Perrin
I was thrilled to just get back to the Lodge and keep up training.
It was only 6:00am but I felt good. I was ready to go. Throwing on my workout gear, I laced my shoes and tied them three times over. One of the first times Ethan had ever beat me in the Lodge was when we were eleven. And it was mostly because I had tripped over my own shoelace.
Well, that’s my version. Ethan will tell you it’s because his hit on my flank threw me off balance.
Ethan’s beaten me since then, but I couldn’t offer excuses for why in any of those instances. Not since I started triple-lacing my shoes.
I headed downstairs, grabbing a quick cup of coffee from Dina before I set out back to jog the few miles to the Lodge.
LeilaNothing was going to stop me from telling Jaz the truth. She needed to know. And I wanted to be honest with her. I needed to be honest with her. About all of this. The confusion, the fake-dating… I had to make her understand that I was on her side, not some threat. Not some blonde who cheated on her with Perrin. Not someone who made up excuses for his mistake and got tangled up in pack business. I needed her as a friend and to know that I was doing this for her. And that I was who I was. And I prayed to the Goddess that she wouldn’t hate me or think I was hiding my identity.Goddess, these mix-ups needed to stop.I got a ride early from Charlie to the Lodge. I had planned to go with Perrin but I think he had left hours before and I h
PerrinMy blood turned cold. “Mistra, this isn’t what it looks like.”Mistra’s dark hair fans out behind her as she strides into the room.“And what exactly does it look like, Perrin?” Her voice is dangerously calm. She eyes me coldly. She’s tall--very tall for a she-wolf, and looks me dead in the eye. Normally a wolf wouldn’t do that to the Alpha Dauphin, but under the circumstances….“I had a rough night, mom.” Kira is straining to keep her own voice calm and strong. She remains huddled in her towel on the bed, but her bare shoulders can be seen. The implications don’t look good.“As if I didn’t know? Stumbling into our quarters reeking of vodka and
PerrinI had returned to the Lodge after dealing with Kira earlier, thoughts filled with her and alcohol and Ethan and Jasmine.Ugh. I didn’t want to think anymore. I just needed to punch something.Beta Mark greeted me as I exited the locker room.“Ready for some sparring?”“Damn straight.”I spent two rounds with Beta and Alpha Challengers of the Ididorahd pack. As our neighbors, they were well trained and eager to see what we were made of. The recent permissions between our Alphas caused a healthy sense of competition and rivalry. Only one gave me a serious run for my money, but I blame the cramp in my leg for my loss of speed that round.
PerrinAfter my third shower of the day, I made my way back to the packhouse. It was a little after 5:00. I had time to try and find my father, then pick up Lo for our “date.”PERRIN: You’ll be ready by 6:00?LO: Um, sure. Can you drop me off at the library?PERRIN: We’re supposed to be on a date.LO: I thought you were supposed to be going out with Jaz?PERRIN: Change of plans. I’ll explain later.LO: Fine. Where are we going?PERRIN: Have you been to the pie
Perrin“Right on time!”“As duty calls.”Lo strode across the packhouse lobby in jeans and a light jacket. She had an effortless way of looking chic and casual at the same time. I wondered vaguely if she’d eventually rub off on Kira, who preferred tight, black, and ripped everything. It drives Ethan--who’s usually preppy despite his motorcycle--quite crazy. Sometimes it’s amazing to think that they’re twins.“Ready to roll?”“We aren’t taking the motorcycle again, are we?”“Nah, I actually thought we’d walk.”“Walk?”
KiraMy head is still pounding and it had already started to get dark out. Shit. How much had I really drank? How much had I slept? I was starving. My mother had no sympathy for me and before I could even tell her about Jason, had left to head to the infirmary to see Ethan. I hadn’t had the energy to call for room service. That wasn’t a regular privilege at the pack house, but occasionally Dina would take pity on me and entertain the notion.I slid into a pair of yoga pants and a hoodie, donning sunglasses despite being indoors. The fluorescent lights of our hallways could be a real bitch.I contemplated the elevator but the speed and lift of the motion made my stomach turn just thinking about it. Maybe I’d have greasy pizza. Or break
PerrinI hadn’t actually ever been nervous for patrol before. Well, not at least since the first time I ever did it. I ran my first patrol with my dad and Beta Mark. We had shifted just before sundown, ran for hours in wolf-form, and it was amazing. I had never looked back. Patrol was a pack obligation that I really enjoyed fulfilling. It felt like the most natural part of being in the pack, really. At least until the Sacred Call.Except for tonight, I wasn’t looking forward to it at all. Not that I didn’t mind a challenge. But something was just so… unsettling, about Justin.I made my way back down after I had changed to the packhouse steps. Gamma Janas was already checking the patrol in and giving orders.“Ah yes, Alpha Dauphin, you’ll be wit
Perrin“Jaz, what are you doing here?”She was wearing a spaghetti-strapped slip, material thin enough to be see-through. Her full breasts were on clear display fabric, dark nipples already taught peaks beneath as they stretched the thin material across them.My arousal was instant, and she eyed me up and down from the bed.“Well?” she mused. “Aren’t you glad to see me?”“Obviously.” I motioned at my shorts. “But I thought you had to work?”“I did. And I decided your bed was a better place to study…”I took a step closer to the bed. “Study… is that what w
EPILOGUEMarge shuffled through the archive, her shoes making the only sound in the quiet stone building, echoing all the same through the high vaulted ceiling of the church building above. She raised a gnarled hand to the shelf and deposited the book after two tries, her hands shaking slightly with the cold. There were only a few books to return tonight. Far fewer than there had been when Leila had been here.So why had she waited until this late in the evening to do it? She just shrugged and pushed on, the slow creaking of the cart’s wheels punctuating the silence, her old watch on her pale wrist noting the time; 1:45 a.m.She really had no business being there so late. But she had gotten caught up in one of her research projects, spread out across her circulation desk and totally lost in thought until the rumble of her empty sto
Perrin“How long is it going to take?”I sat on Lo’s bed as she shoved clothes into her suitcase. “Maybe a week? I’m not sure.”“Why don’t you just leave all of that stuff here?” I pointed at the suitcase. “It’s not like you’re not going to bring it back.”She heaved a heavy sigh, full of fake exasperation. “I still have to pack it to move it down the hall. It’s just easier if I do it all at once.”“Nah. Let’s just throw it all in some garbage bags and unpack later.”She laughed. “Hand me those shoes?”I strode over and picked a pair
Perrin “Because I never want to create a monster like my father.” Silence hung in the room. I digested each word, the implications of it. “But you’re not…” I said, more for myself than for her. “No, I’m not. He never got his hands on me. My little brother made sure of that.” And even though she spoke in a viscous, quipping way; there was a hint of something grateful in her tone. “So he won’t be anything like him!” I said, assuring myself more than anything. “Does it matter?” She snapped, regaining her typical composure. “If my father’s insane lust for power is hereditary, then it’s best that the blood line ends with me. At least my brother won’t be breeding any offspring considering he’s gay–” sh
Perrin I glanced at my phone, then at Lo. We had made love for several hours, refusing to stop until we had our fill of each other. But each time hadn’t felt like enough, leaving us drained and happy but wanting more. After one particularly hot session in the middle of my bed involving whipped cream, I pulled her close to me, blissfully peaceful with her cradled in my arms. I felt her stomach growl against my hands. And apparently hungry. I swept my mouth to her ear and felt her shiver against me, goosebumps appearing up and down her body. I fought the impulse to warm her with every inch of mine. “Do you want me to get you a snack?” I said, and waved the small can of whipped cream in front of her face so she could see. She hummed lazily in my
PerrinAnd it had happened like that.I recalled the broad strokes for my friends.“You what?” Ethan said, shocked and nearly angry. “You can’t make that kind of promise!”Justin shook his head sagely. “That’s free reign, Perrin. And a dangerous move, backing out of every challenge. It puts you at a huge disadvantage if anyone trespasses on your territory.”“Or attacks on your land,” Ethan said.“Or poses a border dispute,” said Kira.“How will you expand?” Ethan asked, c
PerrinI tried to cover the nail marks she had left on my shoulder with a spare set of scrubs from Deidre’s office. It was no use. The scrubs were too small, tugging comically at my shoulders and Lo’s pink cheeks and ruffled hair couldn’t be fixed.We had retreated long enough to ourselves, and I pulled us back into the world of the living and down the hall, walking hand in hand as we rejoined our friends.Ethan smirked when he saw us. “Nice.”Kira rolled her eyes, glancing at her imaginary watch. “Couldn’t you two wait?”“At least get a shirt,” Ethan added, eyeing my bare chest. I had ditched the scrubs, unable to get them over my chest.
PerrinWe didn’t talk as much, even though that had been the plan.I had taken one of the chairs opposite Deidre’s desk, hoping to keep my brain thinking platonically for as long as possible. But part of me was still in shock. I could smell the smell of her coconut shampoo. See the glimmer of her earrings in the desk lap. And I had felt the tips of her fingernails as I held her hand; the short ones that she chewed on when she was reading and lost in thought.But I knew it was definitely her the moment I felt my head slightly dizzy with the draft of warm honeysuckle, intoxicatingly perfect.I wasn’t shy, needing to have her by my side. I pulled her easily into my lap, and she didn’t protest, as if still quite unsure that all of this was really happening either. She swun
PerrinAs soon as Mark dismissed the crowd, the crowd had begun to descend from the stands in droves. It hadn’t taken long for Lo to find me, fighting the current and pushing her way against the flow of teaming bodies and up to the platform.I sensed her, long before she ran up the platform stairs, Justin hot on her heels. I dove past my father, darted behind Mark and ran to meet her, not caring for any protocol or public indecency. I needed her.Her scent hit me first. It made my blood sing and my heart beat so fast I thought it would stop.And then there she was. The sight of my home and my heart, running and slipping across the wet platform towards me.My weight almost buckled beneath me, the unexpected reality of seeing her here st
Justin The arena was packed. I could hear an excited roar from the crowd from behind the Lodge, drifting over the top of the massive building and floating through the chill evening air. Lo parked illegally in front of the entrance to the building. Now was not the time to point it out. A series of battered and limp-hanging banners and signs showed the way around to the back. It had rained today, apparently, and we made progress towards the arena as quickly as we could, sludging through mud and the trampled pathway. A stadium had been erected, filled to the brim with stands of onlookers, cheering and applauding in a range of darkened colors, soaked from the rain. Despite the bad weather, it hadn’t dampened their spirits. The crowd had been here all night, awaiting the results. Colored tents for each challenging pack were spaced ou