“Pocket, what are you doing with that blanket?” I ask while Zara drags the blanket from our bed to her office. We’ve only been home a couple hours and she can’t seem to sit still.“I need it.” Her voice strains against the weight of the heavy quilt. “For my beanbag chair.”“Your Still making a nest?” I take the blanket from her and hand Orli to her instead. “Orli is here now. Your done building, Zara. Now it’s time to relax and spend time with your pup.”Zara stops pulling and drops her shoulders. For a second, I think she’s going to cry, but she sniffles back her tears.“Okay, okay, I’ll take the blanket for you.” I shake my head at her. “All you need to do is ask, Pocket. You’re going to hurt yourself.”Once Zara can get the quilt exactly the way she thinks it should be, she reclines with Orli and finally relaxes enough for both of them to get a nap. While she does that, I put Dillon’s bouncy seat on the kitchen counter and show him how I make omelets.“You gotta let the peppers sof
“Jas, you got this. You have learned everything there is to know about the rehab program and the housing facility. You did all the legwork for the employment programs and permits.” I fix Jasper’s tie for him and pat him on the shoulder. “Just get out there and say it to the audience. There’s only like… thirty reporters, ten investors and donors, and a few vendors and contractors. You’ve gotten up and made a complete asshole out of yourself in front of way more people than that before. Ignore the cameras and answer questions after the speech. It’s that easy.” “He’s right Jasper. If there’s a question you can’t answer, tell ‘em the Goddess Foundation rep is gonna answer it.” Marco points his thumb over his shoulder at the Luna Regent, who is getting last-minute notes from Sam, Estelle, and Dad. “They don’t need to know it’s the head of the Goddess Foundation until she comes out to the podium. They only know the Alpha is here. The only thing I need you to remember is to set up the step
“So Mister Happy is going to have a little brother.” I laugh with Jasper on our way home. “Yeah, looks like it.” He rubs the back of his neck and looks out the window. “I wish more people could see how amazing Kara is. She’s just shy. She can’t help it.” “No, I get it. She’s a sigma. It comes with the territory.” I shrug off the concern. “Zara and Katie have their moments, too. Kara just had a rougher time before you met her. Zara doesn’t tell me about all their conversations, but she tells me it’s clear that Kara wouldn’t have lasted much longer. Katie is the more resilient of the two.” “Yeah. She opens up to me sometimes. After her therapist told her it’s okay to share some of their conversations, things have gotten a lot better.” Jasper’s voice sounds far away. “Between you and me, a couple months after Orli was born, she asked me if I want to have kids one day. That’s huge for her.” “Wow.” I glance at him. “Is that something you want? To have kids?” “I hadn’t really thought a
“She left a note.” Jasper shoves a piece of paper at me when he opens his door. I look at the paper to see Kara’s scrawling handwriting, grateful that she has learned how to write at least some words. Working with Zara and Estelle has taught her more than she used to know. I read the note out loud to myself. Jasper Pansy is rite. I wount bee good at it. I love yuo and Katie. Kara “Do you know what she’s talking about? Won’t be good at what?” I look up from the note. “I thought Pansy doesn’t talk to her anymore.” “She doesn’t.” Jasper wipes his brow. When I look more carefully, I see he looks clammy. “Les is on duty right now. I asked her if she has seen Kara. She said she saw her just after one p.m. but said she didn’t want a guard to go with her. She needed alone time to think. No one has seen her since then.” “Jas, you don’t look so good. Are you okay?” I touch the back of my fingers to his forehead. “I must be getting a stomach bug.” He brushes my hand away. “We need to fi
I make phone calls while I speed toward Portland. Mom and Estelle head to Jasper’s to check on him and Katie. Dad goes to my place to make sure Zara isn’t alone for too long. No one has seen or heard from Kara since she left home at one p.m. The sun is already set by the time I get to Portland. It’s been an unseasonably cold day below the freezing point. The air is colder since we are closer to the water. I park on the abandoned street, pull on my coat, and hop out of the Range Rover. The wind bites at my skin, forcing me to pull my collar up and steel myself against the weather. The familiar smells of piss, stale vomit, and a lingering ketamine mixed with rogue werewolves hang heavy in the air. I don’t know why Kara would come back here, but I hope I’m wrong. I hope Les calls and tells me to come home because they found her at the Cozy Up Cafe playing connect the dots on a children’s menu. I grab my work bag out of the trunk and head to the intersection. “Rocky, keep an ear out fo
“No sense in wasting anymore time. Let’s find her and get her to safety.” Reggie points to the building and gives quick instructions. “I’ll start on the top floor and give an audible when I move to the third floor. Milo and Codi will take the perimeter on the first floor and work their way inward, then move to the second floor. You stay near the stairwells and keep an eye and an ear out.” “If you see or hear anything, make some sort of bird sound.” Milo gives me an example by cooing like a pigeon. “Got it.” I make a mental note of how many bird sounds I know. Owl, pigeon, crow, duck… shit. How come I don’t know more about birds? We give Reggie a three-minute head start. Milo and Cordelia follow him in and I go in when I see them through a window on the first level. I let Rocky come forward enough to help me see in the dark building, trying to cover my nose to avoid the smell of shit and body odor inside. As soon as I’m acclimated to the environment, I make my way to the main stairc
Zara’s POV I should have worked faster. I should have done more research, made more calculations, tested on more animals, and insisted we shorten the testing phases. I could have worked longer hours or asked more people for help. Maybe if I had, Kara would still be here. Katie wouldn’t have spent a week in the hospital. Jasper wouldn’t be depressed and Keller wouldn’t think it’s his fault. So many unanswered questions that will probably stay that way. The police believe Kara knew the person who assaulted her, because she didn’t fight back. Either that, or she was too drunk and high to fight back. I don’t want to think about it either way. They took fingerprints off the liquor bottles but couldn’t find a match in their databases. They told Jasper, if she had previously worked as a prostitute, her assailant could have been anyone from her past. Katie doesn’t know the last names of the men she calls ‘Kara’s customers’. Chances are, they use fake first names too, so it doesn’t matter. W
“Katie, no. I-I can’t say yes. No, I’m sorry, Beautiful. Please understand why I can’t let you do this. I can’t lose you too.” Jasper kneels in front of Katie and takes her hands in his, trying to convince her why she shouldn’t take part in the testing. He leans his head on her leggings and gives her a pleading look. “Ask me for anything else. We can go on vacation or I can buy you a new purse, take you to dinner at any restaurant in the city. If you want to get Mister Happy a girlfriend, we’ll go to the animal shelter in the morning. Please don’t ask me to be okay with this.”“You won’t lose me, Jasper. Poppy thinks I should do it and Poppy never thinks I should do anything. She trusts Zara and Estelle. We know they won’t let anything bad happen to us.” Katie takes Jasper’s face in her hands and forces him to look at her. “I’m a sigma, just like all the other girls Zara is trying to help. Just like Kara is… err… was… If I can help other sigmas by taking the medicine first, then I nee
“Zara, first, I want you to know that your parents loved you. They had no choice when they left you and they never stopped trying to find you and get you back.” Tyree’s tone differs from what I’ve heard from him before. It’s more apologetic and compassionate, like a father trying to make his child understand another point of view. “Tyree, how could I possibly believe that?” Zara holds her hand up to stop him. “They left me on the steps of the pack house. I wasn’t even a week old. They didn’t want me.” “It’s not true, Zara. I promise you it’s not true. Your father’s name is Scott Eklund. Your mother is Sondi. They came here because the Alpha from Emerald Mountain banished them. They were seeking asylum, and it was granted.” Tyree sits back and sighs. “From what I understand, your father attacked the pack’s Beta, trying to defend Sondi. Your mother said she never had a problem with the Beta and barely knew him. Your father had issues with mental illness. He was paranoid and refused to
“First and foremost, thank you all for being here today. I’m going to keep my portion short.” Jasper stands at the podium, now tenured in speaking in front of crowds, looking comfortable to address the room. He pulls out a notecard from his jacket pocket and glances down at it. “There is someone very special I would like to introduce you to. She’s not only the lead scientist for the Sigma Project, she is the mastermind behind the medication that has made this whole thing possible.” Jasper looks into the wings and gives Zara a thumbs up. I feel her take a deep breath under my hands. “This talented woman completed her undergraduate degree and masters in biochemistry, and she’s almost finished with her doctorate all in just over six years. On top of that, she is now the youngest Nobel Prize Laureate ever. In chemistry and in medicine. Friends, she’s the hardest worker in the room, by far the smartest person you will ever meet, an incredible mother, and one of my closest friends. Oh and
“Hey guys, your flight was okay?” Tyree meets us at the doors of the Blood River pack house and ushers us inside. “I know the ride from the airport can be a killer.” “It was great. Thanks, Tyree.” Jasper shakes his hand. “We are all looking forward to this afternoon.” “Uncle Tyree!” Orli runs up to her favorite person and hops to be picked up. “Dillon and I went to kindergarten! I got to show the teacher that I know my alphabet.” “I heard! Did you listen to your teacher?” He holds Orli in his massive arms and gives her a kiss on the cheek. She nods with a shy smile and leans back. “Look at my dress! Daddy says today is special, so I wanted to look pretty. And tomorrow I get to wear my flower girl dress. So I got two pretty dresses to wear.” “Oh, my Goddess.” He smooths down the front of her dusty blue dress. “You are always pretty, baby girl, but this dress makes your eyes look EXTRA blue.” Orli giggles and leans her head on his shoulder, perfectly content to stay with him as lon
The longer Zara takes the sigma serum, the more I notice differences. She isn’t taller or stronger, but some days it seems like it. She handles stress better and doesn’t shy away when she has to speak with people she’s not familiar with like she would have in the past. She almost never has a flight or fight response anymore. It’s refreshing to see her handle life with more confidence and less anxiety and fear. Katie is also doing much better with the new version of the serum than the first one. Instead of putting her on medications, they increase her therapy to once a week. Besides learning how to read with ease, Katie also observes things she never had before. Traffic patterns, the way birds fly together in the sky, the layout of the grocery store, things most people take for granted. She seems to see for the first time. As with all things, with the good comes the bad. Zara starts to have more bad days. A lot more bad days. Mom and Dad take shifts to monitor her while Estelle and
“You’re sure you feel okay?” Zara is already sitting on my lap, but I take her face in my hands and look her in the eye. I look her over and give her a quick peck on the cheek. “You don’t feel warm or anything?” “I feel fine, Keller. I just took the serum fifteen minutes ago.” She covers my hands with hers. “It takes a couple hours for it to get into my system. Right now I’m just exhausted. We intentionally added a light sedative to this version, and it was a later night than I was expecting. If I had known you planned to stay at a hotel instead of going home, I would have packed a bag.” “I’ll know better for next time.” I nuzzle her cheek and settle into the recliner. “You tell me if you feel weird at all. Even a little bit.” “I will, sweetheart.” She leans her head against my shoulder and places her hand on my chest. I slide my hand over hers and interlock our fingers. It makes me smile to feel the ring on her finger. I look at Jasper, who has Katie in his lap as well. He has
“Keller, it’s safe now. It’s taken a few months, but it’s perfect. Estelle and I are sure of it.” Zara hands Orli a piece of banana while she tries to convince me it’s time for her to take what she now calls the sigma serum one point one six. “Zara, I don’t know how many times I can tell you. I’m not okay with it.” I adjust the position of Dillon’s little fork and help him scoop macaroni and cheese onto it. I look up at Zara to see if she’s paying attention. She takes a sip from her glass of juice and sets it down, then places her hands on the counter and drums her fingers impatiently. “Keller-” “Zara.” I feel my mood darken as I glare at her. “Keller, I feel like a broken record. I would be a hypocrite if I said it’s fine for other sigmas, but too dangerous for me.” She wipes Orli’s mouth with a bib and hands her a sippy cup. “We know the women who have met their mates have different body chemistry now. We’ve made adjustments to the sigma serum accordingly. It’s just another leve
I thought it was going to be difficult to get Zara to pull out of the study, but it wasn’t. She was more worried about what could have happened to Orli and Dillon and everyone else she loves and cares about. Two days after the incident, she goes to the lab to speak to the other volunteers to let them know why she has pulled out, but promises them they will still get to see her all the time because she is going to be working directly with Estelle. Katie, on the other hand, won’t be deterred. Even after we explain that she and Zara could have died, she insists she wants to keep going. Jasper is miserable, but puts on a brave face for her. He spends lunch with her every day and comes home to mope. Zara and I try to cheer him up and even help him take care of Mister Happy and Midnight. Mom takes over nanny duty while Katie is away. “Zara, it’s only been a month. Are you sure taking all nine girls all the way to Cozy Up is a good idea?” Jasper stops her from leaving the lab to let the gi
My body feels heavy and Zara’s weight gets pulled off of me, forcing me awake. “What happened? Is she okay?” Someone drained the water out of the tub. Mom has Zara wrapped in a towel, holding her like a baby in her arms. Estelle is next to her, checking Zara’s temperature. “It’s fine, Honey. Her temperature has been normal for an hour. We’re going to put her in bed. I brought you a change of clothes. Come out when you’re dressed.” “Ace is on his way to check on our baby girl.” Estelle lets Mom take Zara out of the room and sits on the edge of the tub. She unfolds a towel and hands it to me. “Are you okay?” “I will be once I know she is.” I wipe my face and chest. “Before she passed out, she said more carrots and less love. Lavender was relaying the message.” Estelle purses her lips and nods. “Yeah. We had talked about that before the study but went with the more potent formulation. I’m going to get a batch of the other one started as soon as I get back to the lab.” “If she’s okay
“Keller will grab Zara. I’ll grab Katie’s top half, just grab her legs. Stop her from kicking if you can.” Les motions how Jasper should try to hold on to Katie. “We’ll take her to the nursery bathroom.” “How do we know who will come out first?” Jasper looks at me and back at Les. Les gives Jasper a sweet smile. “Oh, darling, so innocent. Wolf mentality.” “Wolf mentality?” He looks at me for help. “Wait, how do we know they didn’t turn into wolves? Shift. How do we know they haven’t shifted?” “Their wolves have an advantage to use their senses but stay in human form right now.” Les tugs at her braided ponytail. “They can open doors, push elevator buttons, call for help, things like that.” “Zara is freaking out because her pup is gone. Katie is going to protect Zara to give her a chance to find her baby.” I put my ear to the door. “Katie will make sure danger is out of the way.” “Katie sees Zara as more dominant than she is in the pecking order of your family dynamic. So yes, she