But it still hurts. Every time I think about him with other women, I see him differently little by little. Despite that, I still love and crave for him. As days pass, I miss him even more, and yet, I am not allowed to visit. As per the servants that I asked, whoever let me into the harem building will have the same punishment as Aditya.
Browsing through the books, I can see that if only Aditya was impregnated by the Djambek King, then maybe she could stay by his side. Should I do that? Strive to be pregnant so Theo will return to my side? Will my pr
I stifle my voice as I run and hide in the gazebo, making sure that I am covered with the seat’s blanket. Crouching in the corner, I cry while wrapping my arms around my knees. It’s about to get dark, and I really need to return to my room. Suddenly, I hear a voice. It’s Aditya’s voice. “You finally decide to meet me again,” she says. I am about to get up from where I am hiding when I heard, “I told you I am busy. I have no time for this.” It’s Theo’s voice! It’s been a long time! Oh, moon goddess, I miss him! I will meet him, I– “Busy on what? Impregnating your harem women as fast as possible?” Theo did not respond, so Aditya continues, “I told you, make me your first concubine.” Hearing that, I stay put and once again hug my knees to my chest. “No,” is the flat reply. “You don’t need to think about my jealousy. I understand the need to have heirs, to have other women. All I ask is one night every week. As long as I have y
I open my eyes. It’s morning. Another night without seeing Theo. So, Klevon really is a liar. I tried to stay awake the whole night, but he did not show himself. Massaging my head, I sit up. Yesterday, when I returned to my room, only Harbin and Brandon are waiting for me. No Theo. Contrary to what everyone tells me, I think I am being abandoned. I get up from the bed and suddenly drop to the floor. I feel dizzy. What just happened? I feel sick. It’s been a while. I lift myself and return to my bed. I cover my face with the blanket and finally sleep. The next time I wake up is when someone is hovering over me. I open my eyes and see Harbin beside me. “At last, you are awake. Are you being lazier as the days pass?” I look away. As Harbin says, I want to do nothing today. “Your new handmaid will arrive soon,” he informs. “I don’t need one,” I say. I am to get up when Harbin pushes me back to the bed. “Well, it’s
After breakfast and bath, I go to the sunroom, with the help of a servant who ushers me towards it. I sit on the couch overlooking the massive garden in front. Over half of its walls are made of glass with creeping vines on the glass roof that serves as a shade to the room. The wall behind me is the only solid structure in the room. Alone and uncomfortable, I raise my feet on the couch and hug my knees to my chest. The sunroom is on the second floor, and even if the garden is beautiful, I just can’t help but be anxious. This really is not a place for a werewolf. The door opens and Theo comes in. I notice him taking a breath, but I look away. I sense him coming closer. “Kaiya…” he says. I can hear the love in his voice, but his actions speak otherwise. Leaving me for a month without a word? I don’t think that’s love. Nowra says that she and her mate can’t even be apart for a week. Then he sits on the couch in front of me. I watch him. He is
But he is lying, he did not penetrate me. Instead, he makes me lie on all fours. Keeping my knees close, his manhood slides between my legs, earning a groan from him. Our flesh makes wet sounds as he slides back and forth. And the way he rubs against me creates delicious friction, that when I find my climax again, I fall heavily on the couch, panting in resignation. Then, his movements go faster, and rougher. The couch creaks in both our weights. Until finally, he releases and my skirt gets drenched more than ever. “I love you, Kaiya,” he whispers in my ears as his seed continues to spill between my legs. But all I can do is moan and whimper as the barrage of pleasure continues to assault my body. Then he lifts my body and kisses my mouth. “I think of you all the time,” he whispers, his lips sucking on mine. “Damn, I crave so much for you. But soon,” he whispers. “Soon, we will only have each other. So, wait for me, please… Don’t get tired of me. Remember me, always.” He releases
I feel the bed shift. I open my eyes to see Theo kneeling before me at the foot of the bed. I smile as I watch him, especially when he starts to remove all his clothes. Even in my drowsy state, I find him beautiful. The moonlight sifting through the curtains gives him a more erotic quality. He looks so divine. This is a nice dream. He is a beautiful illusion. There is no way, he’d be in my room, naked and very ready to make love to me. He removes the blanket that’s covering my body and opens my legs. “Kaiya…” he whispers. “I miss you so much.” I miss him. But it’s hard to believe that he does miss me. He’s been gone for more than a week. He broke his promise to me, and I am sure he will be gone for a while more. He lifts my legs and places them over his shoulders. I smile. I am too horny for him that I am getting these nice dreams. I close my eyes. This will pass too, and tomorrow is another day without him. Suddenly, a tongue laps on my folds. I jerk and my eyes open wide. This
It is already morning when we are both spent from a long, passionate lovemaking. I am filled with his seed, and his cum already dried up on my legs, but I know it will be a miracle if another life will result from it. He pulls me to his chest and entwines his limbs with mine. He’s playing on my hair while giving small kisses on my face. I close my eyes. I am too exhausted that I can no longer move a muscle. I am drifting off to sleep, but the way his fingers trail along my skin is waking me up at inopportune times. “I love you, Kaiya,” he whispers and I snuggle closer to him. “We’ll be together from now on.” “Hmmm…” I whisper, my forehead touching his chest. I am engulfed by his lavender scent, even if I know that we should smell like sweat and sex mingled together. “Five of my harem women are pregnant with my heirs.” My eyes flutter open, but I didn’t move. His children. The cause of my pain. I shake my head. It’s unfair to think of unborn children like that. So instead, I lift
I flip the page of the thick book while I am sitting on the bed, with my back on the headboard. I am waiting for either sleep or Theo to come, whichever comes first. When I heard Theo’s footsteps, I remove the blanket and place the book on my bedside table. I watch Theo stride toward me. I grin, especially at the way he looks at me. Reaching my bed, he kisses me as I wrap my arms around his neck. “How was your day?” I ask. “Boring,” he whispers, as he lightly nibbles on my neck. “And yours?” “Still the same. Books with Harbin and physical training with Brandon,” I say, intentionally not telling him about Klevon. “Ah! Tale and Khufu are teaching me more about etiquette.” He pulls back and studies my face. “Do you still enjoy your lessons?” I nod. I gently touch his jaw and whisper, “Theo, I know that I need to learn if I want to stay with you.” He closes his eyes and reaches for my hand. “You’ve done the basics, Kaiya. I think that it’s about time you stop your lessons. The only
I walk along the hallway. I chose the most fitting dress for the introduction party. A simple long dress with the shape of flowers on the bodice and leaves along the edges. It's light purple, and it is a body-fitting dress. I keep my hair loose but I make sure it is neat and pinned carefully.The door suddenly opens on my left, and Klevon comes out while fixing his holster. He raises his head and then he stops on his tracks. He stares openly at me with his mouth hanging open.“What’s wrong?” I ask.“You are beautiful,” he says breathlessly.My frown deepens. “Stop flirting, moron.”“I’m just saying the truth,” he insists. Gathering himself, he asks, “Where are you going?”“The party where Theo will introduce the successful harem women.”He looks incredulously at me, and then he guffaws. He is even holding his stomach while he laughs. “Are you f*ucking serious?! Are you a masochist?”I glare at him. “I want to know who my rivals are.”He roars in laughter again. He places his arms arou
I stand in the middle of an arena. In front of me is an enormous man covered in armor and holding a broadsword in front of him. I pull my sword out of the sheath and face my opponent. He is the biggest of the warriors–at least in mass. His armor covers most of his body except for his joints. A helm covers his face, but even so, I can see that he is very ready to fight. “Ready…” the announcer starts. “Fight!” The crowd of spectators cheers at the same time that the man rushes towards me. He swings his broadsword and I dodge to the left, missing me by a hair’s breadth. I counter by thrusting my sword forward, aiming for his exposed shoulder joints. He parries with ease and strikes back, the force of his attack sending shockwaves down my arm. I take a step back, regaining my composure as he advances once again. This time, I feint to the right and quickly pivot to my left, slashing at his unprotected knee joints. The crowd roars as my blade makes contact, biting into him and drawing bl
It is noisy. Why are people talking about me in my room?! I open my eyes in exasperation. They are saying that I am... Wait, is Kaiya my name? I try to sit up, but my body feels heavy and sluggish. I look down and feel relieved that I have legs... Why though? Nothing is making sense. Confused, I look around. “Kaiya? You’re awake!” a handsome man with black-purple hair says. He hugs me, but I push him away. “She doesn’t like you anymore,” a handsome red-haired man says this time. He’s smaller than the first one but still exudes strength. “Kaiya, you remember me, right? I am your mate.” They wait for me to speak and so I ask, “I am Kaiya?” “Yes, your name is Kaiya,” a woman informs. “The guy with the purplish hair is your lover. The guy with red hair is your mate.” “How does that work? A mate and a lover?” The woman named Inanna shrugs her shoulders and adds, “By the way, I am Inanna.” I try to process what Inanna has just told me. Mate and lover? It feels so foreign to me. “I..
As the purification of the Moon Goddess starts, I am overwhelmed by my own memories. It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before. The pain is excruciating, and I scream out in agony. But as time passes, the pain only intensifies. Tears flow down my face. But judging from the sting as it flows across my face, I think it is blood. I can feel my mind slipping away from the pain, and I can hear the screams of the werewolves inside my head. Suddenly, a warm hand grabs mine, squeezing it tightly. “Stay with me, Kaiya,” a voice says. Inanna. She presses her forehead against mine and whispers words of comfort. I can feel the calming magic from her as well. Through the pain, I manage to grasp onto her hands, anchoring myself to reality. Her magic and tone stabilize me, and slowly, I begin to focus on what’s happening around us. The Moon Goddess is suspended as her purification process starts. I can hear screams from outside the mimicked Realm that Inanna has done. “Don’t give up now...” she
As we leave my chamber, I can hear the sounds of battle growing louder outside. I can sense humans against humans. But there are also vampires and werewolves fighting against humans. There is the sound of swords clashing against swords or armor. Worse, I see the destruction that the fighting is doing to Orttenburg. Even in the early moments of the war, there are already casualties that can be seen around. I clench my jaws. We must end this war soon. All I need is to get General Brandon and purify the Moon Goddess. After that, we can persuade these kingdoms that there’s no need for war. As we hurry through the chaos, I feel a pang of guilt. I can’t help but feel responsible for the destruction and loss of life in Orttenburg. It was my selfishness that led to this war. I have to make this right. Finally, we reach the hall where Inanna and Ruth are waiting for us. Inanna looks at us with a stern expression. “Good, you’re here. Time is of the essence.” I nod as Gezer puts me down. Ina
After sighing, Seth says, “Fine! But only with Theo, at least him–I trust will not hurt you.” I frown. “If you know that then—” “He will not hurt you, but he might take you away!” “Oh,” I mutter because Theo might really do it. I take a deep breath and the room spins for a moment. Seth helps me back to the bed and sits with me while the room steadies. “You should rest more,” he says, but I shake my head. “I can’t waste any time,” I whisper, trying to suppress the tremble in my voice. “Invite Theo. I will meet him in one of the sitting rooms.” “There’s no need for you to move. I will lead him here.” As Seth leaves the room, I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I analyze the current situation. Theo will always help me. The only problem is, I need him to understand the situation. All we need is to trap General Brandon, take out the Moon Goddess, purify her, and that’s it. I can talk with the Moon Goddess and plead with her about my case. All I need is to be strong enough to wr
Suddenly, I am whisked away from my own mind. I open my eyes to see both Inanna and Seth looking down at me. “Kaiya, what’s wrong? What did you see?” Seth asks. “I come here because I sensed some distortions in the air,” Inanna informs. “What happened?” I swallow hard, my head reeling from all the information. It is my fault in the first place! “There’s no dark entity inside me, but I’ve found out something else instead.” “What is it?” Seth asks. He is looking worried as seconds pass. I grin at him. “I am an apostle, rather than a Vessel—if it makes any sense.” Then, I glance at Inanna and ask, “Did you know?” “Just a hint,” she says. “The Blood God told me that you are technically different from us. Gezer, Ninus, and I are Vessels. You are a little bit different, though.” “Then why did you say that I am...” “Because I don’t know what to call you.” “How is an apostle different from vessels?” “I am guessing that it’s in the amount of blessing you received. Once, the Blood Go
I watch as Theo’s ship slowly reaches the horizon. I can still feel the warmth of his embrace, and his words still echo in my heart. ‘No one can take your place, Kaiya.’ I let out a rush of air as I hold back my tears. He’s only been away for a while and I am missing him already. And so I watch as the ship eventually disappears from my sight. At the same time, Inanna reaches for my hand. “I heard that you will be doing a ritual today. Just inform me if you need help,” she says and leaves me and Seth alone on the balcony. I turn to the ocean and take a deep breath. Despite the distance, I can still feel him inside my heart. “Kaiya,” Seth calls from behind me. I turn to him and smile. “Are you ready for the ritual?” “Yes,” I nod. “Let’s start.” We both take out our supplies and prepare for the ritual. We walk to the King’s private garden—a quiet clearing where no one can disturb us. We start by setting up candles, incense, and some crystals that Inanna provided earlier. When all
“Come on, Theo.” I take his hand and we walk to my room. I open the door slowly, revealing my small but cozy room. Light from the moon spills through the window, bathing everything in a soft blue hue. “Welcome to my room,” I say warmly. He looks around carefully with curious eyes, and I can’t help but laugh at his reaction. “Do you like it?” He draws me close before answering. “It’s lovely.” His arms wrap around me tight and he nuzzles his head against mine before kissing me tenderly on the lips. “I really missed you.” I push back and grin at him. “Well, I missed you more.” I take a step back from him and remove my clothes. He watches me as I peel every piece of clothing in my body. He looks at me with such devotion that it makes me blush. “I think it’s about time you bare yourself to me too.” “Nope, I enjoy seeing you like this.” “Like what? Naked and embarrassed?” “No. Looking at me with desire in your eyes.” Theo takes a step closer and runs his hand down my naked back, se
“What the hell is going on here?!” Theo booms, his eyes blazing with fury. I freeze as I see him, my heart pounding in my chest. “King Theo! I told you that this is King Seth’s private area! You are—“ “Your King has done the same thing in my land!” he growls at Darius, who is much taller and bigger than him. Seth stands up calmly and meets Theo’s gaze. “There’s nothing going on here, King Theo. We were just talking.” Theo steps closer and takes in my state, his eyes flickering between Seth and me. “Talking? With your hands all over her? I’m not stupid, Seth. I know that you wanted her even before you have the mate bond with her!” Seth’s jaw tightens as Theo approaches him. Standing tall and unflinching, he says. “I’m not trying to do anything, Theo. Kaiya and I were just having a moment.” “A moment? Is that what you call it?” Theo sneers, grabbing Seth by the collar of his clothes. I stand up, panic rising in my chest. “Theo, stop! We were just talking, I swear!” But Theo doe