?" She asked, blood draining from her face, making her ivory natural undertone turn pale. 

"I am really fine, Ava. That stain was from…" My voice trailed off as I noticed her focus was on the tiny cuts the princess made on my body. 

"These cuts…" She paused briefly, narrowing her marble gray eyes at me. 

There was definitely no lying to her especially now that her thoughts went there. 

"Yes! I had sex with her." I blurted out without being asked. 

"Her father is not going to let go, you might fail this operation before you even start." She reminded me. Her voice was filled with jealousy rather than fear or pity. 

"He won't know about it, and after all, she forced herself on me. Don't worry about me. Just worry about yourself. What's going on in the pack?" I asked, changing the topic.

Ava relieved a sigh of distress before she finally answered. "Your absence is becoming disastrous, Grayson keeps causing trouble and I think he's scheming something really bad with his mom. The palace is in turmoil and your people are beginning to doubt your existence since you've barely appeared in any cabinet meeting for a while now. We're barely managing to keep things on track which is why you need to return as soon as possible." She explained, emphasizing the need for me to hasten this operation.

Grayson was my stepbrother from the woman Dad had married long after my mom died. As expected, she never loved me but at some point, she had to pretend around my father until he died.

I stopped being a prince as soon as Dad died because she made sure I suffered every day since I didn't have anyone to protect me. 

Somehow, I still ended up being the pack's leader despite all her hostility because, luckily, a pack's leader is not randomly chosen by the queen or who is favored more. It was chosen by strength and bravery to rule which his son clearly lacked from birth. 

Grayson was born a very weak Beta despite being born to an Alpha and this has remained a puzzle to me even though Dad said it was possible while I was born an Alpha, not just by title but by unnatural strength and power. 

"The King is out of the country, for now, I will do what's needed once he returns, till then, stay away from this palace," I commanded.

Ava wanted to say something else but I interrupted with the gesture of my hand.

"I mean it, Ava, you might get yourself in deep shit if you keep doing this. Call or mind link me if anything else comes up. You don't always have to come all the way here." I declared sternly and walked into the bathroom with my towel in hand, putting a final stop to my banter with her. 

She had no other choice than to accept the order and leave as instructed. 

As the cold water from the shower splashed on my body full of old scars and new cuts from Diana, my mind wandered about and I was suddenly reminded of Diana and the way she twisted her face in pain while I was stroking deep inside of her, causing a carve of devilish smile on my naturally sullen face. 

To be honest, she had the most heavenly scent I have ever perceived. It was a combination of Lavender and rose. It wears so agreeable with me and draws me into her every time my nose picks that scent. Nevertheless, I can never accept her as my mate and I know with time, her stupid feeling will go away and would be replaced with loathing. 

I didn't feel remorseful no matter how much he thought about her which made me wonder why Louis is full of that shit called guilt. 

"Phew...Her nails are quite sharp." I mumbled as I rounded up my bath. 

Once I was done bathing, I walked back to my bed which has now been neatly arranged and I lay on it. 

I picked up my phone, searched through it, and only came to a stop when I found what I was looking for -- a video coverage of how I fucked Diana in the cruelest way. 

Well...it wasn't my fault she decided to have her first sex with me. 

"Julius Rivera is going to be so broken when he watches this," I mumbled to myself, a delightful giggle escaping from my mouth. 

Though I wasn't remorseful about tonight, my heart still aches and I couldn't tell why, but that was the least of my worries at the moment. My presence is needed at the Palace and the only thing I want right now is to finally achieve my lifelong goal and finally leave this palace like I never came at all.