After returning to the pack a few days ago, I'm still not certain if I made the right choice with this one. Eris and I haven't talked much about it, but I know that she is feeling my apprehension about a lot of things, and her choosing not to nag me about it is a good thing.
I am the only one who can take responsibility for the complexity of things at the moment, and that is not very encouraging at all, but I cannot do anything about it. I am so stressed to the point that I don't even know what to do anymore.
My thoughts constantly return to the particular day of my arrival, reliving every detail of that scenario in my head. Even though I am aware of the consequences of my actions and must accept things just the way they are, I cannot help but wonder what is truly happening.
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My father and I had been staring at each other for a few moments now, too taken aback about seeing each other again to say anything at the moment. He acts as the Alpha, not my father, so even though my heart wanted to rush to him and give him a tight embrace, I am trying to contain myself. Eris is also whining inside of me; I am aware of how this scene is also affecting her as much as it is affecting me. I want to simply cry and let everything out because I wanted to admit just this once that I am weak, and with my wolf being as emotional as I can be, I don't know how to be strong. My father finally said, "Snow." When I heard him call out my name, a tear escaped from me because I couldn't stand it any longer. I missed him so much and wanted to feel that he felt the same way about me as his daughter, b
Quen showed up in his office at the exact moment he had anticipated, frustrated and angry at the command that he had issued to his men. "Bullshit, Blaze! You have done it again! Why did you order the men to get themselves ready and to gear up? What the hell are you up to this time?! We don't need to trouble ourselves for this. Won't you stop?" "I told you several times, Quen, I am not going to stop until I find her. I need to find Snow, and that's what I am doing." "Damn! You have a lot more important things to focus on instead of focusing your time on finding her. I have already placed an order for some of our men to locate her, so this is no longer your job, Blaze. Your child needs you." "This is my job," he answered firmly. "I need to find her, or else I will die."
"Eris, what do you think has taken place here since we were gone?" It was an inquiry that had been brought up more than once before, but his father nor Ryder never had anything to say, nor did they have the drive to give them the answers until now. "Aren't you wondering what's wrong and why the Alpha refuses to allow us to go home? I mean, I can't understand why we aren't allowed to return home and see the pack." The only thing Eris was able to say was, "I don't know as well, Snow." Like Snow, Eris is curious as to why they are unable to return home, but unlike Snow, she is not inclined to keep asking for an explanation—especially if the Alpha is the one who is preventing them from doing so. Eris happens to be terrified of the Alpha, so she knows when to give up on finding out the answers that are being kept away from them.
"Ahh! Fuck it! I'm wounded." Blaze's anguished growl resonated amid the crossfires, causing his troops to feel worried about him once again. Trying to do everything he could to drag Blaze away from the chaos, Quen stated, "Damn it! This is exactly what I was so concerned about. We're under attack again. Take cover and ensure the boss's safety." He mumbled, furious, "Damn, we're back in this hell hole again." Blaze declared, "I am fine." He is doing his best to keep his men from getting distressed because of him again. He doesn't want to further add to the concern of his men. "I can still fight, but damn try to locate who is ambushing us." "This is pointless, Blaze. We need to retreat or we will all die in here." "No. We have to at least try to find her."
This might have been the most detrimental action Eris and I have ever taken, but it doesn't matter because I know that I must do everything in my power to save my mate as soon as I hear him calling out to me. I cannot let anything happen to Blaze even though I am deeply hurt with all that has transpired between us. Yes, I still continue to think of him as my mate, despite my mind's denial that I still need him. In my heart, we still have that connection, and there is still a vague hope in me that that connection we have will never fade. I am honestly torn between him and Phoenix because I know that, although it is a faint one, I still have a mate bond between both of them. And I am as confused as probably Eris is right now. I distinctly recall feeling that unbearable pain in my chest, and recognizing that Blaze was in trouble, I, right away, began to take act
"That's her! I am sure that's her; even if I haven't seen her wolf yet, without a doubt, I know that it is her." "Alpha Phoenix, you may be mistaken." "No. I know what I felt and I know what I am saying. That is her. That's Snow. Max is so sure about that scent as well. That pristine white wolf is my mate. Tank, you do believe me, right?" "It's honestly hard to say if that is really Snow or not. I mean, why would she be there?" "That wolf is Snow, and she is my fucking mate. However, I can't help but question why in the world doesn't she seem to even recognize me? And who the hell is that bastard who keeps calling out her name?" Phoenix is obviously incensed about what just happened, and everything that transpired is obviously driving his desire to kill someone, spec
Although it was not my original plan to bring Blaze and Quen to the house where Eris and I are staying, I don't have any other option as I find myself at a loss for what to do. I have to make sure that I heal my mate, who has been wounded, before I get rid of them. And on top of that, I need to make sure that the pack of wolves who ambushed them will no longer be a threat to them. He has been staring at me since earlier, and I am conscious of the fact that he has a lot of questions for me, but I'm not even sure if I'm prepared to give him the responses he was hoping for at this time. I may have revealed to him who I really am or what I really was, but I'm not sure if I can further explain my existence to him in more detail. There is a lot for me to consider before I tell him the story of my life other than what he already knows, that my fiance cheated on me w
"I don't know what has gotten into you, Snow, but I like it. I like this new you so much that this might actually be the first time that I have completely agreed with your decisions without a fuss." I could only roll my eyes upon hearing what Eris had to say. Of course, she would like the decision that I have made. Now that we are back in the human realm, my wolf is naturally happy that I was unable to restrain my desires for Blaze. The mate bond still exists between us, no matter how hard I try to end it. But to be perfectly honest, the mate bond may not have been the only reason why we are here with Blaze. I actually have no idea why I chose to be here instead of fixing the problem I created at the pack. Out of nowhere, I just felt the need to hear whatever he had to say. "The fact that he referred to us