What could I do? What could I say? How do you even respond to something like that? Make him second in my heart? Even if I was dealing with two separate men that would be an insane request.
I wasn’t denying that I had feelings for Victor, but another relationship? I was having enough trouble with the one I was currently in. Which was, technically, with him anyway. How the hell do you date the same guy separately? That thought didn’t even make sense.
"Ms. Walton?" A voice crackled.
Although happy to be saved by the bell, I was more confused than I was relieved. Wasn’t it still a little soon for dinner? Did I lose track of time?
My body felt refreshed when I woke up. I suppose I hadn't really had any "proper release" since that first night with Jack, and I'd suffered through several teasing experiences since then. If nothing else was true, Victor certainly did seem to know his way around a woman's body. I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or not.I looked over at Mr. Weston. He was still fast asleep. I guess he was just as drained from our "conversation" yesterday as I was. His sleeping face was peaceful. I had the strong urge to lean over and kiss him.I wanted to treat him like a real lover more than anything. I wanted to be sweet and tender towards him. I wanted to hold him, and kiss him, and spend all day wrapped in his arms.But I couldn’t. He would probably be someone new today. Someone who
As if my thoughts had summoned him, Mr. Weston appeared in the doorway. He seemed cheerful enough when he entered the room, but as he looked our way, his smile quickly turned into a scowl.The day hadn’t even started yet. What could he possibly be upset about this early in the morning? Bits of last night's “conversation” with Victor flashed through my mind. A small fear ran through me.Victor said he remembered some of what happened when he was gone. Didn’t that imply that the others could too? Did this persona remember me? Was that why he looked so angry? My heart was pounding as he stomped my way.However, it looked like I had nothing to worry about. He ignored me completely. His glare was firmly locked onto Thomas as he walked over."Thom
We met the gardeners in the rose garden. Luckily, my interaction with them was a little less intense than the one with the cleaners had been. Much like before, Thomas just wanted to introduce me and inform them that I was taking over soon. Other than that, I apparently didn’t need to instruct them much. I’d only have to speak with them if I noticed something wrong with the garden or if Mr. Weston requested a change.While happy to have one less thing to worry about, it didn’t seem to do much to calm the butterflies that had formed in my stomach. I was so anxious by the time they finally left that I thought I would collapse. I felt like I'd been directing people all day, but the distant sound of the clock told me it'd only been an hour.I glanced over at Thomas. How was he able to do this for so long? Ordering and keeping track of so many
We returned to the mansion a short time later. As we entered the dining room, Thomas began to drift immediately towards the kitchen door. I half-expected him to go in and check on Mr. Weston, but he didn’t.Instead, he just opened it a crack and glanced inside. He stayed that way a moment, a soft smile on his lips. Finally, I heard him sigh. He backed away from the door."It might be good for you to meet with Henry for a while, Ms. Walton," he said gently. "I'll call for you when it's time to inspect the cleaners."With that, he walked off. I wasn't sure how to feel for Thomas. Happy he was starting his new life? Sad he was leaving his old one behind? Sorry he’d been trapped in this situation for so long? I guess it’s hard to know how to feel for somebody who barely knows how they feel themself.
My fears from this morning slowly started to reemerge. Exactly what did Henry remember about me? I was scared of what these “questions” of his might be about. And even more terrified of what might happen if I answered.However, also like this morning, it seemed my fears were, once again, completely off-base. Not two seconds later, he moved away from me and sat in his chair again. He rested his arms on the table and leaned forward eagerly."Now, Ms. Walton, what did you really think of the food?"I blinked. Perhaps it was the fuzziness in my head, but did I hear him right? The food? Did he really do all of this to ask me what I thought of his cooking
The salad he made me really was delicious. I just wish I could have enjoyed it. All that “testing” from before was still sitting in my stomach. I barely ate three bites before my stomach started to protest. How the hell was I going to eat this whole thing?I didn’t have much time to think of a solution. Mr. Weston finished the dishes in what felt like no time. As I probably should have expected, the first thing he did was come over to check on us. He frowned as he saw my almost full plate."You've barely eaten," he said sadly. "Is everything alright?"I almost felt guilty. It was obvious how much Henry cared about his cooking. Besides, it wasn’t like the food was bad, I just didn’t have the room for i
As we continued down the hall, I finally realized where we were going. My room. Well, Mr. Weston's room. Our room? I honestly didn't know what to think of it as.At least, that’s where I thought we were going. Instead, Thomas went over to the door that was closest to it. He motioned for me to follow him in. As he opened the door, I saw what it was. One of the guest bedrooms. It wasn't as grand as Mr. Weston's room, but still nicer than anything else I'd ever stayed in. It looked spotless, the cleaners must have already been through."While I’m glad to know you haven’t had any incidents so far, it really would be best for you to have your own room on the days you don't share one," he said, inspecting the room. "That being said, you’ll only be making more work for yourself if you choose one that’s too far away from him. Mr. Wes
Even though I couldn’t really think of anything else to do, it seemed a shame to spend the whole day napping. Besides, I knew if I slept now, I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep tonight. Which meant I’d just end up back in the exact same position I was in now. Except this time, I'd be exhausted the next morning too.I vaguely remembered Thomas's book saying Victor liked movies. Didn't that mean there had to be a TV or something around this place? It wasn't much, but at least it would help to break the silence. I forced myself out of bed and started roaming down the halls.Quest for the TV wasn't exactly how I planned to spend my day, but I guess it kept me occupied if nothing else. Most of this was due to the fact that I barely knew where anything was in the mansion. I’d really only been following Mr. Weston around to the same five p
Silence filled the air again. We sat there for a while watching the flames crackle in the fireplace. I wasn’t sure how long we stayed like that. However, I did start to notice as his hand loosened and slowly began to slip from my side. As I glanced over, I noticed his glass beginning to tip dangerously in his hand. I gasped, catching it right before it fell."Jack!" I cried, checking to make sure it didn't spill.He jumped as if I'd startled him. I glanced over, he looked confused. Had he fallen asleep? I snickered and set his glass on the table."I think it might be time for bed,” I suggested"No, no. I was just resting my eyes," he grumbled sleepily."Well, then let's rest them in bed," I insisted, standing. I t
I think I finally understood how Arthur felt when I forced him to eat. I shoved down bite after bite, wondering how many I'd have to eat to safely be considered “done.” After a minute, I set my fork down, watching Jack out of the corner of my eye to see how he’d react. When I didn’t see any noticeable changes I finally pushed my plate away."What do you think? Should we head to bed now?" I asked, wiping my mouth."Absolutely not!" He cried indignantly. “I only have a few precious hours left with you and you already know the chances of me waking up as myself again are slim. The last thing I'm going to do is waste one second we have together sleeping."He reached over and grabbed my hand, bringing it to his lips. He pressed my palm to his cheek. His eyes held a tinge of sadness as he look
Despite his insistence that we should get out of the bath, Jack still clung to me like a lovestruck schoolboy. His hands always seemed to be on me in one way or another. Drying me with a towel, playing with my hair, holding my hand. A series of small, sweet gestures that never failed to make my heart flutter. Sadly, I wasn’t able to enjoy the feeling for long. A horrifying revelation suddenly came to me. I gasped and immediately grabbed my clothes off the floor, scrambling to get dressed. He watched me, confused. "Is something wrong?" "I forgot to meet the cleaners," I said, exasperated. "I’m already super late. I have to go. I'll meet you downstairs for dinner." I rushed out
Tell him what I did with Victor? I could feel myself blushing just thinking about it. Don’t get me wrong, I could understand why Jack wanted to know, but that still didn’t make me any more comfortable with the idea. I shook my head, setting my wine glass on the edge of the bath.He sighed softly. “I understand. As I said, I certainly won’t force you to tell me anything.”I could feel my body starting to relax as he said this. At least, until his teeth grazed against my neck. I shivered a bit at the feeling. He pressed a couple more soft kisses to it.“However,” he teased, “I don’t necessarily
My heart was still racing, as he closed the door behind us. However, I didn’t have much time to dwell on this. He didn’t waste another second before he pulled me close and pressed his lips to mine.Kissing Jack always made me feel dizzy. Like my body was losing all its strength. I had to lean against him to support myself. As he pulled away he kept my body close so I wouldn't collapse. His fingers played with my hair."You know what sounds good after walking around in that hot sun all afternoon? A nice, relaxing bath,” he commented.My mind was still hazy from his kiss. I barely even registered what he was saying. It was like my brain auto-piloted right back into my caretaker role."Should I draw one for you, Sir?" I asked.
I saw a couple of the housekeepers scurrying around as we came back. They didn’t even seem to notice us as we walked past them. I guess I could understand why they acted that way though. After all, they were here to clean, not look after us. That was my job.The cleaners might not have been the best companions, but something about just knowing they were around made the house feel a little more lively. I wondered how lonely it would feel tomorrow. Just the two of us.Although considering his earlier request, I might not mind having some privacy tomorrow. I blushed a bit as I remembered the husky tone of his voice.As if he could read my mind, he suddenly leaned in and kissed me. I pulled away nervously. My face felt hot."Mr. Weston, the cleaners!" I reminded
As always, the garden looked beautiful. It was just too bad that I couldn't enjoy it. I hated my mind. The moment we stepped outside the dream I had last night popped back into my head.I didn't want to feel anxious in the garden. I loved the garden. It was the place where Victor and I had walked before, where Arthur and I took photos, where Jack and I first met.Yet as I looked around, all I could remember were the hundreds and hundreds of agonized faces that had surrounded me. All of them crying out, begging me to choose them. I almost shuddered just thinking of it. Would I ever feel comfortable here again?"Are you alright, Anna?" Jack asked suddenly.I sighed. I felt like I was getting that question a lot lately. How did I somehow manage to make
I felt the warmth of his body as it pressed against mine. His fingers kept inching closer and closer towards my aching clit. My mind was a mess. Fulfill his request? For my body?My stomach was a flutter of nerves at the idea, but I wasn’t sure why. After all, hadn’t we done this all before? I'd already seen his body, and we’d definitely done more than just some light petting by now. So why did I feel so nervous about doing it again?It was stupid to ask that question. I already knew the answer. It was because this would be my first real time doing something like this with Jack.Different men in the same body. I understood that now better than ever. Jack wasn’t Victor, and Victor wasn’t Jack. The way they spoke to me, the way they teased me, the way they touched my body. The
I said before that I liked how kind and gentle Jack was, but there was another thing I really liked about him. His patience. I was taking a long time to answer, I knew I was, but he never once tried to rush me. He just stood there, patiently waiting for me to respond.I swallowed a few times, trying to clear the lump from my throat. I took a shaky breath and finally forced the words out of my mouth."Not yet.”"Alright, good. And do you feel the same way about the others?" He asked. I nodded. "Then that's all there is to it.Anna, I said I wasn’t going to make you choose between us and I meant it. Your relationships are your relationships. It wouldn’t be f