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The Return to Crimson Dawn Friday, October 18th Pt. 24
“He’s stopped talking but what I see isn’t stopping. He’s whining that he’s sorry. That this is the reason he doesn’t share his memories, our memories with me.” His entire body shakes as his panic and fear rises. “Noooo!!!” He yells as he leaves his seat. The hallucination is strong enough that he attempts to run from whatever happened in his past. “What’s happening? What do you see, Cole?” I speak firmly without anger in the hopes of reaching him as I stop his ability to run. “Help me!!!!” He screams as he fights my hold. It only takes a few minutes before he relents and collapses into me. I hold him gently as he whimpers. “What’s going on, Cole?” I ask as I rub his head. “It hurts. I don’t want this.” He whispers after a long pause. “It’s hard to remember what happened but it’s also important. I don’t normally encourage this but I need to know what’s happening.” I explain as I continue my gentle rub on his head. “It hurts, I’m hurt.” He starts off slowly. “What’s hurting
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It takes far longer than I anticipated to get Cole settled into bed. Somehow the memory of his brother forcing him to receive Viagra and silver has become twisted in his head causing him to believe that he’s the rapist. I just don’t have the heart to explain that it’s the opposite when he counters my claim that his interpretation of events is wrong. It wasn’t until Deven gave me his Ativan that he was finally able to settle into sleeping in the same bed as his mate. The lad is truly exhausted and I don’t see much sleep happening for him with the awaking of this memory. I wait fifteen minutes after he’s fallen asleep before attempting to leave the room. It’s taken him nearly two hours to settle down. I walk back into the living room with Deven after he checks vitals on Jessa, flopping carelessly into the chair Cole left. His scent lingers on the cloth as I lean forward, placing my face into my hands. “It’s obvious that finding out about the shots he received are disturbing but I don’
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(Demetri’s POV) “Noooo! Please mama! Don’t do this!” A young boy in his teens screams and fights as he is dragged down the hallway by an older woman and man to an open door. His fight intensifies as they enter the room. “Don’t do this! Please! What have I done to deserve this?!” He stops his fight just long enough to look up through his right eye. I roll uncomfortably in my bed as the pain this young lad is already in creeps into my body. His sight holds the telltale signs of his left eye being swollen as his vision is partially blurred and it’s painful to open. The man that held one arm of the teen lets go as the child freezes in terror. “You have no right to say a thing about what happens in this room between us. You have a harsh lesson to learn in keeping your mouth shut.” A grown man twice the boy’s size growls as he towers over him. His mother lets go of his hands before hurriedly leaving the room. The sounds of the door clicking shut and a bolt on the outside being loc
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(Cole’s POV)My briefly peaceful sleep is violently interrupted by my own screams. Without a moment to wake, I dart into the bathroom and kneel before the porcelain god forcing the contents of my twisted stomach into the water below. I continue heaving and retching despite there being nothing but bile available to pull out of inside me. My lungs burn as I struggle with a deep wheezing and my entire body shakes violently with pain and fear. I stay on the cold floor, trying to put the pieces together. I shake my head, unwilling to believe that it happened. That it wasn’t just a dream but a memory of what I ran from. Just like the description of sex that I gave Deven. Two shots leading to a painful hard on that the ladies ride. This is even more depraved than that. I whimper on the cold tile floor as I long to be held and cuddled like a young pup. It’s only as the sound of Jessa retching in the bed reaches me that I finally stand. I grab and lean against the wall holding my breath as m
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I wake to find myself wet and freezing cold only I’m no longer in the tub with my mate. My body screams in pain, I can’t open my eyes and I’m struggling to breathe when I hear multiple voices surrounding me. “How do we know if that water woke him when his eyes are swollen shut?” A vaguely familiar voice asks as I feel a hand grab my arm near my shoulder. “He’s awake. His breathing has changed. He’s trying to take deeper breaths to accommodate his asthma attack but he’s too beat down to realize all he’s doing is causing more pain. Doesn’t matter much. He hit me. You’re witness to that. He’s about to experience a whole new pain that makes the rest of this child’s play.” Another familiar voice has grabbed the other arm and the two of them walk together dragging my feet on the floor. “Are you really going to take the whip to him?” The first voice sounds nervous, almost scared for me. “He’ll be the youngest I’ve ever done. I’ll be surprised if he survives the night once I’m through
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“You’re still…” He seems to get cut off as my body flinches from the echo his voice produces. “I need you to come close.” Demetri nearly whispers. “What’s going on?” Deven asks just as quietly, allowing me to relax. “I haven’t worked with a fully trained empath so please pardon me if I tell you what you already feel. He’s in bad shape mentally and physically. This is one of the worst panic attacks I’ve seen him in. The panic induced asthma attack that alerted me to his dire condition his first morning on my land wasn’t this bad.” There’s a pause before the cold of a stethoscope can be felt on my back. Despite my sight not returning to normal just yet I am instinctively aware of how close to Demetri I am. I hold my breath as the cold metal touching me causes a painful burning that I can’t pull myself away from. “Breathe Cole. I can hear you wheezing and I need to hear how constricted your lungs are.” Deven instructs but I can’t and shake my head against Demetri’s shoulder in an
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I feel a light pressure between my shoulders before his hand reaches my hair. “Demetri?” Dr. Leroux questions. He sighs hard. “I need him tested for Hyper-sexualization Disorder.” His voice is quiet, sounding ashamed of what he’s asking. “He has none of the signs of HSD. Why do you want him tested?” “I can’t explain. At least not right now but I need it done. I will pay for it. Just let me know the cost.” “Are you aware that sexual assault after the first shift will not result in HSD?” Dr. Leroux seems to be having a hard time with his request. “I do. My reasoning is not because of the sexual assault that occurred before he left.” “Do you have reason to believe that it happened during his childhood?” He continues to question as I struggle with remaining awake. “Anything is possible.” He keeps it simple. There’s something about the way he says it that makes it clear he’s not going any further with the conversation. “Evelyn, are you familiar with the four marker
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“No!” I yelp as I attempt to fight. Demetri’s hold tightens around me until I settle. “It’s okay. I’ve read your chart and the first few times I do this is going to be rough controlling your reaction. Sharing your previous experience with it helps the others understand why this is difficult.” I whine sharply as I feel the sharp tip against the inside of my arm again. “Very well done. I need you to describe what you feel.” “No.” I nearly yell again as I try to pull away. “It’s sharp. Just like a needle. Please stop putting it in me.” I finally break, completely defeated as the realization that I can’t get away and I can’t stop it overcomes me. Between the pain I’m in and the fear of this testing I can’t hold back any longer. I bury my face against Demetri’s arm. My body shakes as I finally allow myself to cry. I want to grab Demetri’s hand but something about the situation has me frozen. He massages my head gently, silently waiting for me to calm. “Demetri, can run your hand
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“I’m concerned about you Andre.” Julius now has my attention only he has crouched down to my level. “While your statement seems to have helped Hayden it gave me the clue I was looking for.” “A clue to what?” “The true reason behind the terror you have in gaining custody of your kids. While any other wolf in this pack saying such a thing would be passed off as simply being very serious about their statement, you stating that you nearly died once to fight for them is something I take very seriously. What happened the last time they were taken from you?” I shake my head hard, holding my breath as I fight against the flashbacks trying to invade my thoughts. “Andre?” He tries again but all I can do is shake my head slowly. “Papa Redmen hit him. He made him bleed.” The innocent voice of my daughter breaks through. “You saw it?” Abe seems shocked that it would be done in front of her. I watch as she nods her head. “Mommy spanked me for crying.” She whines hard before laying against h
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“It’s quite alright. We are used to this type of reaction from children who come in abused. I can tell by the way he’s calmed that you are his biological father. We’ve been waiting for you.” I’m stunned when a voice comes from behind me instead of the nurse in front of me. I turn to see an unfamiliar woman in the doorway in front of Julius and Alex. Something about her unnerves deeply and my immediate reaction is to step back. “Easy Andre, she’s here to help.” Julius tries to calm me. We study each other silently as I sway gently. “I understand that you have had a very rough time with the council’s family court. I promise it is different this time. Take a seat so we can talk. Are you okay with me sitting on Harper’s bed?” I nod slowly without moving. “Mr. Redmen, do you think you can get him to take this?” The nurse hands me a little cup of purple liquid. “What is it?” “Tylenol 3. It has a small amount of codeine in it. Humans won’t give it to children this young but it has be
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I wake up yelping, screaming and fighting from the fitful dream I fell into during the ride to Red General. I cling hard to the back of Alpha Julius’s shirt as he silently embraces me. I had no idea how hard dad had been on me until I went to Blister Ridge. I had to harden up while I was back at Red Fang which has not only delayed my ability to process what has happened but it has added to the trauma I’m already struggling with. Josh has diagnosed me with complex PTSD, he did shortly after I moved into this pack after Cole disappeared. He simplified the description as being multiple traumatic events instead of just one causing the post trauma anxiety. Julius waits patiently for me to get myself together as going into the hospital with my own PTSD on full display won’t help me with my kids. I lift myself from his shoulder slowly, taking several deep breaths with my eyes still closed. It’s only as I open them and look into his blue-green eyes that he speaks. “Are you ready?” His voic
